“When I’m tired, I rest. I say, ‘I can’t be a superwoman today.’”

“When I’m tired, I rest. I say, ‘I can’t be a superwoman today.’” – Jada Pinkett Smith

There are so many words that I want to utter today, but the words “I’m tired”  are the only words that I hear from within.

Aside from being a teacher, I am a breadwinner of the family.  And here, I want to share with you my everyday routine:

Every day I need to wake up as early as 4:00 AM in the morning to get myself ready for school. I need to move fast because we are traveling for almost 2 hours before we arrived at school. So it is probably 6:00 – 6:30, we are already in the school.

Our classes start at exactly 7:30 after the flag ceremony. And we stay at school for about 8 hours and more a day. There, we spent our time teaching and doing all our paperwork as possible. Because of having so many tasks to be done, we need to multi-task in order for us to finish everything that we need.

So when I get home in the afternoon, I need to get ready again for another work. I am also a tutor for about 2-3 hours. So after work, I need to work again as a tutor. So I can get home at 8:00 in the evening.

After I take my shower, I will prepare my coffee and myself for my side hustles again which are the platforms that I have. And I am awake up to 1:00 Am or worse until 2:00 Am.

So every day, I only have 2-3 sleep.

I admit, that my routine seems so very busy and exhausting somehow, and my body can really tell how tired I am for every day.

This is my life, my everyday life for almost a month now.

But of course, I am not like a superwoman every day,  I get tired and exhausted and to the extent that I am having some breakdowns all over again and again.

I must admit, that I feel so heavy for the past few days aside from being so busy with everything. I just felt alone and lonely because of some family problems and personal issues. 

And yesterday, as I am about to sleep, I felt my tears keep falling. But I hate this feeling, I hate it when I feel weak, I hate it when I feel so stressed about things that I have no control over.

Because I cannot sleep, I open my Facebook account and start to scroll, then I read these quotes:

“Keep believing. You may be tired, discouraged, but don’t give up on your future.” – Joel Osteen

“If you get tired, learn to rest, not to quit.” – Banksy

“Never stop trying. Never stop believing. Never give up. Your day will come.” – Mandy Hale

“No matter how tired you feel, no matter how much you want to quit, no matter what obstacles are in your way, keep moving toward the vision you have for your future.” – Jon Gordon

These quotes make me feel alive that keeps make me realize that I’ve come so far, this is not the time to give up, but rather a perfect time to continue and make all my dreams come true.

I may not be strong every day, but what matters the most, is looking back on all the things that I’ve started and choosing to strive for the best no matter how exhausting it gets.

I would like to take this opportunity to appreciate and say thank you to my generous and supportive friend @Coolmidwestguy for the sponsorship. God bless you every day my friend :)