Dear Mum,

This is my first letter to you ever since you passed away and I am sorry. I know I have written one to dad before now and it was a long time ago too. I wrote one to him yesterday as well and I told him not to show you, so if you mistakenly bump into it, forgive him, he just didn't want to get you all sad and worked up. It's not like you didn't notice those things in 3 years after his passing before you joined him anyway...

You are with your husband now, so I believe you should be happy. Don't feel bad because you left us, I totally understand why your heart couldn't take it anymore and why you had to leave. You were always thinking too much and I am sorry I wasn't always there and it's because I was young and naive... I just didn't understand.

Yes, I know I was closer to dad but when he passed away, I tried to get more closer with you and I enjoyed those three years of bonding again without interference from dad hahahaha. I know you wanted to give more but I know your heart was aching at his demise which was evident when I came home to the news of his death and how you screamed my name telling me "See what your dad did, Wale, he left me". I was broken into two in that very minute. The hair on my head, I could have sworn that they stood, each standing on its own like I was on a spike.

I want you to know you are the best mother anyone could have wished for because your heart was pure love and genuine. You never joked with your kids even to the extent that you would sell some of your old stuff just to get us food because, at some point, nothing was coming in as we were all still trying to finish school and for others, trying to get a job.

Your energy was unmatched and I wonder if you ever get tired as you would go into my room and bring out my clothes to wash. You know I might complain so you sometimes do that when I am not home. You are the best, mum and it is hard not having you around to share in the good moments because you deserved being in these moments.

I knew how you would have been here to help out with my baby or that of my brother's. You would have made it so effortless that we wouldn't even feel anything because we would know she is in good hands with you. I know how you would have cherished my baby or that of my brother because we are all boys and you missed having a baby girl around ever since our only sister passed away.

You were strong and I didn't know how you survived that moment when your daughter passed away. I only got a sneak peek when I also lost my baby at birth. You lost a full-grown daughter at 14 years of age and mine wasn't even 14 hours old yet I was broken and lashed out. I can only imagine how devastated you must have felt that time. I am sorry I didn't focus on how you must have been hurting too. If only you were around, I would have asked you to come and stay with us for a long while to console your daughter in law while I run into your warm embrace and your words of assurance too.

I didn't want you to leave but I am glad you left on a high note because your last words to me still ring in my head. I was about to take the fellowship and you told me how proud you were of me because everyone loves it when I teach. You told me how it made you proud and you came outside, listened to my teaching because you couldn't come downstairs. I saw you up there, listening and the moment I finished, you went inside and I was racing to come and accuse you of not coming downstairs before I saw you gasping for your life. Even when it was not convenient for you, you stayed till I finished before you passed on to glory. If that is not selflessness, then I don't know what else that could have been.

I miss you mum and there is no Mother's Day that I don't remember you or write s heartfelt poem for you even though I should have sent them in form of a letter to you. If I could, I would just hug you right now and feel your cheeks and whisper into your ears how you were the best mum ever.

I picked your heart of learning and I can remember when you joined the Choir in Church at that age of yours and I laughed at you. You were undeterred because you wanted to do that for God. Even when I was absolutely livid that you were punished for going late to rehearsals you didn't see much to it because you were a student at heart. Nothing stood in the way of your service to God.

Oh... I am sorry for the times I lied to you that some of the girls that visited me were my schoolmates that got stranded and needed a place to sleep overnight. I know you knew but you just laughed it off inside because how come it is only me and always my classmates getting stranded that would make them want to come to my place to sleepover? You would even make the bed in the extra room for them and I am sorry I always sneak into that room when you've gone to bed 🙈.

I just want you to know I saw all that you did and I love you. I decided to make you laugh because I know how emotional you must have been reading this and I don't want it to be all about tears. Okay, don't show dad this letter too because you would have some explanations to do as to why you allow those girls to come for a sleepover at different times for the same reasons.

I Love you, mama and that would never change.

Your sweet and loving son,

Olawale.

Thank you for your time.

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