I'm Not Okay!!
Hello good evening my loves... How are you all doing? I'm sure some of you guys would have noticed that I vanished from the site for 2 whole days and the reason? I don't know.... I'm just laying on my bed, not wanting to move or do anything..
For the past few days, I have been extremely paranoid and anxious of something that I cannot even figure out. I have been under so much stress lately, physically and emotionally and every possible way. I just cannot cope with it.. The extent I have been stressed lately is so much that I have actually missed my menstruation this month. I should have finished it by now but it has not even started yet. I have never missed my periods once in my past 10 years and this is the first time in a decade... Men might not understand this but I'm sure women folk know how deep this is..
I even took pregnancy test twice but nothing, it was negative. My body is shaking and shivering for unknown reasons and I have this chronic neck pain that if I become stress even a little bit, the nerves in my neck are hurting me. I'm unable to even open my mouth to eat or chew normal food as simple as rice.. This is ridiculous. I waited for a week to see if it will get better but it did not. Today, I felt the worse of all days. I had to go to doctor which I eventually did this afternoon. My gyno was patient enough to hear me out and she told me that she has suspicions on my stress levels and nothing else... She said there would be 4 reasons of not getting period,
Pregnancy in most of the cases (not in mine)
Cysts in overies.. (she says am too young to have those)
Stress (which I have a lot along with anxiety and paranoia)
Anemia, which means no blood in body.. for which, she asked me to give a blood test tomorrow along with my thyroid, Vit c and Vit D3 tests..
Looking at my condition, she mostly put the reason as either my stress or Anemia. These are the important points she gave me not cope with stress which mostly am already doing and they are helping a bit...
Go for walking, always try to be fit. If you keep your body active, it will keep your mind peaceful.
Spend time with family.. have at least one meals together..
Talk to your favorite people often, either from family or friends.. and make sure they are positive mindset people.
Believe yourself that it will be okay at the end
Have regular full body check ups, maybe at least once a year.
Find the root cause of your stress and try to see if you can do anything about it.
Try to eat healthy.. drink a lot of water or lemon juice everyday with a pinch of both salt and sugar in it.
Tomorrow early morning, I need to leave my house to go to the lab to give test you guys and once the results come, I should take them back to her and hopefully, it is nothing big... Keep me in your prayers, because sometimes I feel so negative, I just wanna give up and leave.. But I also know, it shouldn't be this way, I have a beautiful daughter and kind husband to focus my energy on.. I'm trying!!!!!
I'm also trying my best to visit you all amazing people, please give me time.. Pretty please!!
Hope you guys are fine.. please take care of your mental health as well as your physical. Both are extremely important.
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