On the dark side of the World in Space

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Mag-isa! Ee ano?

Mag isa man pero masaya

Kung masaktan man, pero dahil lang sa talsik ng mantika.

At kung lumuha man, ay baka napuwing lang o maaari ring napagod ang mata kaka titig kay Oppa

Mag isa? Mag isa oo pero mahalaga ako sa "kanila."

"Kanila" dahil di lang sa isa kundi buong aking pamilya

Maaaring masaya yong may "siya"

Pero mas pipiliin ko pa rin yong "ako lang" saka "sila"

Hindi, hindi ako takot magmahal

It's more like sawa na akong masaktan

Mas pipiliin ko nalang yong sakit na galing sa malalim na tusok ng karayom

Kesa galing sa "kanya" tapos ang epekto mag iisip ako ng malala

Maaaring malungkot mag isa pero para sakin lang ha, mas masakit yong nagmahal ka tapos iiwanan din pala

Di naman sa wala na akong tiwala

Wala namang gumawa ng masama sakin para mawala yong aking tiwala

Sadya lamang na ako'y sawa na sa kahit anong may involve na "siya" tapos sa dulo ako lang din ang maiiwang "mag isa"

Sa advance kong mag isip daig ko pa yong character sa anime na kayang mag predict ng future

Esper ba tawag dun, basta yong may psychic ability

Hindi pa nangyayari pero sa isip ko sampung beses ko ng naranasan

May bonus pa, iniyakan ko kahit di naman totoong nangyari, ganyan ako kalupet mag overthink

Pero sa totoo lang, gusto ko na yong ganito

Nag iingat lang naman ako kasi baka maloka ako ee di matutuluyan na si parot na maloka kung nagkataon

Imbes sa lalaki at kwarta lang maloka ang ginawa ay ni-literal na

Ewan ko ba, isa't kalahating shunga lang kasi ako na maganda (self proclaimed B)

Alam nyo bang bukod sa mag imagine ng mga pangyayaring imposibleng mangyari ay magaling din akong manakit ng sarili?

Walang involve na kutsilyo o blade dito pero yong sakit tagos sa kaluluwa, luluha ka talaga

Walang tutulong dugo sakin pero luha marami

Sa galing kunh mag emote baka pati artista akin ng matalo

Ang yabang ko no?

Sa ganito ko lang kayang mag yabang kasi diko namang kayang mag yabang na sakin "siya" ee

Maigi pa nga flat chested kapag gusto nilang kumapit ang bra sa kanila may mahahanap silang solusyon

Pero ako, yong pag asa ko wala talagang makakapitan na.


Hahahaha, I wrote this last July 1 when i'm already about to sleep. Off phone, I already hide it under my short and put it away to my hands. But then while I'm trying to sleep, that first 2 paragraph on this article suddenly came into my mind. It is just a thought because I am thinking again that, I don't want anyone in my life like a boyfriend a partner or whatever. There are really times that this thought will suddenly appear in my head even before.

So before that I was saying sorry to myself like this "Sorry self if I don't want a man in my life. Sorry if I can't make you happy because I want to stay single for a very very long time and sorry that you won't experience the feeling of having someone again in your side." I am also like consoling myself because I feel like I am getting on my own way to feel happy and all, lol. Do you think I'm normal? Hahaha this kind of thought that I don't know where is coming ,lol.

I'm like a crazy gal tryna console my own just to stop myself from getting there lol. But seriously speaking, I'm happy with being like this. This is really what I want. But therr are really times that this thought is keep on bugging me. I even said "just a few more weeks and i'll be turning 28 years old already. But you don't even have to plan to get yourself a man and experience Love." But as what I've said, myself is my own enemy here stopping me from having that again, lol

Maybe the reason that J am having this thought again is because another year will add on my age soon, lol. And also I think it is my way to stop myself from thinking about love and everything. Coz to be fvcking honest even if I don't want to think any of this, it will just suddenly occur to my mind. I mean, why I have to think that right. Bigla nalang susulpot kala mo'y maiiwanan ng tren kung magpa alala, lol. My inner self is excited to have a juwa while me? Pass!

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yung self proclaimed dun ako nagwala kakatawa eh hahaha...walangya...mag madre ka nalng baby gerl baka tumino ka pa

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2 years ago

Ok lang yan sis, for sure kaya mo naman sigurong pasayahin sarili mo. Tsaka kung may dadating man for sure worth it na ehehhehe.

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2 years ago

Yes na yes naman, natawa nga ako nag isa ee bwahaha

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2 years ago

Eh bakit may pahugot na naman itong iyong likha. Wari ko'y may pumukaw na naman sa iyang pagiging makata.

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2 years ago

Hahaha char char lang hahaha bigla ko na lamang naisip patulog na akwiii hahaha

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2 years ago

We can all experience that something is not meant for us eventually everything will be put in the right place at the right time.

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2 years ago

Right right, someday

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2 years ago

Ops sister it is too much Philippines language, I am not able to understand because when you wrote it you were in sleep 😂. Sorry I am kidding very good night.

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2 years ago

Hahaha it's Tagalog ✌️

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You know what? I suddenly saw my 28 year old self from this blog. This is so me, I even cry at night as I really felt pity for myself kasi tumatanda na ako and yet I still don't have a jowa😂. Ive been single for already 8 year's, and yet my desire to have a child was still there,but how? Wala nga kasi akong jowa? Naitatanong ko din sa sarili ko kung hindi ba ako kajowa jowa? Bakit wala akong jowa??🤣🤣🤣🤣but anyway please don't hope, darating din si Mr. Right.

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2 years ago

Haha oi till now wala kant juwa? Pero masaya ka naman now ano? Ako kasei masaya naman kahiy singol hahaha fi lang talaga mapigilan na sumingit yanh abt juwa ba aigooo

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2 years ago

I already have a baby, at my age of 34 may one year old na ako😂😂kaya may pag asa ka pa don't worry.

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2 years ago

Ay nahaysuuuu, di ka naman nahirapan manganak? Omg takot ako manganak at ayaw ko sa bata talaga 🤧

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2 years ago

Nahirapan ah, feeling ko nga mgtatransform ako into manananggal anytime sa sobrang sakit ng balakang ko nung naglalabor na ako. Pero wag mo munang isipin yun girl, mag hanap ka muna ng jowa,dahil kajowa jowa ka!😂

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2 years ago

hehehhe ang galing ng pagkagawa mo ate hehe. God will give you more than what you deserve ate kasi you deserve the best po.

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2 years ago

Hihi, salamat 🥳🥳

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2 years ago

Hahaha. Ang kulit eh! Anyway, siguro kung maghihiwalay man kami ni jowa ko ngayon, hindi na ako magmamahal ulit. Sabi ko nga sa kanya, dalawa lang ending namin. Either magpakasal kami or sya yung last heartbreak ko. 😁

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2 years ago

Awiehhh sure na? What uf di pala sya ang nakalaan 4 u? Di mo ba naisip mga possibilities?

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2 years ago

Bat ba kasi ayaw mo mag BF ruffs haha sayang yung ganda kung di kalang maglalahi hihi. Ang bitter mona talaga ruffs. labas2 karin kasi diyan sa enyu nukaba wuyy.

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2 years ago

Dahil nga ayaw ko hahaha yan ang rason ahahahaha. Ayaw ko lumabas walang kwarta pang gala hurhur charrrrr

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2 years ago

Forcing the heart will only increase self-doubt, be ready first because love is not easy to live.

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2 years ago

Well yeah, thanks haha

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2 years ago

It's fine naman talaga without someone at that age, yung iba kasi nasa mid 30s na saka nakikilala ang the one. Natawa ako sa sa mga lines lalo sa 3rd hahah

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2 years ago

Hahaha dibaaaa, ewan ko ba sa utak ko masyadong epalog baga hahaha

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2 years ago

You're still young at 27 sis, dont push yourself, ay di nga pala talaga pinupush hehehe... Hmmm nadala ka na siguro kaya ayaw mo na na may siya. Anyway, there is time for everything, baka one day, may bigla na lang magpropose at kinabukasan ikakasal kana hehehe possible ba yun? di ata kasi need pa kukuha ng CENOMAR hehehe.

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2 years ago

Hahaha di pa naman me nagamadali more like napapaisip na ng mga bagay bagay jajajaja. Oi possible yaan lalo kapag mayaman abah ahahahaha iahabol nalang siguro ang cenomar ahahaha

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2 years ago

hahaha siguro hahaha

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2 years ago

masaya naman maging single at maging taken kapag handa ka po talaga sa arelasyon. ang ganda po ng poem, napaka pinoy. hindi yan kaya matranslate ng google. hehe

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2 years ago

Haha tamaaa mas tahimik abg mundo lol. Words by words etatranslate yan haha

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2 years ago

Hay nako sis,magaling ka talaga mag emote ha..bakit ba naman ayaw mo magka jowa ehh maganda ka naman siguro,charr..ang saya kaya pag inlove may pa kilig2x pa tagos hanggang butot kaluluwa.

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2 years ago

Hahaha magalinh mag emote kahit wala namang pinagdadaanan ahahaha. Tama na muna sakin ang landers landers 🥴🥴🤣🤣

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2 years ago

Masasabi mo lng yan now kc wala pa.. Once makilala mo.. Bka masabi mo, "i can't live without you" 🤣

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2 years ago

Hahahahaha utot hahaha mga linyahan ko yan dati ee peronow malabo na hahaha

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2 years ago

Pwede sumingit? ahhaha natatawa ako sa mga comment and reply mo sis, natawa ako sa utot hahaha parang wala ka talagang feeling sa siya... hmmm abangan na lang ang susunod na kabanata. Hanggang andito pa si read.cash at andito kapa at kami for sure magkukwento kapa hehehe.

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2 years ago

Bwahahahaha wala pa sa ngayon sis ewan ko din if magkakaroon pa hahahaha. Sa pera lang ako may pake for now hahahaha chorrr

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2 years ago

Being an overthinker is a trait that may make you feel like a weirdo, but it also makes you very wise. You are only thinking about things because they're important. And the best thing is: It doesn't matter what you think.

And sometimes people will love you most when they don’t understand you. sometimes, overthinking people are the ones who have the true feelings.

by the way, I'm new here.

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2 years ago

Hehe. Oh hey, wrlcome here. I hope you are enjoying your stay here yes?

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2 years ago

Yes I do, you too.

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2 years ago

Para kang ung bff ko, dahil sa past boyfriend nya ayaw nya na pero deep inside may nag uudyok na go hanap haha kasi di rin naman tayo bumabata, dala rin siguro ng pressure. Pero here's the catch, enjoy mo lang single life. Dadating yan kung di natraffic haha pero ayun nga dadating yan pero syempre ah effortan din natin, like mingle mingle ba ganun kahit walang plano pang mag jowa kasi from there di mo akalain, may dadating na sakit sa ulo 🤣🤣

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2 years ago

Hahaha, ah may nakaraan pala sya? May takot pero parang bet nya ulit? Ako ayaw ko talaga pero ang gulo ng isip ko, di sila magkasundo ng puso ko hahahaha charrrr. Saka nalang muna talaga bahala na. Hahahaha

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2 years ago

Oo, first bf niya, sobrang reserved na tao nun kaso niloko kaya ayun ayaw na nya sana kaso hahahaha di rin namin maintindihan yun pero go naman sya if ever may iintroduce kami sa kanya ganon, para bang go with the flow na lang muna since di rin naman niya alam if magiging jowabels nya mga mameet nya or hindi

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2 years ago

I love the poem. But ayoko ng mag isa. Akala mo lang gusto mo mag isa. Pero pag nameet at nanjan na sya, kakalimutan mo na gusto mo palang maging single. Hahaha

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2 years ago

Hahaha walang "siya" diko tatanggapin sorry. Chorrrr hahaha

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2 years ago

Tapos biglang may dumating na unexpected no? Yung tipong nalove at first sight tas eto na si hart di na napigilan

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2 years ago

Tingin ko lang if ever mangyari yan di ko din susundin gusto ng puso ko ahahaha

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2 years ago

Aigoooooo, ang lalim ha. madami bang pressure cooker sa paligid? Ako naman dati matagal na din akong naging single nuon pero okay lang wala kiber actually mas okay nga maging single eh, strong woman ganoyn. I imagine din myself na single forevs kaso ayun, may dumating eh. Kumbaga, I just hit the jackpot price charrr. Pero wala masama kung forev single ahhh. saya nga nun eh.

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2 years ago

Yin na nga ee wala naman hahaha, masaya pa naman ako da pagiging singol ngayon ahahaha kaso ewan bat bigla pumapasok sa isip ko yan baka siguro deep inside gusto ng puso ko, ayaw lang ng utak ko hahahahaha

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2 years ago

ahaahah in short, boredom attack hahaha or baga kassi may nagapapramdam tas inaayawan mo dzai?

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