Should I stop using Google?

Hello, everyone! Sorry if I'll just drop by and publish my article. Currently, I am not in the right frame of mind and I don't know why I am like this. I create my own problem and dwell with it like crazy. I guess it's normal for a first-time mom to get crazy when she sees something unusual from her baby. Oh dear, I am tired of being too paranoid. I am too scared to google anything I want to know about my baby for I am not sure if I get the right response. Actually, I asked this already to two pediatricians I met but I don't know why I am not yet over with this and give my mind peace. This is what I get from over thinking and Googling. Should I stop using Google?

As a first time mom, I thought my baby's body build up is just normal. I have no worries when it comes to her body like the shape because I thought that's what all the babies look like but not until my baby reached 3 months. I thought what I saw would just go away I mean it would be form just like the normal ones. Oh, sorry. You might be confused what I am talking about here for I am saying much about it without directly stating what is it. Lol. I am still worried and kinda feeling nervous.

I'm talking about Clea's chest. The center of her chest is kinda sunken and I thought of it as abnormal. I checked on other babies here and most of them don't have sunken chest. I asked my friends if they knew a baby who has this and if that baby is fine. My neighbor said his brother has a sunken chest too when he was a baby and he's fine today and already a high school kid. I felt relief after he said that that's why I didn't mind Clea's sunken chest anymore.

I also asked two pediatricians about this and they asked me if this just suddenly occured or if this is inborn. I told them that Clea's chest looks like that when she's born and they told me that's normal for babies' chest forms sometimes differ. There are babies who have sunken chest and others have bulging ones.

Am I crazy if I told you my worries are not totally gone after hearing those? Well, I think I am but days after that, I already made it clear to myself that I should trust my baby's pedia.

However, my boyfriend's mom and dad came over here tonight and they told him why Clea's chest is sunken and they just notice it today. My boyfriend told them that we already asked Clea's pedia about it and she told us that it's normal.

My goodness! All my worries came back after hearing them. I don't know but my mother's instinct let me search about sunken chest on google. I found answers that made me worry even more that I can't go back go sleep. I don't want to sleep because I want to observe my baby.

I searched at Nemours Children's Health and I found out that this is called Chest Wall Disorder: Pectus Excavatum. It says that is a condition in which the breastbone (sternum) and several ribs are caved in. This happens because these ribs and the breastbone grow abnormally in an inward direction.

I looked at the photo and I realized that it kinda looks like my baby's chest. I read more about it and found out that this can affect my baby's breathing for the organs behind the chest might be contracted.

I checked on my baby's breathing bmand fortunately I didn't notice any difficulty in breathing or else I will really rush her to the hospital no matter what the time is. Dear, Lord, I pray that what I am seeing on Google ain't my baby's condition. I can't take it if my baby will undergo a surgery if ever. What she's been through when she's a newborn was enough.

I felt so sorry because I know I am the one to be blamed because I was the one who carried her nine months. Up

I should have slept early before.

I should have went home and be with my own family so I won't have the stress I had in my boyfriend's place.

I should have taken vitamins my Ob-gyne told me.

I should have eaten nutritious food.

I should have taken care of myself for my well-being is my baby's well-being too.

I should have had a healthy pregnancy.

I don't want to overthink again but I can't help it. My baby's health is what I am mainly concern of that I am willing to give my life to her.

I am not sure when can this worries go away but maybe when we see my baby's pedia again next month. I will tell her that this keeps on worrying me so she'll tell me comforting words again and give me assurance that Clea is fine.

To continue, I also saw a post from another mom having the same question. She posted it on the Asianparent Community.

Her baby has a sunken chest too and this is what Clea's chest looks like. She asked if this sunken chest is normal for a baby. Majority replied that she should consult a pedia to have a check-up. There were other moms who said that it's normal because their babies have sunken chest too and they're all fine and growing.

I somehow felt fine after reading those comments but my worry is still here. I am getting too paranoid. Should I stop using Google?

I want to feel fine and at ease so I can take care of my baby well but these things can't get out of my mind and I just can't let them go without getting answers from it.

Urgggh!

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