June 07, 2017
I love how he can still make me feel butterfly in my stomach even just looking at me. I am so inlove with this man that I'm gonna die if someone steals him from me. Just looking at him walking closer to me is enough for me feel giddy. He's the best man in my life and it will be until I get old, until eternity.
I feel inlove with him the moment he come out from the door of our office. He's tall, oozing with sex appeal, hot and gorgeous. He's the epitomy of perfection. And from that moment on, I promise to myself that he will be mine no matter what. I'm like a mad woman asking about him in our company. And the he kearn about it and that's where our story started.
He confront me while glaring at me like I'm some kind of criminal. But even if there is annoyance in her face, he still look handsome for me. That's how crazy I am to him. He's, he's the loveliest. And even if I promise to myself that he will be mine, I can't believe that I can actually do it. He become my man and that's how our story started.
June 07, 2019
I'm looking at him again, this time he's in front of me and he's the one who's waiting for me. He's on the altar while I'm walking down the aisle. He's smiling and he's looking at me with the same intense of love just like when I look at him with the same love. I look at him dearly and I made sure that he read what's my eyes want to say.
"I love You, I love You So Much!"
He smile widely and mouthed his "I love You too" to me. This is the best day ever. Even if someday I get Alzheimers, I will still remember this moment where we give our heart to each other. Not just the love, but our loyalty, faithfulness, trust and the promise that we will stay in each other's arms until death part us.
January 16, 2020
I moved into his apartment and we live their together. I become a loving and a very attentive wife to his husband, I resign to my Work and become a full time Wife and I think he loved it. You see, it's my dream to be a full time wife taking care of the house hold and will wait for her husband arrival. It's the best feeling knowing that I am now a Wife and I have my husband.
We make love if there's a time because we really want to have a kid. But luck is not on our side because it's been 3 months already but there is still no sign of a baby. We thought there is something wrong with me or him that's why we decided to check ourselves on the hospital. And that's where I receive the bad news that I can't still accept until now. It's so unfair and it's heartbreaking.
I'm barren, I'm sterile. In short I can't give him a child. I was loss of words and I don't really know what to feel. I feel like someone shot me in my head and now my brain isn't functioning. My dreams of a family is now, broke. I don't know what to do anymore. I know that my husband is also brokenhearted with the bad news but what can we do? We can't really do anything here.
We continue our life even after we receive the bad news. We still hope in some miracles. We didn't give up and ask for a second and third opinion but just like in the first test, positive I can't bore a Child. I'm useless as a human ir as a woman. What's my role here if I can't be a mother? I want a child, I want complete family and we can't call it complete and if there's no child.
I don't know what happened but maybe it's because I become depressed and too focused with my problem that I didn't notice that my husband is now far from me. He become cold, he become different. Gone the loving husband that I love. I asked him if he's being like this because I can't give him a child but he just snap at me and push me away.
Our relationship instead of going strong because we have a big problem that we're facing, become dull. I love him but seems like understanding is not included in this relationship. We promise to each other but, I don't know maybe he forget it all because I can't give him a child. It's also hard for me but why instead of comforting me, he is being a pain in the neck.
Our relationship become more and more toxic. No matter how hard I tried to save our relationship if the other one doesn't want to, there's nothing to save anymore. But I love him so much that even if I want to get mad at him I still give understanding to him because he also want a child, but that's what I can't give to him now.
Then one time he get home very late and reek of alcohol. I immediately attend to him only find something in his clothes. In the collar of his Polo, I saw a mark of a lips of a woman a red one, I don't know what to feel that time. A lot of thoughts was running on my head and I feel like I'll explode with anger and jealousy. It hurts so much that I want to leave him in that state.
But then again, I thought so hard and I just give reason to my head and just clean him. I love him and I won't jump into conclusion, we can just talk this out tomorrow and everything will be clear. But that never happen. Instead, he get home very late since that day. He will go to bed with the smell of perfumes and I can't do nothing but to cry. "What happened to us? Why is this happening to me!"
January 1, 2021.
New Year, I'm alone in our apartment. He's gone, or should I say nowhere to be found. He didn't even tell me that he has to attend somewhere. New Year and I'm all alone here. How can I make this painful feeling disappear? I'm celebrating alone, and with the candlelight dinner I prepared, I will all of this, alone.
I decided to go outside the apartment to breath some fresh air and also to think again. I know to myself that I'm about to give up na. But my heart is still hodling. Maybe we make things work out again, maybe we can still save this, maybe.....
What I saw outside is a horrifying scene for me. I just wish that someone stab me that to see those dirty people. My husband, my! As in MINE, my own husband is hugging someone while kissing her on the forehead. But what's caught my attentions more is the womb of that woman. She is very much pregnant as in. And that makes more feel bad. I want to die in that moment.
I don't know if luck is on my side that time, but while I'm still dumbfounded and can't still move to where I'm standing, I heard a loud horn of a car while a lot of people is screaming something. I'm looking at my husband with his woman, tears all over my face. And that's when I feel something on my body, pain cross my face with the impact of that hard thing, and everything went dark and I lost my consciousness.
June 07, 2021
I'm finally free with my husband. We decided to end our relationship for his happiness. I set him free, I know that she can make him happy and I can't, and I just wish for their happiness. Two years of being in a relationship, two years of being married and now it ends here. I wish you a good life Dane.
A 26 year old woman was found dead in her apartment. There is no official report of the examination of the body but they have the suspect that it was a suicide base on the bottle of drugs that they found beside woman's body. They will release an official statement after the examination is done.
Wahhhh, I don't know if this one makes any sense anymore. I don't know, seriously. But I hope you still read it ARIGATHANKS.
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