General Cleaning Day
March 20, 2022
Hello readcash citizens. Happy Sunday to all of you.
Yesterday, I wasn't able to publish for I was so worn out. I have one article in my draft but I couldn't finished it for my eyes and body really wanted to rest already. I have shared that me and my little family were at my parents place for almost a week. We went home here in my partner's place last Thursday. My partner's two younger siblings were the one who left in charge in the house. I was confident that they will clean the house for they are grown-ups already. I mean they are teenagers so I thought that they can be dependable in managing the cleanliness of the house. But when we came home Thursday afternoon, I was so disappointed. Even my partner was so disappointed too. The kitchen was left unclean, the floor seems like it hadn't swept after we left, no more water in the water dispenser and the yard has many dry leaves. The house was a mess.
My partner and I were exhausted for the travel so we decided to clean the house the next day. But on Friday, my partner told me that he will do the laundry first for we already have two mountainous used clothes - ours and our daughter's. So, while my partner was busy doing the laundry, I was also did a light cleaning in the house while looking after my daughter. Last Friday, the weather was not also good so we cannot clean the yard. Good thing yesterday, the weather was fine so we able to clean inside and outside the house.
Early morning yesterday, I started my day with a cup of coffee paired with crunchy Hopia Malitboganon Krakers. I bought it in our town when we were heading in my partner's house. After enjoying my coffee, I bathe my daughter and feed her. Next to that, I started my general cleaning. I started cleaning our bedroom. Clear all the cobwebs and dusts in the window. I followed our living room. A swept and mopped the floor, arranged my partner's sibling's shoes, wiped away all the dusts and arranged and clean the TV cabinet. Next stop was the kitchen. I cleaned the sink for there were molds already. My goodness! I threw away our garbage for it's already full. We have three garbage bin and all of them were already full yet no one throw it out. After the intense cleaning in the kitchen, my next stop was the comfort room. It did not took me long in cleaning the cr for our comfort room is not that big. Alas! I finished cleaning the inside part of the house right before lunchtime.
My partner also on the other hand was assigned to clean the yard or the outside part of the house. He decided to do it after lunchtime so I can watch over our daughter. The weeds were tall already and it needs to be pulled. Me and our daughter was just inside the house for it was so hot outside. I let my daughter to take her noontime nap so I can hustle here. But as I have read two articles, I felt drowsy so I decided to took a quick nap. But the quick nap turned into into a deep sleep. I woke up 4 in the afternoon and so my daughter. My partner was done cleaning the yard and I was happy when I saw that it was clean already. There were no more tall grasses in our yard.
After feeding my daughter for her afternoon snacks, we went at the playground just across our house. Actually, it is a Mormons church and has a basketball court and a huge plaza. Every afternoon, my daughter loves to go there to watch her father playing basketball. She knows how to cheer her papa everytime he can shoot the ball in the ring. I just find it so cute everytime she clapped and shout "yeyyyy Papa". When she is done watching the games, she loves to run around the big plaza even if she has no one to play with.
Photo above is my daughter enjoying her time. She run and run until she felt tired.
She took a rest after roaming around the plaza.
Oh! We took a little pose before we go home.🥰
This is it for today guys. It's almost lunchtime. I need to prepare our lunch first. I'll be back and read your articles after. Thank you for reading. God bless you all.
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What's My Type?
March 18, 2022 (Friday)
Hello, hello readcash community! Finally I'm back after six days of being not active. How are you all doing? I miss writing and reading your works.
This morning, I have read @Jinifer 's article.(sorry for the tag sis) It is about the This and That My Type Version. Since I can't think of a topic to write today, I decided to join and make my version too. I also refer the the choices HERE. https://read.cash/@ExpertWritter/this-or-that-which-one-is-your-type-8a028bc9
So, let's start answering!
**Older or Younger**
-Before, my type of a person is older than me. My exes (yes plural cause they're more than two Lol) were all older than me. I have an ex whose five years older than me. There were also two or one year older. I liked older men for the reason that I believe they are more mature than me. Which only demonstrate that they can handle the relationship well. I'm a childish person, mentally and physically (Lol), so I need a partner who can handle my childishness. But guess what? I ended up to a person who is younger than me. Yes, you read it right. I am six years older than my partner. Look how destiny plays. But I am still thankful for my partner is more matured than me.haha
Sports or Music
-Both. I like a guy who can play sports and love music too. Thus, I am lucky cause my partner can do sports. He can play basketball, sepak takraw, badminton ( he was a champion when we were in college), volleyball (he was a varsity player during his high school days and also in college), and taekwondo. He also loves music. He can sing but he's a bit shy.
Looks or Personality
- Looks is not important to me. What matters most is the personality of the person. Looks is just a bonus. Before, everytime I have a suitor, I always assess their personalities. It is very important to me the behavioral qualities of my suitors. What is beauty if your behavior is ugly?charoot
Taller or Shorter
- I'm 5'0 (American height) so I prefer a taller man. All my exes were all taller than me. Even though my partner is younger than me, he is quite taller than I am. Though not that much height. He is seven inches taller than me. I believe that our height is compatible.
Talkative or Quiet
-I like talkative since I am also a talkative person.haha A little trivia of me. When I was an elementary pupil, my teacher wrote in my card that I am a very talkative in the class.haha Everytime I see that card, I can't help myself to laugh hard. Okay, back to the topic. I like a guy who will share his life stories, his thoughts (no matter how crazy is that), his ideas and etc. I like the one who can initiate topics and have a never ending discourse.haha charoot lang.
Polite or Funny
-Both! I like a person who is polite but also has a sense of humor. I don't like that is so serious. That would be mundane. Also, it would be nice to be with a funny companion. Where you can have a light moment by just laughing while you are together. My partner was so stern before. He can't even crack a joke. But when we became together, he slowly show his funny side.
Cold or Romantic
-Of course romantic. I'm a hopeless romantic so I like a romantic guy too.hihi A guy who can make efforts can touch my heart big time. It may not be lavish or something big, as long as I he do it for me, I would gladly appreciate that. When it comes to my partner, he is romantic too. He admitted that before on his past relationship, he did not do something or buy something for his girlfriend. But when we got in relationship or even when we were friends, he already showed his romantic side to me. Of course, I am elated that I see how romantic he is. Even now, he still do things that melt my heart.choss😁
Drink or Nope
-I have no problem with a guy who drink liquor as long as he is responsible. I used to drink liquor too before my daughter came. My partner drinks too but he is a responsible drinker. He knows how to handle himself when he's drunk. Also, I haven't seen him wasted. Now that we have a daughter already, he only drinks occasionally.
Hello once again guys. I opted to join this version to refresh my mind. I was out for six days for I was at my parents place. The internet connection there was not yet stable that is why I can't access my account here. I have missed many articles already so I need to catch up. Next time I will share to you our six day vacation at my parents place. But now, this is I can write. I feel like my head is still on vacation.hihi Till next time guys. Thank you for reading.😊
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Insomnia Is Back
**March 11, 2022 (Friday)**
Hello,hello readcash citizens all around the globe. How is/was your Friday? Is it good? Is it productive? Or just another normal day?
Me, my Friday is not that good. Last night, I had a hard time sleeping. I don't know what happened to me. No matter how much I tried to close my eyes, my brain keeps on wandering anywhere. My daughter slept past 11 and I was the one who put her to sleep. I also wanted to sleep but I just couldn't. My eyes wanted to rest already but my brain seemed not to rest. Thus, I ended up getting out of bed and went outside our room. I saw my partner busy on his Photoshop learning. I sat next to him. He asked why I am still awake. I answered him that I couldn't sleep. He told me to drink milk instead so I can rest. I followed his suggestion. At 12:30 midnight, he went to bed already. While me, I was still awake. Thus, I decided to write an article so I can be productive. I finished my article past 1 in the morning. I wanted to rest already for the roosters were already crowing. But I still couldn't for I am still not drowsy. So, I opted to watched movie. I was alone in the living room for my partner and daughter were already in the deep sleep. Oh I was envious of them. Until 3:00 o'clock struck. I decided to went in our bed and just lay until I fall asleep. It took me about 30 minutes before I fell asleep.
Morning came. My partner woke me up for I need to feed my daughter. I was really lightheaded for I was lack of sleep. After I fed my daughter, I asked my partner that I need to doze off a bit. My head started to ache so I need to rest a little. I went back to bed to take a forty winks but my eyes betrayed me again. I couldn't go back to sleep. I ended up snuck out of our bed and just perform my household chores. I look after our daughter when my partner went to the market to buy a sack of rice. Then, I remember that last night, my sister invited us to go swimming this coming Sunday. His partner came from Cebu and she wanted us to have a little get together. I informed my partner about it and he agreed. He also miss swimming at the beach. And I know our daughter will also like it for she also loves playing the seawater.
I decided to cashed out a little amount from my earnings here. I'm a bit sad for the bch is in red days. But I need to withdraw for us to have an extra money. So, I draw out P2,000 or $40. I just finished packing our things that we are going to bring. My partner wanted us to travel early in the morning. We just hope that it won't rain. It would be difficult for us for we are only using our motorcycle and we have a baby. We also have many things to bring for we decided to stay there for two days. *So, sana di siya uulan.🤞*
It's almost 10 in the evening already. I want to sleep early for we need to wake up early tomorrow. I hope I can sleep now.
Hello once again guys. I'm so sorry for my blog is kinda messy and nonsense. I can't think of a good topic today. I still have a mild headache due to lack of sleep. This insomnia bothers me big time. I already drink milk hoping it can help me sleep tight tonight. I need to rest my brain.argg. *Pasensiya na po ulit.*
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Getting To Know Me
March 11, 2022 (Friday)
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**Do you like or dislike surprises? Why or why not?**
-I like being surprised. Why? I just love the feeling of being surprised. But I haven't tried being surprised on my birthday. When I was in college, in our boarding house, I was always the one who organized a surprise for every boardmates who celebrated a birthday. Sometimes I even use my own money for the decorations.
**Have you ever had a nickname? What is it?**
-Yes I had and have. When I was young, my cousin used to call me "Bobot" because I was really thin before. But I didn't like the name, thus, when they call me using that name, I didn't listen. I only listen when they call my name. I have already shared here that my real name is "Janiza". But in our barangay, the people there know me by the name "Janice". So if you look for me and you asked direction in our house and you use my real name, they can't give you information on that.Lol And for my partner, he calls me "Putong" and I also call him "Pikot". He calls me that because I am a quick-tempered before. I also call him pikot because he has small eyes.
**What are your hobbies?**
-I have multiple hobbies actually. I love listening to music, reading fictional books or novels, dancing and watching movies. Sometimes, if I have a great mood, I love to sing even though I am not really good or not having a golden voice.Lol And my new hobby is teasing my partner.haha
**How many pairs of shoes do you own?**
-I only have two pairs of shoes. I am not into buying shoes. In fact, I bought the one pair of my shoes when I was still in college. Now, it's kinda tight on my feet so I didn't use it that much.
**What's the longest you've gone without sleep (and why)?**
- The longest day that I have gone without sleep was two days. That was when I was at Cebu. It was New Year and we literally did not sleep for the reason that we want to welcome the new year. After 12 midnight, we play until morning. Actually, we ended our game 7 in the morning. Then, we just rest for a few minutes and then prepared ourselves again for we decided to go to the mall. We had a great time and we enjoyed so much so we went home already past 2 in the dawn. I couldn't believe that I managed to not to sleep that long.
**What was the last book you read?**
-The last book that I have read was Greek Mythology book of Edith Hamilton. I was pregnant at that time. Whenever we had a fight with my partner, I read that book to let my anger pass. And guess what? It was helpful for some of what I have read came out during the exam.hihi
**What's your favorite fast food chain?**
-Oh I'm a Jollibee fan ever since. The first time I eat Jollibee was when I was in first year high school. My aunt treat us for we won during the Sinulog Festival in our Town. From that day on, when I tasted their food, I became their fan until this moment of time.
**What's the craziest thing you’ve done in the name of love?**
-They say when it comes to love, you became cretinous. The craziest thing I have done in the name of love was I let passed a good opportunity. I declined an offer of being enrolled at PUP (Polytechnic University of the Philippines) because I chose to went home in our province for my ex-boyfriend. We broke up that time and I decided to go home for him to come back. (Dakilang t*nga 🙇♀️)
**Do you collect anything?**
-Yes. Before, I used to collect small seashells. In fact, I already have two bottles of it. But when I was in college, I accepted making projects of my neighbors for me to have extra money for my studies. Then, I used my collected seashells as a design on one of the projects that I made. I also love to collect 25 centavo coin.
**Who was your favorite teacher in school and why?**
-My favorite teacher was my grade six teacher. Why? She was smart, passionate on her works and a very strong woman. I remember there was one time that she had a huge family problem but she still manage to teach us with a smile on her face. But during lunchtime, I saw her crying. She is a brave woman.
Time check: it's 1:32 a.m. I couldn't sleep so I decided to write and answer this random questions. Actually, this has been in my drafts a couple of days already but I wasn't able to finish for I was hooked up watching Bromans show.hihi I have read sis @BCH_LOVER 's article about this random questions so I decided to answer also. (*thank you sis and sorry for the tag)* If you like to take part, you can get the questions HERE. https://m.signupgenius.com/#!/resources/articles/groups/getting-to-know-you-questions
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Finally! He Got Vaccinated
**March 09, 2022**
Hello readcash citizens. Happy Wednesday to all of you. How's your day by the way? I hope everything is good and filled with happiness.
Today, a friend of mine invited me to have milktea. We will be going to celebrate her anniversary here in readcash. I was already excited.*(Sino ba namang hindi maeexcite sa libre.Lol*) Afternoon came, while we were praying for our lunch, my friend chatted me that it's time for us to go. I replied her that I have to take lunch first. Few minutes later, my partner's former classmate, who works in the municipality, informed him that there is a Pfizer vaccine for first dose. My partner only wanted to be vaccinated by Pfizer just like mine. He didn't want to be jabbed by other vaccine. In fact, he had no plans on getting vaccinated but vaccination cards are required in entering in every establishments. Thus, it leave him no choice but to get vaccinated. There was one of his college classmates before advised him to photoshopped a vaccination card. But I told him that he will get arrested if he will be caught.
I chatted my friend that I can't go with her for the reason that no one will look after my daughter. I'm glad that she said it's alright. At 1 p.m., my partner headed back to the municipal gym where the vaccination center situated. It only took less than an hour for him to get the jab. Maybe there were only few people in the vaccination site. When he got home, he said that his left arm is soar. I told him that it's natural for the first dose. I ordered him to take some rest. But when I suddenly I noticed that he became pale. I asked him if he's fine. He said that he felt weak and hard to breathe. Oh my goodness! I was alarmed so I let him sit in our bed. I quickly get water and paracetamol for him to take. He requested me to buy Royal (a kind of soft drinks). I hurriedly went to the store but unfortunately they have no Royal. I went to another store and again, nothing. I headed home for I was afraid what might happen to him. I chatted his mother to inform his situation. His mother told me to let him rest. He is always like that everytime he is injected. He was just nervous. I felt relief when I know that he was just nervous. Phew! I was afraid if he will collapse, I can't lift him for he is a big person.
Now, in this moment of writing, my partner is asleep together with my daughter. I'll just monitor him. I am also monitoring our surroundings. The rain poured heavily again. So, I need to be vigilant. I know the water in the river already high again.
Photo above is the current situation here in our place. Why is this rain pour non-stop? Look at our yard, the grasses are tall already. I planned on cleaning the them but I can't for it is always raining. I already miss Mr. Sunshine.
I am happy that my partner finally decided to get vaccinated. Aside from the fact that he can now have a pass in entering some establishments, I can now assure his health security. It is very important to get vaccinated for us to be safe (though not totally safe since we can still be infected by the virus even if we are already vaccinated). It can only help us not to have a severe symptoms. *So, sa mga unvaccinated, tara pabakuna na at sabay-sabay na tayong maging zombie.hahhaha charoot lang po.*
Thank you for reading everyone. Till next time. Be safe always and God bless us all.
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Student Again (Math Problems)
March 08, 2022
Hello readcash community. How are you all? Today, the rain poured endlessly here in our place. The particular reason of this circumstance is because of the LPA (Low Pressure Area) there in Mindanao part of the country. This actively demonstrate that we will be rained for a couple of days. But actually, ever since I live here, I can say that this place is favorite of rain. Most of the time, rain falls even without reason.
Okay, enough of my weather rants. I can't do anything about it if it loves to pour here in our place.
Today, I became student again. Why? Here's the reason.
Story Time.
Yesterday, my older sister video called me. It's been a couple of months since the last time we talked to each other. We became busy with our different priorities. My sister have a son that is currently a grade 5 student. Because of the pandemic, they are now in a modular class situation. My sister did not pursue college education for the reason that she needs to work after graduating high school. Our grandmother on our mother's side, was the one who raised her. Our grandmother cannot afford to send her to college that is why my sister opted to work. After few years of working, she met her partner and started to build their own family. Because of that circumstances, it is hard for her to teach her son. There were lessons that she is not familiar with. It is also a challenge for her to focus on her son's study because she also have a store to manage with. With that, she seek some help to me which I willingly give.
Last night, she sent to me the file for her son's lesson. I thought it was just an easy lesson. When I opened the file, my not so favorite subject welcomed my eyes. And what subject is that? It's Mathematics.*(Sino dito ang hindi takot sa Math?Itaas ang paa.Lol*) I was like, "Oh my!" I detest Mathematics subjects. I don't know why I find it hard to understand this subject. No matter how I tried myself to be cognizant with this subject, I just can't. When I was in high school and college, I had low grades when it comes to Math. Though, not too low. I still have passable grades naman.haha
When I read the topic, it is about "**solving routine and non-routine problems involving percentage using appropriate strategies and tools**". *Oh dzivahh title pa lang ng topic kinabahan na ako.* Oh my gulay. I chatted my sister that I will just try to answer. I am not confident if my answers are correct. Good thing there is an explanation on the file how to solve the problems. With a heavy head, I read and studied the lesson. While studying the topic, I feel like I'm back on being a student again. Solving Mathematics problems is really not my forte. I had a hard time understanding the lesson. I am quite confused on how to follow the solution on finding the rate, the base and percentage. I can't also focused on what I am doing for the reason that my daughter always dragged me to play with her.
Eventually, I decided to ask help from my partner. He was a Math major before he decided to shift another course. When he looked at the topic, he just told that it was just an easy lesson. (*Eh deh ako na ang obob sa Math*ಥ‿ಥ) He taught me the formula and later on I already get the process. Thus, I solved the problems that were given and I also showed the solutions so that my nephew can learn how I got the answers.
After how many hours of squeezing my head, I am finally done. Woooh a round of applause to you self.Lol When I was done answering, I took photos and send it to my sister. I just hope that it is easy for my nephew to follow the solutions that I wrote.
That's it for today guys. I just had a good day because of this. I felt like I achieve something after I finished answering.haha Thank you for reading. Next time again.
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Tula Para Sayo
Ang daming salita ang naglalaro sa isipan,
Pero ang labi ko ay labis na nahihirapan.
Hindi mahagilap ang tamang salita,
Para maipalabas ang tunay na nadarama.
Sisimulan ko na lang noong una kang makita,
Lagi kang mahagilap ng aking mga mata.
Hindi mabatid ng damdamin ang nadaramang tunay,
Parang gustong ikaw ay maging parte ng aking buhay.
Tadhana talaga ay sadyang mapaglaro,
Laging binabalisa ang pusonh tuliro.
Tayo'y pinaglapit at naging magkaibigan,
Naging sumbungan sa mga mapait na nakaraan.
Pusong dati'y lumuluha, ngayo'y naging masaya.
Naging masigla at nakaramdam ulit ng ligaya.
Sa bawat araw na ikaw ang laging kapiling,
Umusbong sa puso ang isang malalim na hiling.
Munting hiling ay dininig ng Maykapal,
Naging maligaya ang pusong tulirong kaytagal.
Hiling ulit ng puso sa Mahal na Birhen,
Habang buhay na pagmamahal aking damhin.
Bawat lugar na napasyalan at napuntahan,
Nag-iiwan ng mga alaalang di malilimutan.
Bawat kislap ng iyong maliliit na mata,
Mga ngiti sa aking labi ang iyong makikita.
Kaligayahang nadama ngayon lang naramdam,
Kahit sa nakalipas hindi nabatid kailanman.
Laking pasasalamat sa Poong Maykapal,
Dahil ikaw ang lalaking aking minahal.
Pasensiya na Mahal ito lang ang maiaalay,
Tulang binuo ng pusong ayaw kang mawalay.
Sa araw ng mga puso, gusto kong malaman mo,
Bawat bigkas ng "Mahal Kita" ay totoo.
Magandang araw po sa lahat. Kamusta na kayo? Sa araw na ito ay ginamit ko muna ang wikang Tagalog sapagkat gusto ko munang magpahinga sa wikang Ingles.
Ang tulang nasa itaas ang ang tulang binuo at isinulat ko noon para sa aking nobyo. Opo, napakacorny ko noon.Lol Sa panahong iyan ay naisipan kong gumawa ng tula para sa kanya sa Araw ng mga Puso. Natatawa ako habang binabasa ko ang tula ngayon. Nakita ko kasi siya habang nagliligpit ako ng mga gamit sa bahay. Minsan, maganda din pala na tinatago mo ang mga bagay na ganyan dahil pagdating ng araw, may mababalikan kang mga alaala. Habang binabasa ko ang tula, sumasariwa sa aking isipan kung paano kami nagsimula ng aking partner. Bumabalik sa aking isipan ang mga pinagdaanan namin noon bago kami humantong sa ngayon. Nakakatuwa lang isipin na nakayanan kong gumawa ng simpleng tula para sa taong mahal ko. Sa katunayan, iyan ang unang beses na gumawa ako ng tula para sa aking nobyo. Sobrang saya ko rin na pinahalagahan din ng partner ko ang tulang ginawa ko na hanggang ngayon ay tinatago niya pala.
Tama pala ang sinabi nila na kapag nagmahal ka, gagawin mo ang mga bagay kahit hindi mo nakasanayang gawin. Ganyan ang kapangyarihan ng pagmamahal. Mahalaga na maalala mo kung paano kayo nagsimula nang sa ganun sa tuwing niyayanig ng pagsubok ang inyong relasyon, maalala mo kung bakit mo nga ba pinili ang partner mo. Di maiiwasan ang mga pagsubok na dadaan sa bawat relasyon. Pero kapag mananatili kayong matatag at laging pinipili ang bawat isa, walang pagsubok ang makakatibag sa relasyon niyo.
Salamat sa lahat na tumatangkilik sa lahat ng aking mga naisulat kahit minsan eh hindi maganda ang aking mga gawa. Maraming salamat po sa inyong lahat. Pagpalain po nawa kayo ng Maykapal. Ingat po kayo lahat.😊
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Simple Gestures That Melt My Heart
**March 03, 2022**
Happy 3rd day of the 3rd month of the year readcash community. How are you all doing today? I hope your day is filled with happiness and joy. Smile and let's spread a good vibes to everyone around us.
***What makes you happy?***
***Are you a materialistic kind of person?***
***Or are you a kind of person who can be moved by just a simple gesture from your love ones?***
Me, I am the kind of person that is happy with simple things. Even before, I can appreciate little things. I appreciate every little things that my partner do to me. I am not materialistic. I am not fortuitous in fancy things. Even a single lollipop can make me smile. Maybe I am just a shallow person. I am not hard to please.
But when I became a mother, I became more appreciative than before. Every day, every simple action of my daughter makes me smile. But last night, there was a simple gesticulation of my daughter that really melt my heart.
Story Time
It was already past 11 in the evening when I forced my daughter to sleep. The night was deep already and she was still getting a buzz out of what she's watching. After we put our mosquito net and turn off the light, she said her goodnight to her father. Her father asked her to have a goodnight kiss but she didn't let him. She just laughed and hid her blanket. Every night, I am always the one to put her to sleep. When my partner went out our room, I sat down properly for my evening prayer. Everytime I pray, I always close my eyes for me to concentrate. My daughter was already lying while hugging her favorite hello kitty pillow. I was in the middle of my prayer when I heard my daughter calling me. I didn't mind her as I was focused on my prayers. Then, she stood up and touched my face while calling "mama". Still, I continued to ignore her. She also continued touching my eyes, my nose, my cheeks and my mouth while calling me. I yawned since I was already sleepy. Every time I yawned, there is always a tear coming out from my eyes. My daughter felt that my eyes were wet. I was about to finished my prayer when she suddenly hugged me. Then, she gently pat my back while hugging me and calling me "mama". I hugged her back. Maybe she thought that I was crying. I ended my prayer so I can talk to her. She hugged me for a couple of minutes with patting her little hands in my back. After that, she let go and touched my face with her two hands. Then she spoke her language that only she can understand. My daughter still cannot fluently speak a language. I just laughed and told her that mama is fine. She then kissed my cheeks and went back on her favorite pillow.
My heart melt at that moment. In fact, I was on the verge of crying while looking at my daughter. She is just two years old but she already knows how to sympathize. I laid closer to her and whisper my goodnight. She looked at me and she smiled. She knew that I am going to kiss her because that is what I always do every night. I felt so emotional when I watched her sleeping. I thanked God that He gave me someone that I know will love me forever-and that's my daughter.
That's it for today guys. I decided to write this for me to keep beautiful memories. I know, I can browse and read this in the future. Or maybe my daughter can read this and know how much I love her.
Till then lovely folks. Keep safe all the time. God bless you all.
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Looking Back Time
**March 02, 2022**
Aloha readcash family. How are you all doing today? I just learned earlier that this month, here in our country, is celebrating the Women's month. I don't know if other country will be celebrating also. Thus, to all my fellow Filipino women, Happy Women's Month to us. We women are powerful, boundless, resilient, brave and brilliant. We should always remember that.
Earlier today when I browsed my Facebook memories, which is my new added daily routine, I saw my pictures when I was in college with my friends, which was also my roommates. When I saw the pictures, some memories flashed from the past.
This was me four years ago. As you can see, I was as thin as a rake. Many people asked me if I am sick or do I still eat because of my slim body. Some people call me stick, tikling sa basak (kind of bird that commonly found in a rice field), broomstick, or paper. Hearing those words made me lose my self-esteem. Even during high school days, when they want me to join pageants in school, I always decline. Why? Because I don't have the confidence. I am afraid that the viewers or audience will just mock me. I am petrified being ridiculed and became laughing stock of others.
During my college time, lack of self confidence is the reason why I didn't do some things that I wanted to try or doing the things that I used to love. I used to love dancing. But because of the insecurities that I have in my body, I held myself up from trying to join dance groups. Whenever there were school presentations, I just watched my classmates perform. But deep inside me, I am envious. I want to join them for dancing is my passion. But then again, I am being devoured by my insecurities.
While writing this, I am watching Sexy Babe segment of It's Showtime. This is a noontime show here in our country. While watching the candidates, I feel envious. Then some questions came up to my mind. What if I am like them who are filled with confidence before? Maybe I have a career now. I remember before, one of my uncle's friend offered me to become a model. He told me that with my physique, I can be a model. He gave me his calling card. The offer sounds good to me but I am being pulled by my insecurities again. I declined the offer he gave. I wasted another beautiful opportunity because of my self-doubt and lack of confidence.
Well, I can't bring back the time. I can't bring back the opportunities that I wasted for the reason that I am not confident with myself.
This is me now. I gained weight after I gave birth to my daughter. As I gained weight, I also gained a little confidence with myself. I no longer hear those words they threw to me before. Those words that steal my self-esteem. But my passion is not my priority now. I have another priorities now that I became a normal.
CLOSING THOUGHT
To those people who were like me before, those who are struggling to show their confidence, all I can say is that don't listen to other people's word. Don't let their harsh words ruin your confidence. Don't let them get through your mind. Because if you listen to them, you will become like me. Who let opportunities slipped away because I let their words eat up my whole being. Trust and believe yourself. You are beautiful and sexy in your own way. Do not let them degrade you. Show them that their grating words can't destroy you.
Thank you for reading this far folks. I hope you learned something from this write up of mine. Till next time.
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Almost Is Not Enough
**March 01,** **2022**
Hello readcash community. Welcome to the first day of the month of March. Today is a new day, new hope, fresh start and new goals to achieve. Thus, let's start this month with much positivity. Let us put smiles on our beautiful faces to attract more blessings. Let is be hopeful and optimistic that our goals and dreams will be serve in our tables.
Last month, my friend told me that she was being contacted by the COMELEC as a back up in case there will be someone who will renege from the position of being a technical support staff this coming election day. I was happy for her for I was the one who told her to apply for that position. Unfortunately, like me, she also doesn't have TIN (tax identification number). Thus, I told her to go to BIR (BUREAU OF INTERNAL REVENUE) Tacloban to get one. I also decided to go with her so I can also process mine. I want to secure mine for future purposes. We agreed the time and day when to go to Tacloban and we will just meet in a certain in a certain place. We decided to take a bus instead of a van. I am much comfortable riding in a bus as long as it is not air-conditioned. I already have trauma riding in a van alone.
We arrived at the BIR 9 in the morning. There were already many people and the queue is already long outside the building. We were worried we might not get what we came for. Good thing the line didn't take long since there were two guards who entertained us. When it's time for us to log in and present my vaccination card and qr code, the guard asked me my purpose of transaction. I told him that I am getting a TIN. He then told me that I should get an online schedule for me to be entertained. My disappointment started again. But then I told him that it is for COMELEC. Thank goodness, he let me and my friend passed our requirements and filled up some form. He told us that he will be the one to pass it in the teller and they will just message us since we put our contact number in the form.
My friend and I couldn't believe that it was just a smooth transaction. It was already past 10 in the morning. Then, we decided to go to the DepEd (Department of Education) to get our ranking result. We already know that we didn't pass the ranking but we wanted to know our results for us to see where did we fail. As usual, before we enter the building, the guard get our temperature and vaccination cards. Then we proceeded to the other personnel for a short medical interview. After that, we get a priority number . It took us more than an hour before we received our results. When I got the results, I was already anticipated that my result os low since I did not able to pass. But when I read the breakdown of my result, I was regretful. Why? Because it only needs 1.8 points for me to achieve the passing score. I almost pass. ALMOST. But that almost is not enough for me to pass. Then, the what if's and I should have's lines started to popped up in my mind. But I can't do anything about it anymore. The best thing for me to do is to find ways to accumulate more points for the next application.
My start of year 2022 is not that great. I welcomed this year with disappointments and sadness. I have so much despondency and disenchantment in the first month that led me to depression. I have many plans that are not achievable because of many circumstances yet I strongly believe that the right time will come for me. I may have lost courage for a moment but I still able to amend and compel myself to keep pressing the continue button of life. I was down, yes I was, but everytime I see my daughter, I always reminded that I should not let myself be devoured by disillusionment. I have so much reasons to rise again and keep myself up. I have dreams, not just for myself but also for my family. In fact they are the very reason why I strive and continue fighting to succeed in life. They are the backbone of all my dreams. Thus, I should not surrender. I will continue waving the flag of perseverance for me to bring off my success.
Thank you for reading folks. Thank you for the unending support. Till my next blog.
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Two Days Off
**February 28,** **2022**
Hello readcash community. Today is the the last day of the month. Tomorrow, we will be welcoming another month and set another goals to achieve. How's your day anyway? Here in our place, the rain is pouring hard. I feel cold right now that I wear my comfy socks to warm my feet.
Where was I todays ago? Why I was not active on this two consecutive days. Well, I will share to you about my whereabouts why I was inactive.
We all know that social medias nowadays are very toxic especially now in our country, Philippines, the national election is approaching. Everyone has different candidates whom to vote. I, myself already has a candidate that I plan to vote. On Facebook, I read and followed some people who shares information about the candidate that I like. Well, we all know that bashing is rampant on that site. Everytime I read bashes and misinformation or fake news, I feel like I am also affected. I also feel mad. Though I did not engage debating someone in the platform, I feel like I am being sensitive and irritated on some issues. Sometimes, I let out my rants to my partner. He is the one who received all my nagging about politics. I am always in a bad mood. Sometimes, I am having headaches already. I am already not in a good shape because of politics.
Then, two days ago, my partner told me to stop browsing my Facebook account and TikTok. He noticed that I became stress and hot tempered everyday because of what I have read on that platforms. He didn't like my behavior anymore because of this politics. He also joked me that I have wrinkles on my forehead already. Then, I realized that he was right. Those platforms only give me stress and bad vibes. I don't want to age quickly.Lol (*sayang lang ang mga ginagamit kong pampaganda,hahaha charaught)* Thus, I came up a plan not to visit my Facebook and unfollow some friends and unknown friends who always shares fake news. On TikTok, I only watched entertainment and ignored politics posts. I avoided videos that could give me negative vibes. I only watched some videos of my new favorite love team on television. Everytime I watch them, I can't control my fangirling side. When I watch their *kilig* videos, I can't help myself from shouting. I feel like I am being back on my teenager days.
Two days on not being active on Facebook made me fine. I am not irritated at all. I guess I made the right choice to listen to my partner to take a day off on that platform. Today, I checked back on my fb account but I did not read about politics anymore. I don't want to stress myself anymore because of politics. Being a politic fanatic is not good. Whoever wins in the election, I will just accept that.
I have mentioned above that the weather here in our place is not good. It's been raining very hard for a couple of days. There were already landslides occurred due to this non-stop rain. Also, we were also warned by the municipality to be vigilant because the water in the river near in our place is already big.
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Image above is the current situation of the river. That river is also the same river that caused flood in our place last December, during the typhoon Odette. My partner and I is now watchful for us to be ready if ever there will be flood again. I pray that tomorrow the sun will shine again. I already have mountainous used clothes to wash.
It's all for today guys. I have to prepare for dinner for now. I'll be back to read your works. Till then and thank you for reading.
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A Special Ordinary Day
**February 25,** **2022**
A special day readcash community. Today is Friday, so it's Flyday.Lol Also, here in our country, today is special holiday. Many people are having a family day while others just choose to stay at their dwellings for them to relax and rest.
This morning when I woke up, a song suddenly popped up in my mind. Are you familiar with the song entitled "Ordinary Song" by David Pomeranz? When I was in high school, I was hooked by this song. In fact, I always sing this song before inside our bathroom.haha There is also a Visayan version of this song. I really love this song. I love the lyrics and its simple melody. A very ordinary song indeed.
I was humming this song this whole morning. Then, I remember that today is 25th day of the month. Oh, it's our 44th monthsary. And guess what, my partner forgot about it too.Lol Between the two of us, he is the one who always forgot our monthsary. Today, I greeted him while he was washing our baby's feeding bottles. He was shocked and said,"*Ha? 25 diay ta ron? "* I laughed his reaction. I was right that he fail to remember again. He greeted me back and kissed my forehead. Yeah, he loves to kiss in my forehead. I feel like I'm his grandmother. (*haha charaught lang)*
After that exchanging of greetings, we proceeded to our daily routine. We didn't plan to have a date today because we are saving our money. We have to budget our money because our sponsor, which is his mother, is not here. Though, she gave her us allowances for three months. But my partner asked me what I am planning to do today. I just said nothing. I don't want to spend much money. We have to be thrifty.
Afternoon came, my partner's grandmother told us that they will go to Ormoc City because her son (my partner's uncle) who lives there invited them for a birthday party. She wanted us to come to them. But my partner politely refused because Ormoc City is a long way from here in our place. He knew that I am not comfortable to ride in an air-conditioned vehicle and it would be difficult for us since we have our daughter. Also, the party will start at night and no one will feed the dogs. But my partner's siblings went with them. My partner's grandmother okayed and said that she will just bring something to us. She is very thoughtful especially to our daughter. She even call our daughter "princess".
At 4:30 p.m, we were having our roaming-around-the- town routine. I thought we were just have joyride but my partner stopped at the milktea shop. I told him that it's okay I'm not hungry (*pero deep inside gustong-gusto pala*) but he insisted. So, I just let him. He bought two milktea, siomai and kwek kwek. Then, we went to our one of our favorite place to enjoy the food. The place was near at the street only so we can see vehicles passing by. Unexpectedly, I saw my uncle who also got married to one of the residents of the town. He stopped by and we had a little chitchat. It's been so long since the last time we see each other because he was working abroad. He just went home recently. I was very happy to see him. I introduced my daughter and partner to him. He asked me if I will go home to our place this Sunday because he will. I didn't promise to him. I just said that I'll let him know if I will. Since it's getting dark already, we bid our goodbyes. But before he go, he gave me one thousand pesos or $20 as his *pasalubong* to me. I was very happy and thanked him.
We also went home and prepared our dinner. My partner cooked fried fish since my daughter likes it. My daughter is very picky when it comes to food that is why I am always worried if she can't drink her milk. While waiting for our food, my daughter dragged me inside our room. I thought she just want to watch her favorite videos. When she saw her favorite pillow which is hello kitty pillow, she hugged it right away. Since I limited her using gadgets and today is scheduled for "no YouTube day" for her, I let her play her small book in the bed. She was playing so I also browsed my Facebook account. After awhile, when I checked her, she was already asleep.haha I just let sleep for an hour and woke her up for supper. Now, it's almost 10 in the evening and she's still awake.
This is how my Friday went. An ordinary day yet special. Well, I believe that everyday is special day for us. It's just up to us how we see it.
Thank you for reading fellas. I hope you have also a happy and special day today. Till next time.
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My Dreams That Happened In Real Life
**February 24, 2022**
A blessed Thursday everyone here in readcash community. How is/was your day going? As of writing, here in our place, the heavy rain poured. It feels like there is another storm. But according to the weather forecast, there is no storm spotted in our PAR (Philippine Area of Responsibility). I think it is the frontal system that is affecting our country.
Because of the weather today, it made me remember about my dreams with catastrophe that happened in real life. When I was in college, there was a week when all my dreams were all about calamities. That was three consecutive nights that I dream about catastrophe. I even shared it to our landlady for I was bothered by my dreams. Two of that dream of mine happened in real life just last year.
Today, I will share to you the two dreams of mine that happened in reality.
Flood
In my dream, I was in an unknown place. That place was not familiar to me. I was walking in the street when suddenly the rain poured heavily. I went inside a house and I don't whose house was that. I was just there looking outside. Then, I felt my feet got wet. There were waters everywhere. The people around me got panicked. I was panicked as well. We climb to the higher area of the house but the water continued to rise. Until we reached at the roof of the house. The water was colored brown. Then, we someone in a boat. We screamed with the top of our lungs so they can see us. Thankfully, they saw us and they rescued us. When I was in the evacuation place, I remember my family. I was worried sick when I didn't see them. I was crying already. My heart tighten that woke me up. In real life, this happened to us during the onslaught of typhoon Odette here in our place. Though it didn't happen how exactly in my dream but the flood was there. Maybe I'll make another article on my experience with the typhoon. I think I haven't share here my experience during that nature's wrath.
Big Waves
In my dream, I was at our neighbor barangay together with my sister. Our school when I was in primary is located in the next barangay. I don't know what we did there. We were at the shore just across the school. My sister together with other kids were playing at the shore while I was just in the street looking at them. The suddenly, I noticed a big waves that wa approaching. I shouted at them to run. The big wave was already near. I hid at the huge rock when the big wave hit us. After the impact of the big wave and the water was slowly going back to the sea, I hurriedly looked for my sister. But what welcomed my eyes was very heartbreaking. I saw houses being damaged, and the shore was being wiped out. I got panicked and worried about my sister. I called out her name while crying. I was crying hard and couldn't breathe the I woke up.
In real life, it happened. Again, during the typhoon Odette. What gave me goosebumps was the place in my dream also happened in the same place-at our neighbor barangay.
Photos above is the same place in my dream. The school, the houses near the shore were all damaged. I really had goosebumps when I saw it. I took that photo three days after the typhoon. I told my partner about my dream and he had goosebumps too.
Now, everytime I dream about catastrophe, I can't help myself not to worry. I am afraid that it might happen in real life too. I shared here about my dreams about earthquake last month. I pray that it won't happen not just here in our place but also to other places. Our country have been facing much struggles today and we haven't recovered yet. So, help me pray that my dream will remain dreams and won't happen.
Thank you for reading this far. I appreciate all your support. To my new subscribers, thank you for subscribing. I hope you had fun and perhaps gain lessons to some of my works. Till my next blog everyone. God bless us all and keep safe all the time.
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My High School Graduation Flashbacks
**February 24,** **2022**
Hello readcash community.
***Have you still remember the day you graduated high school? How about your graduation song, do still remember it? Do you still memorize the lyrics of the song?***
Every afternoon, my little family has a daily routine roaming around the town using our motorcycle. This routine of ours is our way to get rid the boredom of our daughter. She has no one to play with in our house except us her parents. Yesterday, when we passed one of our neighbors, I heard them play a song. They played "**Through The Years**" by Kenny Rogers. This song is very special to me for this is our graduation song. Everytime. I hear it play, I can't help myself to reminisce my beautiful and memorable experiences when I was in high school. So, when I heard the song, I shared my partner what happened or my memories during my graduation day.
Today, I am going to share to be one of the most memorable day of my life - my graduation day.
Year 2009, I forgot the exact date and day of our graduation but the memories is still vivid in my mind. The venue that we decorated before our big day, the guests, the settings of the chairs, the teachers, the parents and even the visitors are still clear in my memory. I still remember the wide smiles of my classmates while wearing the white toga and the simple make ups that we wore because we have no idea how to properly put it in our innocent faces.
Before the ceremony started, I had a close classmate/friend who told me that she won't shed a tear during the program. She said that only overacting people would do that. I just laughed at her. I believed that that day is very special and I think everyone of us will be moved. Our graduation ceremony started at afternoon because the morning was scheduled for the moving up ceremony for the first year to third year high school. When afternoon came, each one of us were excited. But me, I was worried because I didn't know if there will be someone who will accompany me on that day. My biological father promised me to come and attend my graduation but it was already 30 minutes before the ceremony started and yet I didn't see him. I was sad and asked my close teacher if she could be my sponsor on that time. She agreed and I was thankful. The mass already started and still I didn't see my father. I was already on the verge of crying when I saw a family physique. It was my considered mother. My Nanay. She came to attend on my ceremony on behalf of my father. She told me that my father didn't came and she was worried that I might be sad because no one will accompany me in getting my diploma. I was totally touched of what she said. Thus, I led hear where the chairs of the parents located. I went back to my close teacher and told her that I already have someone to accompany me.
Our graduation ceremony started smoothly. I was assigned to lead the Pledge of Loyalty. When it's time for us to sing our graduation song, I noticed that almost all of us were crying. I don't know but my feeling in that moment was different. I felt like I already missed my classmates. The bonds that we made, the laughter, the misunderstandings and even the cheatings that we made recalled in our memory. The classmate who told me that she won't cry, she also cried. In fact, she was the first one who cried among us. Even before we started to sing our graduation song, she was already crying. When our commencement ended, we hugged each other even those who are from other section. We made promises not to forget each other. The friendships that we build would remain forever.
Now, it's been 13 years since that day. Many things have changed. Some of my classmates are already married and settled their lives while others are still pursuing their dreams. Some are already professionals and live abroad. But despite of that changes, our communication is still intact. Before, when messenger or group chats were not yet introduced, we used to have group phone calls or what we called "conference call" (kaway-kaway sa makarelate). Now, we upgraded to group chats. We named our group chat "**Gwapa ug Gwapo Since 2009**" ( Beautiful and Handsome Since 2009). Sometimes we video called and catch up each other's lives. By the end of this year, we schedule our grand reunion. I am so excited to see them again. I hope there will be no unwanted circumstances happen.
High school memories has a big place in my heart. I had so much experiences and memories that I'll forever treasure.
This is it for today guys. I was supposed to publish this last night but I was waiting for my sister to send me my pictures during my graduation day. Unfortunately, until now she hasn't sent one. Maybe she is busy now. So, I can't attach pictures on this.
I want to say thank you to one of my friends @Janz for still staying in my sponsor's list. Thank you so much madam. I declare good health and financial abundance to you.
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My Trauma on Earthquakes
**February 22, 2022**
It was a fine Saturday morning. The people in the house were busy doing their different chores. I was attending the water that I boil while my two little cousins were watching their favorite morning show. My grandmother was at our little store and my Aunt Judy, who is a PWD (person with disability), was at the bathroom. Everyone was minding their different businesses. When the kettle was whistling, I poured it in the thermos. When suddenly my barefoot felt like the ground was grumbling. Few seconds passed, we felt that the ground was shaking. I thought that it was just a quick shake like I used to feel every earthquake. But the shake still continued and it became stronger. Everyone, including me got panicked. I hurriedly get my two little cousins outside our house. Their mother was already there. Then, I remember my grandmother. She was still inside our store. She was shouting frantically. I ran back in our house and quickly get my grandmother. I was already shaking and felt like my knees started to lose its strength. But I fought what I felt because I need to rescue my grandmother. We ran outside where there is an open area. Unfortunately, we got stuck at the street for there were many people and the way was already zero visibility. We can't see a thing because of the dusts that came from the old building just across from our house.
I held my grandmother tight as we dock and cover our head. I heard everyone in the street shouting out of fear. There were children crying loudly. I was already trembling and on the verge of crying. I thought that maybe it was my day. I was worried that our house might fall for it was made of light materials. At the same time, I was also worried for my sister because she was at her work on that moment. Thankfully the quake stopped after a few minutes. We were all relieved. Then I realized that I didn't see my Aunt Judy. I left my grandmother in our neighbor and went in our house. I discovered that my Aunt Judy was stuck inside the bathroom. She was shouting for help for she can't open the door. I hurriedly helped her and when I successfully opened the door, I saw her whey-faced. She was crying and quivering. I helped her changed her clothes. Then, I noticed that our floor has a long crack because of the earthquake. Our things and displays including our TV were all destroyed and broken. Everything in the house was a mess. We didn't go in our house right away for there were still aftershocks and it was a little bit strong. So, we opted to stay temporarily in the street until the aftershocks faded.
Why I share this experience of mine? It is because last night we felt that the earth was shaken here in our place. I already have trauma when it comes to earthquake because of that experience. I was nervous last night when I felt the shake. I called out my partner and hurriedly picked my daughter who was busy watching videos and run outside our house. Good thing the earthquake did not lasted for long. When the shake was gone, I felt nervous and my body became weak. I was trembling and my partner handed me a glass of water. Ever since I knew that our place has a big fault line (I don't know if it is connected to the one they called The Big One) I am always worried everytime I feel the ground shake. I pray that that day won't come.
Happy Two's day everyone. I know my article today is kinda not a good vibe, I hope this will not affect your beautiful day. They say today is a good day for manifesting. So lets manifest our goals dreams to come true. Have a good day fellas and be safe always.
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Evolution Of My Name
February 21, 2022
Good day everyone! It's Monday again. Time to grind to make our day productive.
Are you sure that your name is really your true name?
Why did I ask that question? This morning, I have read sis @Pachuchay's article. There's a part of her article that I somehow relate. Thus, this made me think an idea what to write today. If you want to read her work you can check HERE. https://read.cash/@Pachuchay/whats-in-a-name-728ad8e7
I have mentioned on my previous articles about my family. I come from a broken family and I grow up living in different houses. When I was 6 years old, my real father took us, together with my youngest sister who was also 5 years old at that time, to his brother's house ,which is my considered father now. My real father left us to his brother's custody. Months after, my real father brought my two other brothers. He promised that he will support us by sending money. The school year was approaching and my considered mother want us to send to school. My two brothers were already at 3rd and 4th grade while me and my sister were sent to a kindergarten. That time, I wanted to go with my brothers' school. I did not go to kindergarten because I didn't like it. Since I was always with my brothers, the teacher from grade one decided to sit in her class. She made me a visitor in her class since I did not able to enroll. But the teacher saw my potential so she asked my considered parents to enroll me and she will find a way for to be accepted. My considered parents agreed and the evolution of my name began.
In enrolling, there will be certain documents to be needed. The teacher asked my considered parents my birth certificate but they don't have one. So, she just asked my real name and my birthday and other important information but unfortunately my considered parents only know my nickname which is **Janice**. Even me and my sister did not know our real names and when is our birthday. My brothers didn't know also for we didn't grow up together. They lived in a foundation. They couldn't contact my father right away for there was no cellphone at that time in our place. But the teacher was really determined to let me enroll officially in the school. So, in the end, she made up the information. She just used my nickname and she put a date for my birthday.
Everything was fine. I was being enrolled at grade 1 with the information given by my teacher. I promoted to grade two, grade three and grade four using that name. But in grade four, my teacher wouldn't allow me to graduate if I couldn't pass a document containing my real name and birthday. I informed my real father about it through writing a letter. Writing letters was our mode of communication before. He went home with a Baptismal certificate only. He said that he couldn't get our birth certificate and I forgot his reasons. When we read the Baptismal certificate, it was written in there that my real name is **Janeza** and not **Janice**. And finally, I already know when I was born. I passed the Baptismal certificate to my grade four teacher and she corrected my information written in my card and other school documents.
Again, I used that name until high school. But when I was about to graduate at fourth year high school, our teacher required us to pass our birth certificate that comes from the NSO ( National Statistic Office ). Thankfully, our teacher said that she will be the one to get it if we can't go to Tacloban. We just need to pay her for the expenses and we need to fill in the information needed. It was week already before our graduation and our diploma was already made. When I received my NSO birth certificate, I learned that the name that I used for so many years was incorrectly spelled. Instead of **Janeza**, the correct spelling is **Janiza**. I informed my adviser about it and she told me to go to the person who made our diploma so that it can be corrected. Thankfully and finally, I was able to correct my real name in all my documents.
And that's how the dramatic evolution of my name. Now, my problem is that in my birth certificate there is a date written in the date of marriage section of my parents where in fact they are not married. What's worse is that in my sister's birth certificate we have different date on their date of marriage. Not just that, there are other information in my birth certificate that are incorrectly filled up. Gosh, I really have irresponsible parents. And when I asked my father about it, he just answered me *"wala lang, feel ko lang". 🤦*
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A Not So Hilarious Questions-I'm Ready
February 22, 2022
Hello readcash community. How are you all doing? I was not so active this past two days for some reason. I failed to publish an article which is supposedly a goal of mine to make at least one per day. But it's okay. Those two consecutive days were still productive and enjoyable.
Today, I choose to answer some hilarious questions that was being introduced by @Zhyne06 in our group chat. My mind is not working with the unfinished articles in my drafts. In fact, I have five in my keep notes but it only has title in it and nothing else.Lol But I wanted to be productive today. Good thing I remember memsh sent a link in our group chat so here I am making myself gainful.
Here is the link. https://www.joincake.com/blog/funny-get-to-know-you-questions/
***If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would you choose?**
I think I choose rice. As a person who grows up from an unfortunate family, rice is the most important to us. I can eat rice without viand. That is true. I remember when I was in high school, if I don't have viand, I only buy *chitsirya* (junk food) and that will serve as my viand. Sometimes, if we don't have viand in our house, we only use cooking oil with salt or soy sauce or sometimes vinegar with salt and garlic as my viand. As long as there is rice, I can live with that.
***What were you like in high school?**
When I was in high school, I was the friend-of-all.Lol I think have shared here that during my high school days, we had three groups namely GATZ, AJADEVARS and BANANA GIRLS. I belonged to the Banana girls group. But I am also friends with the other two groups. I think I was too friendly. Even in the other section, I am also friends in most of them.
***What’s your favorite cheesy love song?**
My favorite love song is Kasama Kang Tumanda of Daniel Padilla - a Tagalog version of Grow Old With You. Why I love this song? My partner used to sing this song to me. Before, when we were having a phone call at night, he sang this song before I go to bed. Cheezy right? Everything we do for love.hihi
***What’s your favorite thing you like about yourself?**
I think one thing that I like about myself is I don't hold grudges. That is a 100 percent true. It's not that I'm lifting my own chair, but this is really me. I don't like holding grudges. For me, holding grudges will not bring you good. It will not give you peace of mind. It has been many people who have hurt me but I always choose to forgive them. Yes, it's not easy to forgive. But forgiving people who have wronged you doesn't mean you're weak. It only shows that you are strong enough. Also, by forgiving others, you are freeing yourself.
***What’s something most people like but you don’t understand?**
Idolizing K-pop. I'm sorry K-pop lovers.hihi I have nothing wrong against them. I admit some K-pop groups are good but I think they are just not my type.
***If you could sit next to anyone on a plane, who would you choose?**
Honestly, I haven't tried riding in an airplane. But if I have given a chance to be on a plane, I want my partner to be right next to me. Why? I'm the kind of person who loves visiting other places but don't like traveling. Traveling in a close mode of transportation especially with air-conditioned vehicle always make me sick. So, if my partner is with me, I am comfortable because I know there's someone who will take care of me.
There was one time that I travelled alone heading to Tacloban. I was riding a van. I really don't like the smell of the air conditioner. So, I got dizzy, vomited and passed out. No one noticed me. I think the other passengers just thought that I was just sleeping. Good thing, I gained my consciousness before I arrive my destination.
This is it for today. Thank you for reading my work. Also thank you memsh for sharing this topic.hihi Until my next blog. See you then.
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Love Always Prevail
**February 17, 2022**
A very hot Thursday readcash community. After a week of raining here in our place, finally we have now feel the heat of the sun. I think summer season is on its way. Time to ready our bikinis and summer outfits that has been inside the cabinet. Time to show off our sexy bodies.Lol
Love is the most beautiful thing in the world. When I was in high school, I have read a beautiful meaning of love. It says that Love is the foundation from which all goodness flow. Even now, I always remember this quote.
Today, I will share to you how powerful love is to our family. How we conquer problems because of love. How our family stands strong because of the presence of love.
Story Time...
I was second year college at that time when my sister and I had a huge fight. My sister got pregnant when she was 21 years old. Since she was at Cebu, I was the one who received all the resentful words that came to our considered parents. I know they were disappointed of what happened to my sister. Me too. I was also disappointed because I have a plan for her. I was planning to send her to college after I graduate and have a stable job. But still, I defended her. I did not tell her all the harsh words that came from my parents. I know how much she loves our considered parents. Among us siblings, she is the most favorite because she is the youngest. Even my other siblings and cousins, who are the children of our considered parents, can say that my sister is the most favorite of all.
When my sister's son turned 1, she went home. We, her family, welcomed her with open arms. Our parents forgave her already. Everything went back to normal. As weeks passed by, I was so stressed about my school stuff. One Saturday, I went home. I wanted to relax in our house because I was really stressed. At 4 in the afternoon, my sister and I together with her son, decided to go swimming. Everything was fine until we went home. I was about to change clothes when I couldn't fine my favorite brassiere. Later did I know, my sister wore it. I was furious. It's not that I was selfish but it was the only brassiere that fit me. I was thin back then and she was bigger than me. It will loosen and I won't be comfortable anymore. I told her about that. Yes, I admit that I raised my voice. Then she raised hers also. She was also angry. I was already in rage and the fighting started. She became disrespectful that is why I slapped her. Then, she slapped me back. Our fighting worsen. We were both screaming while pulling each other's hair. Our parents stopped us. I got bruises and scratches. My face felt numb. I thought that was the only pain that I will face but I was the only one being scolded.
The pain I felt doubled. I was hurt physically and emotionally. They all sided my sister. Ever since we had a fight with my sister, I am always at fault. They always told me that I should be the one to understand my sister because I am older. I went to the shore and a thought came to my mind. I want to end my life. I was depressed already. I have no one to turn to in the family. That time also, I had a problem with my love life because my long time boyfriend became cold to me. I went to my uncle's house but even him sided my sister. So, I decided to go back to the boarding house. When I arrived, out landlady saw my scratches and bruises. I shared her what happened. I cried hard in front of her.
It was Intramural in our school. I still attended the school activities to divert my mind. I need to preoccupied my mind because if not, I think I will explode. When we were at school, I received a text message from my sister. I thought she will ask an apology but she didn't. She said that she wished me de*d. She wants me to die. I was shocked of what she said. I was really hurt. I cried after I read her message. My friends also saw the message and they couldn't believe it.
After that, I didn't go home for almost three weeks. I couldn't stand seeing my sister and my family. I stayed at the boarding house filled with loneliness. I kept crying every time when I'm alone at the room. Then one day, I received a message from my cousin. She said that my mother wants me come home because she was already worried about me. So, I went home. When I arrived, everyone in the house acted normal. They seemed like there's nothing happened between me and my sister. My sister also acted normal towards me. She seemed like she forgot what she did. I thought they decided to forget what happened. So, that's what I did.
Even until now, there were no apologies between me and my sister. We did not talk about what happened. Though sometimes, if I remember what she said, I still feel hurt. I just told myself that maybe she said those words out of anger and she really didn't mean it. Now, our closeness came back. We moved on and choose to forget those conflict in the past. My love towards my sister overpowered me. I love my sister so much. We grew up together and we faced many challenges together. I won't let one conflict separate us. It is really true that when you love the person, you are willing to give forgiveness without being asked. I know in my heart that my sister also loves me. We are sisters, we are partners and we are inseparable.
Thank you for reading my story everyone. I hope you gain lesson from it. Thank you again. God bless and keep safe all the time.
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My Simple V- Day
February 16, 2022
Good day readcash community. How's your day going? Mine, it's still the same in my daily normal day. Nothing too exciting. Just performing my responsibility as a mother and a partner. Honestly, I don't have any idea what to write today. Though I have something in my keep notes but it is all title and I can't think of something to finish it. I am not in the mood to complete it. But I realized that I have a goal. I want to make this day productive and not let it pass without doing something. Now, let me share to you na lang about what happened to our Valentine's day. At first, I didn't have a plan to share this here but why not coconut.hihi
Ever since my partner's mother went to Netherlands to have a vacation, we need to budget our money wisely. She left us an allowance budgeted for three months since she is just three months there. With that reason, I am not expecting myself to receive something from my partner this Valentines. I was thinking that a simple greetings would be fine.
In the morning, when I woke up, he greeted me with a smile. I greeted him back of course. He apologized to me because he cannot give me something this Valentine's day. I told him that it's okay. I understand our situation. Being with him and with our daughter is already enough for me. I saw in his eyes that he was sad. I know he wants to make me happy. I just cheered him up.
We continued our day with our daily routine. I looked after our daughter while he was doing the household chores. He cooked our meal, washed the dishes, washed our clothes and clean the house. Looking at him, I told myself that I am lucky to have him. He may not be able to give me material things but he showed us love and care.
Afternoon came, I was feeding our daughter with her milk, my partner told me that he'll go to his favorite barber shop to have a cut on his hair. He always complain that his hair is already long and he didn't like it for his face will be itchy when the tip of the hair touches his face. While he was gone, I put our daughter to sleep and after a while I was also sleepy so I took a nap. When I was in the middle of my dream, my partner woke me up with a smile. Then he gave a box of pizza with a rose flower. My heart melted watching him. He told me that he can't afford fancy flowers, stuffed toys or chocolates at this time so for now we just have pizza. He promised that soon if he will have a stable job, he'll make it up. I just hugged him and I said thank you to him. Then, our daughter woke up so we let her joined eating the pizza.
At night, we had dinner early. We decided to put our daughter to sleep early so we can have a movie time together. When our daughter was already asleep, my partner prepared the flavored beer he bought while I get the junk foods that I bought when I went to Ormoc. He asked me what movie I want to watch and I told him I like the Eternals. He laughed and said that we should watch love story movie. But I insisted the Eternals so *wala siyang magagawa.*Lol After that, we had our movie date just inside our house. We still ended our day with a smile and exchange of I love you's to each other. I still have a beautiful celebration of Valentines that I am going to add in my memories.
Our celebration of hearts day may not like the other couple but I am still happy. I still feel lucky for I have a loving and caring partner. I also believe that Valentine's day is not about giving expensive gifts but rather it is about showing how much you love your partner. Gift is just a bonus but love is what matters most. That is why it is called Hearts Day.
Note: I was supposed to publish this last night but I couldn't finished because of my daughter.
Thank you for reading. See you on my next blog everyone. Take care all the time and God speed.
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A Beautiful Three- Day Vacation
February 14, 2022
Happy Heart's day everyone. How is your Valentine's day going? Have you received gifts, bouquet of flowers and bunch of chocolates from your love ones? For those who are single, don't worry you can still celebrate valentines with your family or friends. Valentine's day is not just for couples. It is also applicable to all.
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Last month, my sister invited us to come on her birthday. But, we couldn't get to go there for on her birthday was also the departure of my partner's mother. My partner's mother went again to Netherlands to have another vacation. Thus, I told my sister that we can't go there on her birthday. Maybe she really wanted to see us so she postponed her celebration on the day on our availability. On the other hand, I, myself also wanted to go to my parents place for I already missed them. I was also thinking that it also best to go there to have a little break from our daily routine. In addition, my daughter also loves to go there for she has many playmates that she can played with.
After the day of my partner's mother's departure, we headed to my parents place. When we arrived at the house, I was really happy to see them again and so they were. Aside from that, I was also surprised because my cousin, who haven't visited us for more than five years, came home. I was really happy to see him. I owe him big time because when I was in college, he helped me. Also, one of the things that I like if he comes home is because of the beautiful dresses, shoes, make ups and other girly stuff that he'll give us. Yes, my cousin is gay and we, his family, are proud of him. He is the breadwinner of the family and he still help the family until now. I really admire this cousin of mine because despite what he had experienced before when his father couldn't accept of what he is, he didn't hate him and still he gave his best to help them.
Just like what I have thought, I received two sexy jumpsuits, two lipsticks (one from Vice cosmetics), black sandals, two sleeveless shirt and a sexy short as his pasalubong to me. I was very happy of what I have received. He really knows what I like. Everytime he comes home, he always have *pasalubongs* for me.
My parents place has still no electricity because of the typhoon Odette. Since our house is small and we couldn't fit all because I have my partner and daughter with me, I decided to stay in the house of my grandmother. The house is vacant for my grandmother's family already live in Cebu. I was worried for we don't have lights to use. But thanks to my other cousin, she let us borrow one of their solar lights.
The next morning, we continued the birthday celebration of my sister that was being postponed. My sister opted to just buy food packages to for us not exert much effort to cook or to have less time to prepare. I gave my sister a perfume as my gift to her. I bought cake for her and his partner also gave him a surprise cake through me. Though they are not in a good terms, I was still happy for he still made effort for my sister's birthday. At 3 pm, we started the celebration. I thought we were just family who will celebrate but I was shocked when we came home from getting the cake and the food packages, there were many people already in the house waiting for us. My sister and I were worried if the food is sufficient for the visitors. Just like what I have thought, the food was insufficient. There were still some visitors who came. So, I decided to buy additional food for the other visitors. Still, the celebration was enjoyable and we had fun.
My daughter was also having fun because she has lots of playmates. Not the same here in our house where she can only go outside if her father will play basketball. She also has no playmates here. That is why, she loves being there in my parents place. She have cousins there who are just her age that she can play with. In that three days that we were there, I can see that my daughter and partner were enjoying. So, I am planning to visit in my parents place again soon. But now, I have to save first so I can have something to use for expenses.hihi
This is it for today guys. Thank you for reading. Again, Happy Valentine's day! I hope all of you are happy celebrating this day. God bless and be safe always.
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Some Facts About Me
February 13, 2022
Good day everyone. How's your Valentine's day eve? Have you received gifts from your love ones already? I hope you will have a happy, beautiful and memorable celebration.
Today, I have no idea what to write. Then I remember that I have read @Jinifer 's article about oneself.(Thank you sis, you save me today.hihi) So,I decided to write my version too. I also use the same LINK for the questions. https://parade.com/969981/parade/conversation-starters/
So, let's begin.
**What’s the strangest dream you’ve had recently?**
I just had this strange dream the other night. In my dream, me,my partner, and my sisters were having a vacation somewhere near our town. But that place was not familiar to me. The place was located in a mountain area and we need to walk for us to get there. When we were on our way to the place, I was talking to the tour guide while my partner and the other girl (whose I don't know who) were walking ahead of us. While talking I looked at the peak of the mountain then suddenly a wave of water fell towards us. I and the tour guide hurriedly looked for something to hold on and then I called my partner. We were hanging tightly at the wood while the water flowed us towards the town. The water was like a flashflood and the color was already brown. Until it reached to the town and flashed all the houses. The wood that we hanged on stuck at a house and I, my sister and my partner hurriedly climbed at the roof of the house. I was terrified and focus on climbing and when I looked back, I couldn't see my partner and sister. I continued to escaped from the wild water until I reached at a place where safe. It was a school and I saw children playing. I shouted at them to run for the water was still running towards us. Suddenly, the water drained and all I can see was rocks that was being washed out by the water. I was crying very hard for I couldn't find my sisters and partner.
**How did you spend your last birthday?**
My last birthday?🤔 I did not celebrate on the day of my birthday. I postponed it because I wanted to celebrate it with my family, on my parents place. Though it was just a simple celebration, I was so happy because I am with the people I love. What made it so special for me because that day, my considered father and I's conflict were being resolved. I was being forgiven by him and that was the most beautiful present I had received on my birthday.
**What did you want to be when you were a kid?**
When I was young, I really wanted to be a teacher. I remember when I was in grade 1, I used to act as a teacher to my classmates everytime our teacher is not around. I also love to watch my teachers before holding their hand carry bags. I find it so cool.haha When I was in grade 6, I also had a smart and very passionate teacher. I really like her for she is so kind to us. Every lunch, if I don't have viand, she always share her food to me. She is really one of the people who influenced me on becoming a teacher.
**What always calms you down when you’re really stressed out and upset?**
Everytime I feel stressed out and upset, my way of calming myself is listening to music especially OPM music. I love listening OPM songs for it makes me feel relax and calm my emotions.
**What scares you the most about the future?**
Now, what scares me the most about the future is if I can't secure the future of my daughter. I'm afraid if I can't give her a good life and fulfill my responsibility to her as her mother. I don't want her to experience the hardships that I had before.
**Who do you miss the most from your past?**
My brother. It's been 17 years since he passed away. This coming 22nd of the month is his birthday. He was a good brother to me. He used to help me in my school works and assignments. He was my teacher at home. I remember, I was in grade 6, I was crying very hard for I didn't know how to write my report at a manila paper or buff paper. I was used of being helped by my brother. I was very sad when he passed away for his last day on earth, I didn't have a chance to see him. He was buried in Cebu and only my other brother went there for the wake and funeral. Everytime I am in a verge of giving up or experiencing a heavy problem, he always visit me in my dream.
**Who is the most important person in your life right now?**
The most important person in my life right now is my daughter. My life now revolves around her. She is my strength and my weakness. She is very precious to me. She is the greatest blessing I have received from God.
This is it for today guys. Thank you for reading this far. I hope you had fun reading. See you on my next blog.
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Dismay
February 12, 2022
Hello readcash community. I have been inactive for three days for I was a bit busy. I couldn't read and leave comments to your articles for I was exhausted.
Last month, my partner's mother told us, my partner and I, that DESO ( DepEd Supervising Official) was hiring for a technical support staff for the incoming election here in our country (Philippines). At first, we decided that my partner will be the one to apply since the job is related to his course. My partner is an IT graduate so it will be easy for him. But my partner's cousin who works in the municipal said that my partner is not qualified for the said job for he has an aunt who run as councilor in our town. It is indeed indicated in the job details that the applicant should not related to any candidate within 4th civil degree of consanguinity or affinity. My partner's aunt is a direct sister of his father, so he is really not qualified.
Here are the qualifications by the way.
So, I decided to apply instead since I am qualified. I chatted my friend and informed her about the job. The next morning, it was the last day in submitting the requirements, we submitted ours with hopes that we can get the job. But when I passed my requirements, the election officer interviewed me right after. After she read my daughter's name, she said that I am not qualified for the job because of my daughter's surname. I reasoned out that my partner and I were not married yet. She told me that she will just call me for the examination if I'm lucky. So, I did not set my hopes high cause I don't want to get disappointed again.
Five days after, I received a message from COMELEC (Commission on Election) staff informing me the date of the examination. My friend and I successfully advanced on the second part which is the examination. We were both worried since we only have a basic knowledge when it comes to computer. Luckily, the examination was so simple because it was all about the fundamental knowledge of computer and an essay about the importance of computer in our daily lives. I was able to answer the exam and I was confident that me and my friend will pass.
Almost two weeks later, my friend chatted me that the COMELEC informed her that she wasn't considered or wasn't chosen as one the technical support staff. On that day, I waited for the COMELEC to also inform me but I received nothing. Three days later, I received a message from them informing me that I was chosen for the job. Of course was happy about the news. It is a great opportunity for me and salary also is good and can help us for my daughter's need. They gave me the necessary requirements and one of the requirements is the TIN (Tax Identification Number) which i don't have yet. I told them that I haven't secured a TIN yet and they gave me three days to get one. The next day, I didn't had the chance to go to the BIR (Bureau of Internal Revenue) for it was the day of the release of the typhoon Odette assistance from the government. No one will look after for my daughter. So, I decided to go to the next day instead.
The next day, I woke up early because I have to travel for two hours to for me to arrive at BIR. I need to be early to avoid long queue. I arrived at the BIR 9 in the morning. When I got the priority number, I was already at 49. I waited patiently for me to be called. I was already hungry for I didn't eat breakfast. Trivia about me: I don't eat everytime I travel because I puke especially if the vehicle is air-conditioned. Even if I take bonamine, I am still nauseous when traveling. I was called 11 in the morning. When I was at the counter, I gave my form and birth certificate and told her the purpose why I'm getting a TIN. But the teller told me that they need a certification that comes from the COMELEC. They won't issue me a TIN if I can't have a certification. I immediately headed home without taking lunch in hoping that I could arrive at our municipal where the COMELEC office situated because they will be closed at 3 PM. I arrived home almost two in the afternoon. I immediately eat a little because I was already famished and my stomach was starting to ache. After I ate, I hurriedly went to the COMELEC office and asked what I needed. Thank God they gave me a certification.
The next day, I woke up earlier for I was hoping to arrive at BIR early. But when I was at the terminal, I was the only passenger yet and the driver needs to wait for another passenger before we go. So, I waited almost an hour before we departed. Again, I arrived at BIR 9 in the morning. I was already dizzy when I arrived because I puke many times in the van. Still, I pulled myself up because I wanted this thing to be done early. But when I got the priority number, I was already at number 60. While waiting,I ate biscuit to feed my ached and hungry stomach. I was called already past two in the afternoon. I was praying that everything will be good. I submitted all the needed documents that they told me the other day. After few minutes, the teller told me that she needs a photocopy of my birth certificate. Again, I hurriedly looked for a store that has a photocopy machine. I went back on the teller and submit my photocopy. After I submitted the photocopy that she requested, she said that she can't issue me a TIN because I am from different district. She told me that I should go to Palo Leyte. I was so angry of what she said. If that's the case, she should have told me the first day I went in their agency. I'm pretty sure that she read my address on the form because I submitted it to her. I have wasted so much time, effort and money. I was so disappointed and my heart was full of dismay. That was the deadline of passing the requirements and if I can't pass my TIN, they will replace me. I went home with shrugged shoulders. And now, I will no longer render a service on election day and the great opportunity just slipped away.
If you reach this far, thank you for patiently reading my rants. See you on my next blog.
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Am I Ready?
February 08, 2022
Buenos dìas/ buenas tardes/buenas noches readcash community. How are you all? Valentine's day is few days ahead. Are you all excited? Are you expecting to receive something from your special someone? Well, me, I am not excited for that special day. When I became a mother, Valentine's day became a normal day to me. I am no longer excited when that special day come. Maybe because I am now focus on my daughter. But if my partner will surprise me, which I think he won't, I will still be happy of course. Who wouldn't, right?
Speaking of partner/boyfriend, my partner and I will be celebrating our fourth anniversary this year as a couple. It was year 2018 when I answered him to be my boyfriend. I can still remember clearly when he asked me the question, "Will you be my girlfriend?". The night he asked me that question, he was drunk. I did not answer him right away because I was thinking that maybe it was just an influence of the alcohol. I waited him to be sober the next day and see if he still remember what he said on that night. The next morning, he said that he really meant what he said. I was happy and I gave my Yes. We were happy in our relationship. He is sweet, caring, thoughtful and supportive boyfriend to me.
On the sixth month of our relationship I got pregnant. It was so difficult for us for we were both studying at that time. But I was already a graduating student and he was on his third year in the uni. On the first three months of my pregnancy, we hid it from our parents for we were afraid of their reactions. We were pretty sure that they'll get mad. But my landlady was so persistent on telling us that we should confess our situation to my boyfriend's family so that I can have a prenatal check up. So, we decided to tell his family but not on mine first. I want to graduate and get my diploma first before I am going to confess to them. Luckily, his mother accepted his situation with the help of his older sister. They still supported his studies and my pregnancy. I was happy and thankful to them.
Everything is fine in our relationship. Though there were times that we fought which is very normal in every relationships but we still manage to fix it. I am very thankful that I met him. I am thankful because he is a good partner and a good father to our daughter. I can say that I am lucky to have him because he has no vices that could give me headaches.
Last year, my partner's mother told us to inquire in the municipal office what are the requirements in getting a civil wedding. I was taken aback of what she said. I didn't see it coming. My partner didn't propose to me yet. Until this moment, I didn't go to the municipal office to do what she said. I am still hesitant. Months passed by and I thought that she already forgot about it. Then on New Year's eve, my partner, my daughter and I received a gift from her. Well, she gave all her children a gift. My partner and I were confused because we received four hóngbāos (red envelope). When we opened the fourth red envelope, we saw a couple ring. She said that it will be her gift on our wedding.
At this moment, I admit that I can't explain what I feel. There's a part of me that is hesitant on getting married. Yes, I love my partner, there's no question to that. But I can't help myself on thinking on so many things. Sometimes when I'm alone, I am thinking what if I can't be a good wife to him. What if we will be like to our parents. His parents were separated and mine also. My partner is still young. I am six years older than him. I am afraid what if one day he will fine another girl. I share this feeling to my sister and she said that I should go for it. It will be my advantage if we're married because I can secure myself and my daughter's right if something not good happened. We can't deny the fact that in our day today, there are lots of families that are being broken.
As of writing, I am asking myself if am I ready to level up our relationship to the next stage. Am I ready to fulfill the responsibility of a wife ? Am I ready to commit myself to a lifetime commitment? Hayyyy, I don't know. What do you think guys?
Maybe some of you may think that I am just being OA or finicky about this matter. But I believe that marriage is a serious matter and it should be think carefully because once you're in, there'll be no way out. Our country has no divorce and filing an annulment is very costly. I don't want to jump into that commitment also just because of my daughter. Oh gosh, I'm confuse right now.
Thank you for reading this far guys. I would gladly read your advice if you have one. Till next time everyone. Be safe and stay healthy.
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Beautiful Memories With Never Have I Ever (Valentine Edition)
February 06, 2022
Good day everyone. How was/is your day going? Well as for me, me and my little family just stayed in our house the whole day. The weather is still not good. It's still raining and sometimes it is followed with strong winds. It seems like maybe there is another low pressure again.
I was supposed to make this topic yesterday but since the internet connection was so poor, I couldn't access the link where I can get the questions. So today, I am going to answer these beautiful questions that is suitable for this month of love. I got these questions HERE as my reference. https://read.cash/@bbyblacksheep/never-ever-the-valentine-edition-b46bf509
Here I go...
**Never have I ever broken up with someone, but then got back together with them**
I have. As what I have commented on bbyblacksheep's article, when I was hurt by my first boyfriend, I promised myself not to back to them again. But when I was on a relationship with my eight long year boyfriend, I broke that promise. I was just so madly, deeply in love with him at that time. I remember, when I was in fourth year high school, my first boyfriend transferred to our school. He was from a private school back then but on his last year of high school, he chose to transfer to our school which is a public school. One of my classmates, which happened to be his cousin, told me his reason of transferring. He wanted to win me back. We didn't have a proper break up back then. But I refused what he wanted because I already promised to myself that I won't let him hurt me again.
**Never have I ever been in love with my best friend**
Yes I have. That eight long year boyfriend of mine was used to be my best friend. We were best friend since first year high school. We had a lot of beautiful memories when we were friends. He used to help me with my projects at school. But when we were in third year high school, I felt like I'm starting to fell for him. I hid it for a year for the reason that I was afraid that our friendship may broken. Everytime I see him with other girls, I felt jealous. When we were in fourth year high school, he confessed his feelings. I was so glad at that time that our feeling was mutual.
**Never have I ever dated two people at the same time**
Oh my I have. That happened after I graduated high school. That time, me and my long year ex-boyfriend was already in a relationship. We were almost a year that time. But since we seldomly see each other, it felt like our relationship was not in a good shape anymore. Yes, we still have communication by texting and calling. One time, my ex-boyfriend's brother texted me asking if me and his brother were still okay. I said yes, we're fine. He said that he thought that we already broke up because my ex-boyfriend was so close to one of my friend. He even told me that his brother was constantly hanging out with my friend. I was hurt but I didn't confronted my ex. And in that moment, there was someone who courted me. Without second thought I accepted him. So, when that guy visited in our house, I was also secretly texting with my ex.haha I was so bad.
**Never have I ever crushed on someone silently for a really long time**
I have. It was when I was in college. I really had a huge crush of one of the students in the campus. But all of my friends didn't know it.haha He was an education student majoring in MAPE. He was member of a dance group in the campus. He is really a good dancer. Everytime I see him dancing, I can't help but to admire his talent. But you know what's funny? I didn't know his name even until now.LOL
**Never have I ever received flowers, chocolate or a stuffed-animal from someone who's not blood related**
Yeiihh I have. Of all my boyfriends(hahaha with S talaga), my partner is the one who gave me flowers, chocolates and stuff toys. I still remember even before we became together, he already gave me chocolates during Valentine's day. On our first day of being a couple, he gave me a cap and a Panda stuff toy. He also gave me an animal pillow as Christmas gift. On our first Valentines together, he gave me a flower, chocolates and a love letter. Isn't he sweet?charoot
There you have it guys. I really had fun writing this. I keep on smiling while typing this on my phone for the reason that this topic made me remember some beautiful memories on my past. I thank you to the one who started this edition. It gives me some good vibes today. Till next time everyone. Thank you for reading.
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My 1st Saturday of the Month
February 05, 2022
Happy weekend readcash community! How is your day going? Here in our place, the weather is not good. So my daughter can't go to her favorite place where she can run and roam around together with other children. It is her daily routine after drinking her milk at 4 in the afternoon to go outside and enjoy playing. But today, she can't do it because the clouds are so dark and it's already pouring. Poor child, she just stay in the house and watch movies.
This morning, I woke up early than my usual time for the reason that today is my schedule in getting my mastercard in Landbank ( one of the banks here in our country). Two days prior, the bank sent me a message stating that I can get my mastercard scheduled today. Therefore, I woke up early because I thought that there will be many people also getting their cards just like during my partner's schedule. It took him three hours waiting to get his card. I don't want to be stuck in the venue, which is the municipal gym, since the weather seemed to pour hard because the clouds were very dark. So, I decided to go early for me to avoid a long queue. At around seven, I was already prepared and just waiting for my daughter to wake up so I can feed her first before I go. Minutes later she woke up and I immediately feed her. She seemed to know that I am going somewhere since I'm dressed up. While she was drinking her milk, she holds my hand and didn't let go. I just explained to her that I'll be back quickly. I burst to laughter when she said No,no no. So, I just let her finished. When she was done, I put her on her favorite chair and put her current favorite movie which is "Encanto". She really likes this movie because there are lots of singing. Sometimes she also sings along with the songs especially those Luisa's part and Bruno's.
When she was already focused on the movie, I sneak out so she won't notice that I'm already gone. I hurriedly went to the municipal gym. I was worried that maybe there will be many people already in the venue. I brought the necessary documents and valid ID which are the requirements in getting the card. When I arrived at the gym, I was glad that there were only few people and the queue is not very long. I immediately went on the line and waited for my turn to pass my transaction slip and valid ID. After passing my requirements, I went on the waiting area for my name to be called. While waiting, I opened my account here and read some articles. After almost an hour of waiting, finally my name was called. Yeheyy! I got my mastercard.
I hurriedly went home. I know my daughter already looking for me. When I got home, she was surprised and a wide smile with a loud voice saying MAMA welcomed me. It seems like I was gone for a long time.haha I hugged her and she kissed me on my cheeks. That is really one of my happiness. It always made me feel good and happy everytime my daughter shows her affection towards me. Perks of being a mother.hihi After the loving-loving moment, I accompanied her in watching her other favorite movies.
Afternoon came, we took our noonday siesta. I always put her to sleep after having lunch so that she can rest after her tiresome play. Since I woke up early today, I felt drowsy too. So, I also took a nap and sleep beside my daughter. At three o clock, my partner woke me up so we can have a snack. He bought ice cream and white bread. Hmmm my favorite. Our daughter was already up too so we let her joined. She was really happy eating an ice cream. Even if the weather outside was cold, it didn't hindered us in enjoying our snacks.Lol
I'll just end my blog for today here. It's kinda long already. I was supposed to answer the Valentines edition questions but I can't access the site where the questions are because the internet connection was so poor. Maybe I'll just do it tomorrow.hihi See you on my next blog.
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Have You Ever Cheated?
**February 04, 2022**
Let me flex first the people who continue to support all my works.
Aloha readcash community. Happy Friday to all of you. This blog of mine today is just for fun. My friend @Zhyne06 shared a post on Facebook about these questions. Since I can't think of a topic today, I decided to try to answer my chosen questions.
So, let's begin.
***Have you ever cheated?**
In terms of studying I can say that yes, I have cheated.haha Honestly, I think there are only few students who never cheat. But my most unforgettable cheating that I have done was when I was in fourth year high school. It was our fourth periodical exam in T.L.E ( Technology and Livelihood Education). My boyfriend at that time was on the other section. It happened that they took the exam ahead of us. He told me what are the questions so I can study it in advance. But our schedule for that subject was on that day after the lunch break. I got panicked because I haven't memorized all the steps about the topic. I told my best friend about it and she told me that she also didn't memorized the said topic since it was too long. What we did, we took a partition of the specific topic that we are going to memorize. Then, when the examination came, we made sure that we positioned ourselves near to each other. When we were at the part of the enumeration, I wrote what I have memorized and so my best friend. After that, we exchanged our papers and wrote what we have memorized. That was so epic because our valedictorian was the one who checked our papers. She noticed our handwriting. She approached to us and told us what she had detected. I was so nervous and afraid at the same time. I was afraid that she might tell it to our teacher. I admitted what we have done and thanked goodness she'd understand. From that moment, I decided not to do it again.Lol
In terms of relationship, I also experienced cheating. But I will not elaborate what really happened because it will took too long.hihi Maybe I'll just make another write up about it and share it to you.
*Who was the first person who leave you?
My mother. She left us, her children, when we were very young. In fact, I only have a vague memory of her. In my twenty-nine years of existence, I haven't meet here in personal. When she left us, me and my siblings were being given to different families. We were like kittens that is being given to other people. It is very painful for me that the first person whom I thought that will protect us will be the one who abandoned us. Until now, she haven't reached us even though she already knew where we are. As for me, I can't find courage to asks her too about the reason why she left us. I am hoping that one day, she will explain to us because I am very willing to listen y her.
*Have you ever think of committing suic*de?
With all honesty, Yes. I have thought of ending my life way back 2017. That time, I was at my lowest moment. Depression, anxiety, family problem, school problem and love life problem devoured my whole being. At that time, I felt like I was alone and all I see was darkness and pain. I locked myself at my room and I was always crying. Then an idea came to my mind. I can't hold it anymore and I can't take all the pain that I felt. I looked something sharp inside my room and I saw a scissor. As I was about to cut my wrist, there was something in my head that popped up and told me not to do it. My problems won't end if I choose to end my life. I asked God's forgiveness of what I have thought and about to do with myself. I realized that it is an unforgivable sin if you took your own life.
*Is religion important to a relationship?
For me, no. What's important in a relationship is love. If this ingredient is present in a relationship, then I believe that there will be no conflict between the couple. Just like me and my partner. We have different religions. He is a Protestant and I am a Catholic but it didn't hinder us in loving each other. Even before when we were just new to our relationship, I already told him that I will stand what my religion is. And I am glad that he respect me and I also respect his.
*Have you experience being compared with your parents to your siblings or other person?
Sadly, yes. Before, my considered parents always compared me to my younger sister. That was the reason why I got jealous of my younger sister. I was so thin before that made me not to perform well all the household chores. But now, I already get rid that jealousy out of my system. I don't want to go with my life having a not so good feeling towards my sister.
There you have it guys. I hope you like my answers. But before I end my blog, I want to say thank you to my friend memsh Zhyne06 for this topic. *Salamat memsh.😊*
Also, I want to extend my thanks to @Codename_Chikakiku and madam @Janz for renewing their sponsorship. Thank you for still supporting me guys. God bless you.
To all those who continue reading my works, I thank you so much.
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A Toast For You
**February 03, 2022**
Greetings readcash community. How is your day? Well, as for me, nothing so special that is happening to me. I just have an ordinary day just like most of my days. So, I'll just have a throwback Thursday about my partner's birthday celebration.
Last month, my partner celebrated his 24th birthday. Prior to his birthday, I asked him what he wants to do on his special day. He just told me that he didn't like to have a party during his birthday. Last year, his mother threw a small gathering honoring his existence. But this year, everything seemed quite. We thought that maybe she didn't have budget for her son's birthday since she is going back to Netherlands.
On the day of his birthday, we woke up like a normal day for us. I didn't greet him because I have a little surprise for him. Three days before his birthday, I ordered a Bilao in one of the sellers here in our town. I secretly ordered food so we can celebrate his birthday even if it is just simple. In the afternoon, he asked me if I forget something. I just laughed at him and said that "how can I forget the day when my special person born?". I saw him blushed and smile. But I didn't tell him about the food that I ordered. I asked an apology to him that I didn't able to buy something as my gift to have him. He just told that it's fine. As long as we are with him, my daughter and I, he is contented and thankful enough. (Cheezy din eh) We stayed at our room and we had a movie marathon. He was hooked by a Netflix series "The Good Doctor". Outside, his mother cooked a carbonara since we have many pasta left during Christmas and New Year. She also cooked calamaris.
At 5 in the afternoon, there was a food bilao came. I thought it was my order but it wasn't. My partner's mother said that it is she who ordered the food. My partner and I were surprised. We really thought that she didn't plan a celebration for my partner. I looked at my partner and I can see in his eyes that he was so happy. He became very enthusiastic and playful with our daughter and his younger sister. We decided not to invite their other relatives since there was only few foods served in the table. My partner's mother also bought wine (Novellino wine) because she knew that my partner likes this wine. Actually, he was the one who asked it.haha
When 6 in the evening came, my food bilao that I ordered arrived. They were all surprised. So, we had two bilaos in the table. When my partner saw what food I ordered, he was so happy because it was all his favorite. It has buffalo chicken wings, buttered garlic shrimp, lechon belly, beef steak and pansit Bam-i. We were only five in the house and the food was so many for us. So, my partner's mother decided to share some of our neighbors which is only her siblings. After that, we started our little celebration. We enjoyed our food and had fun chit chatting. After a while, my partner's grandmother came. She gave money to my partner as her gift. She stayed for a couple of minutes and played with her great granddaughter. After that she bid her goodbye since it's already late.
After we finished enjoying our food, we started to drink the wine. I only took a little sip for I don't like liquor anymore. Not the same when I was young when I can handle drinking hard liquors. They also add flavored beer. Oh my, I just watched them enjoying. But it's okay.As long as they are happy, I am also happy. It's always my happiness watching them laughing altogether.
When we were about to end our day, my partner expressed how happy he was. He thanked me for everything I've done on his special day. It was just little effort of me but I am happy that I made him elated. I am also thankful that he was contented on his celebration even though it was not as extravagant as before.
Thank you for reaching this far. I am thankful that there are still who likes to read my blog. To all my new found friends here and friends in person, I thank you all for still supporting me. I am very happy that I able to slowly back on track here. To all those who encourage me to go forward, I appreciate you a lot. God bless everyone.
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Fighting My Silent Battle
**February 02,** **2022**
Hello, hello readcash community! How are you all doing? It's been four weeks since I published my first article for the year 2022. It was during the New Year. I have been MIA (missing in action) here for a month. Its been a while already. I have missed many things here in this platform.
**Where was I last month?**
The month of January was not really good for me. I have many disappointments received that made me sad and lonely. One reason of my disappointment was I was not able to pass on my desired job. I was waiting on that job for almost a year. Maybe the reason that I was so disappointed because I had so much high hopes that I am going to pass. After I received the news that I failed, I felt so weak. I felt like everything I planned vanished in just one snap. I have so many things that I want to do if ever I have a job. But now, all those dreams would not be possible this year. As of this moment of writing, I didn't tell my family that I didn't get the job. I am afraid what would be their reactions if I tell them that I failed. They were expecting me to have a job already. They were planning to build a house of our own since the one they're staying now is not ours. It is owned by one of our relatives. The house is already old and there are parts that needs to be fixed. My father wants to renovate it and change the style of the house because it is very cram but the owner did not permit them. So, my cousin decided to buy a small lot where we can build our own house. They asked me to contribute for the house which is I am very willing to do but the problem is where can I find the exact amount of money they asked me.
I keep on thinking how can I tell them. Thinking them being disappointed makes me sad already. Everyday, I always think of my failure. There were also nights that I silently cried because of that. But I didn't let my partner know how I felt because I don't want him to be worried. He always asked me if I'm okay and my response is yes all the time. But deep inside, I felt like I'm about to burst. I feel like I'm a failure and worthless. Everytime I wanted to write an article, nothing would come to my mind. I can't focus in everything even on taking care of my daughter. There were times that my partner will get mad at me because I left our child unattended. I was sometimes spaced out and like in deep thoughts. I wanted to be fine but I can't. No matter how I tell myself that it's fine, there's another time, but my mind won't listen. Everytime I hear one of the songs of the "Encanto" movie, specifically the song of Luisa entitled "Surface Pressure", there is a line there that struck me and I can relate it so much. The line is
**"Im pretty sure I'm worthless if I can't be of service."**
Sometimes when I'm alone, I envy some of my friends who can provide for their families. I wanted to be like them. I am already shy with my partner's mother because she is the only one who supported us especially to our daughter. From her milk and everything she needs and even us, my partner and I. I wanted to provide my own family and no longer dependent on my partner's mother. She already helped us in so many ways.
Yesterday was Chinese New Year. As I was thinking, I realized that it's been already a month that I dwell myself from the ocean of disappointments. I came to watched the movie "Kung Fu Panda 1" and there was a line there from Master Oogway that wake myself up. The line is
***Yesterday is History.***
***Tomorrow is a Mystery.***
***But today is a gift, that is why it is called the Present.***
I should not dwell myself from the past. If I continue myself drowning from disappointments and loneliness, nothing will happen to me. I should live today. There are still many opportunities out there. Maybe it was not yet meant for me for now. I am still stocking myself enough courage for me to tell my parents. I hope they will understand me.
For the meantime, I decided to focus myself here in this platform. I am also glad that I am slowly winning my silent battle.
AUTHOR'S SAY
All of us has different silent battles in our life. We are facing and fighting to overcome those battles that drag us down. But don't give up. It's okay not to be okay sometimes. These battles are just a test that we need to pass.
To those like me who are currently fighting their own silent battles, I pray you will overcome and win that battle. We can get through this. Just don't forget to pray and asks God for guidance.
Finally, after a month, I able to finish an article. I am so glad to be back here. I hope I can finally back on track here just like last year.
But before I end this blog of mine, I want to express my heartfelt gratitude to all my sponsors who continue to renew their sponsorship even though I was inactive for awhile. Thank you so much. God bless you all.
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Our New Year Celebration
January 2, 2022
Happy New Year everyone. How was your celebration? I hope everyone is fine and happy as we welcome the new chapter of our lives.
As for my family, we welcome our new year with a little celebration. My partner's mother ordered bilao which consists of braised pork dish, calamaris, fish fillet, lumpia, and chicken cordon Bleu. She also ordered some kakanin inside a bilao. She preferred to order an already cooked food so we won't have to prepare much since it's still pouring very hard outside. We only prepared some desserts on our own to add our handa for Media Noche. We prepared Macaroni salad and spaghetti. We also had lechon belly and roasted chicken.
While waiting for the new year to come, we watched movies altogether. We talked to let ourselves awake despite the coldness of the weather. We tried not to fall asleep. Outside, we heard different kinds of noise though it was still many hours before New Year. Maybe they were just too excited to welcome the next year. My daughter was afraid of the loud noises especially those from the engine of motorcycles. We wanted to go outside but the rain didn't let us. Thus we remained inside our house.
My partner's older sister came to celebrate new year with us. Her partner was not home because of his responsibility as a fireman. We decided to not to wait for 12 A.M since my partner's sisters have to go to their father's house too. We started our celebration at 8:00 in the evening so they can have time to spend to their father. My partner and I did not go with them because we decided to accompany their mother. We don't want her to welcome 2022 alone.
Before we dig in with our food, we had some pictorials first as a remembrance for us. We had fun taking pictures. After that, we enjoyed our food.
When we were done eating and cleaning our table, my partner's sisters went to their father's house. When they left, I realized something. It's really hard when parents are separated. The children were the ones who'll get affected much. But on my partner's case, they already understand their parents situation. Maybe they're matured enough to understand the circumstances.
Later on, my partner's mother went to her room. Me, my partner and our daughter also went to our room but we did not sleep. We wanted to welcome 2022 awake. I had a feeling that my partner's mother was sad so I let my daughter went to her room. I know she loves her granddaughter so much. There, they played and we heard their laughter. Me and my partner also talked some stuff while drinking wine. After a few minutes, my partner's mother together with her granddaughter went outside her room. They then joined us. When the clock struck at 12 we greeted each other a happy new year.
Our new year celebration may not the same as before but we are still thankful because we gathered together and celebrated it completely. We are still grateful most importantly because we are safe, my family, during the typhoon.
This new year, my prayers are for those victims of the calamity that they may still find hope in the midst of difficulties they experience now. I am still optimistic that this year will bring good for all of us.
This is for today. I supposedly published this article last night but we had a misunderstanding with my partner. But early morning, we resolve it. I guess we started our year with misunderstanding.Lol
But before I end this blog, I want to give a big shout out to @ARTicLEE for renewing his sponsorship. Thank you so much for still trusting me. God bless you.
Flaunting my sponsors who keep on believing in me. Thank you all guys. I appreciate you all so much.
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Year-end Thoughts
December 31, 2021
A very cold day everyone. It's freezing out here in our place. Though we don't have snow in our country, it still feel cold because of the non-stop rain. It's been a couple of days since the rain poured and up to this day it continues pouring. I am worried that the water in the river may rise again and we will be flooded again just like what happened during the outrage of the super typhoon.
Today is the last day of the month of December. We are now in the last page of the year 2021 too. This year gave us more challenges. We faced many problems. There were many natural calamities that measured our patience and strength. But despite it all, we are still here, alive, breathing and still hoping for a bright future next year. It was not easy for us to surpass the difficulties we faced but we still be thankful for we are still given a chance to move forward. As I am about to close the page of the book of 2021, I want to look back the beautiful things that happened to me this year that made me thankful for. I choose to hark back to the buoyant things to make my year end more optimistic. I guess that's what should we do. We should have a forward-looking life and not dwell on the negativities that happened to us.
To start with, I am thankful that I met this platform,readcash. I am very thankful that my friend @Zhyne06 introduced me here. (Thank you so much jud memsh.) This platform gave me a chance to learn and earn while I am still unemployed. Yes I'm a college graduate but up to this moment I am still jobless. Applying a job is difficult for me since I have a daughter to attend to. In addition to that, the pandemic that happened to us made it more difficult to find a job. With this platform, I able to finance my needs and most importantly during the typhoon, I was able to help my parents and my neighbors. Readcash is such a big blessing to me.
Earlier, I sum up all my earnings here in readcash. For 5 months of staying, I earned more than $500. Though I haven't hodl it because I gradually used it when there were some emergencies like when my daughter was sick. I used some of my earnings here for her check ups and medication. But I have no regrets in not holding my earnings here because it helped me when I needed financially. Some of it, I spent it during my family have celebration like birthdays. Even though I don't have a stable job yet, I still want to give contribution to my family whenever they have celebration. I want them to think and feel that even if I have build my own family, I still support them in any ways I can. I want them to know that I still love them.
The last thing that I am thankful for this year is our reconciliation between me and my father. I have shared here what happened to my relationship to my father, not my biological father. He was so disappointed to me when I got pregnant. And just this year, we were able to reconnect again during my birthday. I was so happy on that day because we were able to talk to each other and I asked forgiveness and he forgave me too. For me, that was the most beautiful present I have received on my natal day. Now, our relationship is back to what we were before.
These are the worthwhile things that happened to me that I am thankful for this year. This year 2021 gave me much lessons in life that I'll forever keep and bear in mind. It may be rough and tough but I am thankful that I surpassed it and able to stand. Tomorrow we will welcome another year. We will face another trials to win but we should keep in mind that God will never give us problems with no solutions. Let us be optimistic that next will be a good year for all of us. Let's claim that.
Hi sis @Eybyoung , this is my entry to your prompt #WhatIamThankfulForThis2021. Thank you for initiating this prompt for it gave me a chance to look back on some beautiful things that happened to me. I hope you like it. https://read.cash/@Eybyoung/what-i-am-thankful-for-this-year-2021-promt-178a0782
Before I end my blog, I want to say thank you to @Marinov for renewing her sponsorship. Thank you mem for the support. Have a bless new year to your little family.
***Happy New Year to all my readcash family. Thank you for the beautiful year. May we have a prosperous year ahead. God bless us all and be safe.***
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