Frome Extra Small to Small and now, in Medium.
I can't stop myself from becoming more conscious on my body size. I know, yeah I know, working out is the key but I need to fix my laziness first when it comes to that kind of routine.
Anyways, as I was saying - I am now more conscious on my body size because the Medium size of Tshirt before is really big for me but, I have no problem with that because that is what I prefer. Loose shirt that I feel more comfortable. I hate wearing fitted blouse because I always feel suffocated on that one. So, I really chose t-shirt, I mean big t-shirt where I can breath comfortably.
College days, most of my shirt is blue corner brand and the size is extra small. To be honest, it is already big to me that time because I have a really flat stomach likr as in, huehue - oh how I missed you my flat stomach. Now I only have fat chest - ehermmm. Nevermind that.
2 years after I graduate and after the nasal polyp in my nose was removed, that is also the time that little by little, I gained a weight. I'm all okay with that. That's my long wish anyway. I'm so fed up with those people always saying "Why you are sk payat Ruffa." Like hello, as if I want this too. If only they knew kung gaano ako kasiba sa pagkain, pweee.
I got tired with their words so I really wanted to gain weight. I still ate same food I ate before, same food, same amount likes I ate 5 times a day ahahaha, of course we need snacks, lol. And it's also my way of gaining weight.
And it happens. Little by little. And I am glad with it. But that happiness is only 40% because I noticed that it is my face that is gaining so much fats, instead of my butt and legs. I mean, why face? It should be thr lower part right? Or maybe the other part on thr lower part is already fat that is why, hmmm. HAHAHA.
But well, why even ask paba. It's partly my fault. Because my routine is really bad. Imagine sitting all day after eating? I gained fats in my stomach and little bit fats on my butt, haha. Like seriously! Tch. Please slap my face so I will be motivated to work out hurhue.
So, it happens, I gain weight with the extra on my face. I changed my wardrobe then. From extra small to medium. I am still happy even after I gained so much fat in my face. Gone the hugis bigas na mukha. It was replaced with mala pandecoco, monay and siopao size of a face. The hell ಥ‿ಥ! Hyehye.
Actually, medium looks big pa rin to my body but - it become more fitter when I lived in Batangas for months. That ks where my late sister is residing together with brotha and her partner. They are also a foodie so, ME who's very much in love with food also like it. I ate more when I am living in batangas and I started to gain more weight.
Then just year ago when I changed my wardrobe and buy shirt in medium. And not just medium because I also buy shirt in Large. And that large shirt is really big to me, hahahaha and me likey. But the medium t-shirt I have right now is so, just little by litte becoming more fit to me. As in I am gaining weight again yes. Should I be happy with that?
Now I am curious of my weight right now. The last time I check is when I had my Vaxx and I weight 47kg. If I may guess it right now I think I am 55kg now, hahahaha. Ahhh, with a lot of sweets that I consumed, I think my guess is right.
Nahh, I am not happy anymore. I need to go on a diet. Oh heaven help me. No snacks na muna on the coming days. But, little by little ko din aalisin ahaha. Oops.
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October 30, 2022
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Kelan man ay di ako tumaba. Pareho din tayo na laging pinagsasabihan na bat di raw ako tumataba na parang gusto naten... Haizt.