A Serious Talk with Mom with Fun Time

The other day we were left alone in the house again because Mommy D had to go to her house. It's a bad timing because I just finish my laundry that time and she did that. I mean why not go there in afternoon kasi. She stay there for 1 day and 1 night. She will be home the next day and even if I want to be happy coz that's my goal everyday - to be happy everyday - I just can't be happy because I have to face a lot of people again. I even got annoyed to one of Mommy D's costumer coz he is so slow and I hate it. I am also busy, Mommy F that time is on the shower room so I am alone sa store.

I feel irritated because of his slow pace on getting the payment and the cigarettes that I am handing to him. So what I did is I show him that I am really annoyed with his action and even give him a sharp look. If gaze can kill for sure that man already drop dead on the ground with the way I look at him. I hate it. I hate that he is making me wait for his payment. I mean Why he didn't get the payment first before he ask for cigarettes right? Now that I remember it, its making my blood boil again in anger. I also heard him say "Ang gigil ay!" that time.

Sheesh! I don't know why I really got annoyed when someone disturbed me. I can't stop myself from getting angry, lol. Anyways, so that day that Mommy D while on the store, Mom and Me are talking and then she saw those People maybe they are intern that is taking Criminology. She said they really have a great uniform and she think it fit to me. So I told her that time "Ah, I think they are intern." And I told her that day that criminology is mu first choice to take in college. And yep she heard it for the first time. It's not like I am keeping it. It's just that I have no chance to tell her.

So anyways, when I told her that she said you can still take it and wear that uniform also. I finish college so I can just take an exam or whatever, I'm not really sure what she is saying. But if I take the exam and nailed it I can wear that uniform and be one of them but only in the office. Is it true? But I answer her with this "But I want to hodl and gun po." Hahahaha she just laugh and said "Bwisit ka." And I laugh to while giving her an answer that I really really want to hold a gun. But she said I can still own a gun naman daw even if I am assigned in the office. Hahahaha

I am just laughing at it by I can already picture myself in it. If only I still can. I will take the training and enjoy it but I don't think I can do it, lol. But whatever it ks a wishful thinking. I hope in my next life I can finally be what I want. Thinking about it, it will surely be a hell of adventure. But thr question is, is there really a next life? Okay aside from this we also talk about something else. I am not sure though what leads to that topic. We just talk about it. What I remember is I am saying to my Mommy that I don't want a kid. I hate their cry ang giving birth is painful.

And she just answer, "How about you when you get old? You don't have anyone beside you if ever." I didn't answer but in my head I am okay just living alone. And she also added to what she said I should gave birth nalang daw, hahaha. Pinupush na ako ng Mommy ahahaha. But how I don't even have a boyfriend haha and right now having a relationship is the least priorities now. Nahh, I'm okay with crushed but real-ationship? Nevermind. I don't want to experience any heartbreak now in my busy but happy life. It's not like a man is the only thing in the world that can make a woman happy.

Coz right now? What's making me happy is MONEY! Though I have crushed mas matimbang pa rin ang kwarta kesa sa kanila, BWAJAHAHA!!

So that's just a little talk with my Mom. We had a good laugh too in that talking

August 21, 2022

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