I became selfish for a reason.

I became selfish for a reason.

I am not perfect, I messed up, and I am flawed.

Maybe others will find me suitable, and others may see me as arrogant and nasty, but that is okay. I know who I am and am always proud of what I have become.

I am soft-hearted and so open to the extent that I cannot even hide my secrets and weaknesses from others. I am also the type of person that, if you are close to my heart, I will do my best to protect you and fight your battles. My attachment towards anyone is somehow my weakness, I trust too much, but in the end, they will betray you and leave you nothing but hatred.

This situation has happened to me many times; even if my intentions are good, in the end, they will turn into something that I thought they would never do.

I became selfish for a reason.

I know others will judge me based on what they only hear, but that will be alright. As long as I live my life honestly and with the truth, I will sleep peacefully and wake up happy.

To the person, who will judge me as selfish and arrogant, I have my reasons.

First, that is because you hurt me and betrayed me.

I know that forgiving is a must. Yes, I forgave you, but I will never forget. The pain and the trauma you gave me, the moment that I trusted you with all my heart, but you betrayed me and made me the foolish one. You know how much I defended you how many times and shared with you all the pain that burdens you, but in the end, you ultimately destroyed me and left me hanging alone.

Second, that is because you are selfish too.

There are instances when I become tired and exhausted from giving all that I have. There comes a time that I almost sucked sharing with others what I know, not because I don't like to, but because you make me feel that I am not worthy of being shared when you have everything.

I remember all the details when you are lying to me, the times that I need you the most, and the times when I am craving your help.

I became selfish because you made me one.

I'm sorry for not always being good; I'm sorry for being selfish at times because I am just a human; I get hurt and feel pained.

For those people who judge me and gossip based on what they only hear and without knowing my side, it will be okay, and I will never bother myself to prove who I am and what I am, but I will still wish you good luck who you trust.

I am sorry for the rant; I am not feeling well today because I became more emotional. By the way, I hope everyone is having a great weekend with your loved ones.

Keep safe, and God bless!