How are you when you're in love? Are you the kind of person who gives everything to the lucky person? Or, are you the kind who is afraid to show to the other person how you truly feels?
But what if the person you truly love doesn't feel the same way towards you? Will you stay and fight for your feelings until that person realizes how valuable you truly are, or will you just let go and move on? Whatever side you are on, there will come a time that we have to let go. And we all know that letting go is never easy. It takes time and more tissues until you can finally say, "I'm over you!".
Some people would fight for their true love. They would do anything just to make the other person feels that what they are feeling is 100% real. Some people would even wait for months to years, hoping that the other person's heart will change in favor of them.
I kinda know these things because I was once in love with someone so badly and deeply. That feeling was so intense that it took me 2 years to finally let go. I know I shouldn't be torturing myself like that, but what can I do? I mean, when the heart feels, it never listens. It's like it has its mind of its own that even the smartest mind cannot handle.
And, yes, I stayed in love for 2 years, while the other person kept reminding me not to love him. It sucks! Like big time! He was the only person that made me feel like that. He made me crazy! It felt like heaven and hell.
But he never felt the same for me. Unfortunately, he only sees me as a friend, and that's it. I know he cares for me but as a dearest friend. And it broke my heart over and over again. I even got rejected by him many times. MANY.
I tried not to talk to him, but whenever I did, it only made me miss him even more, and the feelings that I tried to get rid of would keep coming back for more. I was also quite, well, extra dramatic along those 2 years. I guess that was also one of the few things he doesn't like about me. I was a bit immature, childish, clingy, attention-seeker, and not to mention, overly dramatic person.
Well, unfortunately, I couldn't control my emotions. I know you know how hard it is to just pretend you're fine when you're not. It was hard, but I tried to be someone that he liked. I tried to be the less caring person, less talker, less everything. I tried, but I failed.
But one day, I just realized, I should stop it. Loving him was the best feeling, but it was also killing me inside. So, when I finally got to my senses, I decided to think about something else, do something better, and focus on my other goals. And, yes, after so many attempts in moving on, I finally made it!
Eventually, I realized that the more you keep trying to hold onto something that doesn't want to be held, the more that person fights back and wants to get off you. It took me 2 years to realize that, but at least, I finally did it.
We are still friends, and we still talk. Although it wasn't the same thing anymore, the important is we were able to save the most significant relationship anyone could ask for, and that's our friendship.
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My one great love is my husband. I have never love someone so deeply that thinking life without him is empty(a bit corny😂). We've been together for 20 years now. Sure it is not easy, there were problems that almost made us separate our ways. But what keep us together is the love that we have for each other.