My Happiness

This is a question I'll normally evade. It's one of those questions that I'm kind of afraid to even think about it myself, but it's also a question you have to answer at some point, whether you like it or not, and that's what I'm gonna do here presently. I'm an emotionally resistant person; that is to say, my ability to respond to the emotion of the environment/circumstances is almost non-existent. I do understand emotional states, but I don't just react as most humans would do. So, as a result of this, my 'happiness' hardly radiates off of me, and as such, most people tend to misunderstand my person and classify me as an unhappy person, meanwhile, I'm mostly always happy. So, what makes me happy?

Making Ends Meet

I know how it sounds, but one of the things that can steal my happiness is the inability to make ends meet. I've come to notice that whenever I'm having money troubles and the like, I'm far less receptive to positive emotions, cos I'm the type of person that only see my problems and nothing else until I fix them.

Family

Growing up, I was always isolated from every other person in my life. This is because I am an introvert. I didn't allow myself to appreciate what it meant to have a family and to spend time with them. This doesn't mean I was away, I was always with them physically, but not emotionally. Later in life, I started enjoying those family time, family dinners, movie nights etc. I've been mostly away from them these past few years, and every time I get to be with time, I savour it. 

Another thing about my family that gives me joy, is when they have no issues or problems, as well as when I'm able to help put with anything they need help with.

Spreading Happiness

There are several things that I'll always be grateful to my parents for, and one of those is that they thought me how to put people before myself in a healthy way. I grew up knowing that I'm supposed to help people whenever they need my help and it's within my power to give it. I was also raised in the church. So, I know why I should give and offer help where possible. 

Understanding this, I've always felt happy and fulfilled whenever I'm able to do something that will alleviate or better a person's life, no matter how small. I love it so much that I can go as far as causing myself a great deal of pain or discomfort just to put a smile on a person's face.

Friends

On this subject matter, I'm very picky. The quality of our lives is mostly determined by the kind of people we surround ourselves with. You can't pick your family, but you can pick your friends, and so I do. I look at my friends as an extension of my family and as such their happiness is also mine. Because of the calibre of people I choose as friends, just spending time with them alone can make me extremely happy. 

Conclusion 

While for most people, happiness is a feeling that is best experienced in the present, for me, it's the best experienced after the causative events. If we are having fun, for example, everyone would be happy, myself included. While the happiness will likely dissipate for others, with time, after the event, my happiness will only be fully felt and expressed after the causative event. 

Anyways, these are just a few sources of happiness for me, and I love them. Everyone deserves to be happy, don't let anyone tell you otherwise, so make sure you find and own your happiness and its sources.