It's not Loneliness, It Is Peace of Mind
You might see me in one place alone who has a headset in ears looking so pathetic because I have no one in my side. But have you ever thought that maybe, that is what I want and that is what prefer? To be alone, to be on that particular spot minding my own business and enjoying my kind of me time. And also because my own space is so important to me. That I don't really need anyone right now and definitely don't need anyone's sympathy.
It is just what I chose. I don't need a pity. If you saw me not looking to anyone and just letting anyone pass by to me, that is only mean one thing. And that is - I want space. I want peace. I want to be alone. I don't need a talkative person who will disturb the calmness on my surrounding. I hate it whenever someone do that to me. Even the fam or whoever it is. What I value the most is the peacefulness I have and that is what I prefer
It is also the reason why I always have my headset with me. That is to show to others the hidden message on it "DO NOT DISTURB ME!" I may look sad in the front but I am actually enjoying myself. Even if I am alone I still enjoy my own time because that's me. I don't need to be with someone just yo be happy. Just with the music, I can live. I'm already used to being alone and I have no problems with that. I love my space! I love the loneliness
You can call me a snob all you want but my personal space is very important to me. Don't expect me to return the same enthusiasm that you showed to me if ever you saw me coz if I'm not in the mood, I will really look like disappointed because you just disrupted me. And I hate it. If you saw me and I just nod as I acknowledge your presence then that's it. I don't want to talk anymore so please read between the line and get lost. I want to be alone!
This happen to me a lot of times but I am good in keeping myself away from them. Pretending not to see them? I do that. Specially if I am not ready to face anyone. Or if it is to sudden and you just appear out of nowhere. I am too stunned to even speak to them and if it happens I easily get startled like I can't freaking gather my thought like what the fudge. The ending I will really just look at them and ignore them. That's better then to stutter in front of them.
I will feel more shy for sure because of that. Am I a certified introvert? I think I am. I am uncomfortable now with people even those people I consider friend that I never saw for a long time. And one thing, whenever I walk to go somewhere I always look straight ahead of me or sometimes look down so that if ever I bump into someone I can avoid them fast. Like nothing happened. That's how I hate interaction now. Am I the only one?
Well, my only point here is not all people you will see in one corner needs attention or companion. Some just wanted to be alone and enjoy it their self without anyone disturbing them. Some will even make fun because of it like duhh, mind your own dmn business kasi. Some even think that they did them a favor but believe me - they are more annoyed to you than grateful. Not all people wants attention. Some just want peace of mind.
And they can only get it without you - doing unnecessary things like you just did then a big favor, lol.
If I sound maldita here don't be afraid I was just making it sound like that so that it will make an impact, hahaha. Who else here is an introvert person here who was often mistaken that you need someone to talk to, even if you are not? Do you show to them what happened if they mess up with you or you just ignore them like they are not existing at all?
September 09, 2022
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Oh yes, i feel you, as I am an introvert person as well. I also don't like talking to people and so most of the time I literally stay in one corner alone. But that doesn't mean I'm lonely, I just like privacy and silence.☺️.