I already rant this at telegram because I really have a bad day due of what happened and all I want is to chill my mood. But the thing is, due of my bad day, I also forgot the plastic strainer of my partner where I put it into a pan where I am boiling some two eggs and the side of it are already melting when I remember it.

So earlier today, I received a chat from my parents asking about what am I posting at facebook, I'm shock since I know I'm just sharing a meme regarding the things at whatever I can see there. He said that my auntie tell them that I am posting anything and I said that,"I'm just sharing, what's wrong with it?."

My monthly period is right here and I'm mot doing better since I felt like my body were all tired, and I have this issue where everytime I have a monthly period, my lower abdomen to the right side were hurting bad so I'm just laying for a whole day and taking a rest. But since my partner were not here, I don't have a choice but to move myself. Is it hurt? Yes it was. But I left no choice since I need to endure this. My obgyne said, my body are still adjusting since I have one ovary left to me and it was the one who's cacthing everything.

So when I was sleeping again, I receive a phone call from my parent where they used the telephone to call me, my dad scolding me asking about the attitude the I have.

Imagine, I was distracted by my sleeping due of their and got scolded by my parents, who else will not going to cry because of that upsetting event right? I suddenly feel that my tears will going to fall down and I start wiping them while holding my breath and listening to my father's cursed words.

I can't imagine myself suffering from the same thing that I suffered before, I get too emotional all of sudden maybe it's because of my period or maybe I my sleep was just disrupted or maybe...I just got hurt when I here my father shouted.

I even here when my mother said, "Breathe hon, let's her speak." And my father answered her, "Kaya nasasanay anak mo kasi kinokonsenti mo!.", he also shouted to my mother. I was too stunned to speak, my body were trembling bad and it's so hard to breathe earlier due of nervousness that I feel.

When my mother was turn to speak, when I hear her saying, "Hello?.", I just ended up the call without any words because I was trembling bad and I can't control what I feel. ftee I ended up the call, that's where I breath all my way in and ended up losing my consciousness because of being too nervous. I'm glad because I was laying down when that thing happened, I really feel how heavy my head was and how blurred my surroundings is.

And I start asking myself if I do something wrong, or if I even deserve this? My anxiety was kinda triggered because of what happened. I was wondering and left speechless about everything. It was already a months since the last day that I feel this, it's been a months already since I last trembled like this. They always like that, acting up like they asked me first but they didn't, they will act up according to what they think and what they know that it's correct for them. I'm so enough for this, I can't believe this anymore.

I'm already here at Baguio, but why? Why they are still trying to destroy and to put me down? They're my parents and supposed to be they are listened about what I'm saying, right? They supposed to be listening to what I'm talking about. But no, they are acting according to their will. For them, I'm just a useless daughter that was raised by my own parents.

I know this one is not correct way of thinking, I'm sorry. I may just be upset because of what happened.

Final Thoughts

I'm sorry about this rant, it was just hard for me to think that he's my father, but he didn't listen to me first before saying random words. It's broke me.