How I Found Out That An Angel Is Inside Me

December 3, 2021

A cold day everyone. I can really feel the cold breeze of Christmas. The freezing weather here in our place escalated especially that we are located in a highland. I already use socks every night to protect my feet from coldness.

Three days ago, I have read @Momentswithmatti challenge for all moms about how they found out that they are pregnant. Well as a mother, it is a great topic for me. While reading her article, it made me reminisce the day I found out that I'm conceiving my daughter. It is my happiness too to look back those days. So, here it goes.

I was on my last year in college when I got pregnant. Four months to graduate to be exact. I remember, year 2019, new year's day, I had my monthly period. Then, on the 27th day of January, my period visited again but it was unusual. My period usually lasted for a week and dysmenorrhea is normal for me. But on that time, I felt nothing and my period only lasted for 2 days and it was like not much. In my mind, I find it weird but I just shove it off. My partner and I did not use protection and we were just confident because it's been how many times we did it and nothing happened. February came, I missed my period but I just thought that maybe that second period that I had on the month of January was for the next month. But on that month, I changed. I became easy to get angry, I always wanted to pick fight with my partner (buti na lang di siya nagsawa Lol) and I was always hungry. Every time I came from school, I always requested my partner to have snacks. Again, I didn't mind it cause I believe that it was just an effect of the vitamins that I took. That time, I took Ferrous and Propan as my vitamins.

Month of March, there was an event in the school. We had a fun-run as opening for our school anniversary. My partner and I decided to join. My partner was an athlete so I supported him. When we started running, few distance, I felt that my tummy was aching. I ignored it because I thought that it was normal. But later on, the pain that I felt became worse. I asked my partner that we will just walk. The pain subsided so I believed that it was really normal. When I started to run again, the pain came back so I decided to just walk. The fun run became fun walk for us. We took some photos on that event then I noticed that I was pale. The next day, I had a fever and all of my body was aching. But then again, I ignored.

Two weeks from that event, I was expecting my period to came but it didn't came. I was little bit worried at that moment so I asked my partner to buy a pregnancy test. I told him to buy two PT's to make sure. The next day, my partner gave me the PT. That was my first time to use that so I was hesitant. I was also nervous of what would be the result. I heard that it is better to use the PT in the morning, in your first pee. So, I followed it. I was at our boarding house at that time. I woke up so early so no one can notice me. While at the cr, I didn't understand myself. My mind said that I should feel nervous and scared but my heart felt the other way. When I was done following the instructions, I saw two lines which means positive. I'm pregnant! I was confused at that time because I thought I would feel scared when I see the result but it was different. I felt so happy though at the back of my mind, I know that my parents will be mad.

I told my partner about the result. I asked him what he felt and he answered me that he was happy too. We both know that it was not really the right time but it's already there. We need to face our consequence. We decided to hide it first to ourselves. Though I told some of my friends but not everybody. Good thing I was thin before so it's not hard for me to hide my baby bump. I graduated with no one noticed my tummy except those who knew.Lol.

Photo above is me. This was taken during our Ringhop and I was already four months pregnant at that moment. My baby bump was not that visible (advantage of being thin Lol)

This is it for today everyone. I really had a beautiful time reminiscing that part of my life. Though it was not all happy moments but still it is memorable to me.

Thank you so much to all your support. I appreciate you all so much. Have a great day and God bless.

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Lead image is edited by me using Canva app and the photo above is mine as well.