It's been a while since I lost my motivation because of being busy especially in life. I'm back on track sometimes and there are a lot of times where I really lose my motivation why I need to keep writing, writing is my passion eversince I was a kid. It became a diary of mine where I love putting what my emotions are, but lately, it's all gone. I came back to the point that I will keep asking myself why should I need to feel this way, I mean why? This is my escape, but maybe I'm just tired since there are a lot of things happening.

Repeatedly asking myself that I shouldn't be like this, that I need to maintain everything because I am the only one they expect. I am disappointed I'm trying to compare everything from then until now and I figured out that I've changed so much. Like before even if I'm tired, I'm so determined to make an article and not to mention it's not like now.

I'm trying to get back on track yet I'm still losing it, sobrang disappointed nararamdaman ko sa sarili ko because I can't even write 500 word a day. Do you know the feeling of having a hard time to endure everything? I mean, sobrang hirap saakin asikasuhin ng lahat. I know na I can't keep comparing myself sa noon since I am the only one who's doing my job and not them, pero why? Why I'm not motivated? Where is the old me go na? By the way, I was hoping na I will be back on track even if kahit di ngayon. Pero I want talaga soon na, it's very hard if you lose your motivation kahit saan eh.

Sometimes naaasar ako since i want to publish or write an article pero what happened is since I'm tired, I ended up sleeping. Dati naman, I'm not like this, nakakapagpublish pa nga ako ng article even if I'm tired. Siguro, i just need a little time to adjust even more.

What I Realized?

I realized na naging mas malungkot ako kumpara sa noon, I am repeatedly asking myself when and why I became like this. I'm not lazy o ano, It's just na I lost my motivation for some unknown reason and that's what makes me feel bad and sad. Lagi ko sinasabi sa self ko na, writing is my escape so dapat di ako maging ganito. Sabi ko rin, at this case I need to rest for awhile until my motivation came back. pero I can't rest nalang talaga for a while kasi masasanay ako sa part na walang ginagawa. There re times where gusto ko mag breakdown while asking myself why am i like this eh.

But yeah, since I need to be active again, I will try mybest harder than before. And I hope, this motivation of mine came back.

Reasons to feel happy..

• Life is too short. Maybe right now we are still breathing, we are still laughing, we are still okay..we are not happy all the time naman. There are moments where we feel so down to the point na we are asking ourselves why we feel this way di ba? So we must be happy kasi we still live in this word na minsan halos puro headches na ibinibigay. But guess, I'm also asking for a reasons to feel happy. but nvm haha this is just a small update about me though.

Thank you for reading!