She's not over with it
I know that getting pregnant here in the Philippines is a big deal especially if a woman is still young, unmarried and haven't achieved something in life. In my case, I thing I belong to all of that. I belong to the woman who's still young for I got pregnant at 23. I'm not yet married too and haven't achieved something in life other than graduating from College. To be honest, I envy those at my age who accomplished a lot in life. Some are already teaching in public schools or in a university and some even bought cars and anything they want. What about me? I'm just at home. Unemployed. Looking haggard all the time and busy taking care of a baby. But even though my pregnancy is unplanned, this has been the most wonderful thing that ever happened in my life. For sure, I miss my life before but I would never feel sorry nor regret having a baby.
Yesterday, I was bathing Clea when my grandma started talking about the upcoming elections. She told me why I transferred as a voter to my boyfriend's place. I have my reasons why and she already knew it. She told me that she asked help from our mayor just so I can have an item from the Department of Education. I told her I don't like depending my fate to anyone for I believe I would get the item through hard work and ability. I know myself and I also know that it's not yet my time. My cousin even waited for five years before she got a teaching position in public schools and she never complained about it.
Well, I just let my grandma talk what she wanted until she talked about my pregnancy. She told my that I became pregnant too early instead of enjoying my life, working and helping them. She then added that I won't be able to help them anymore because again, I gave birth too early.
I still didn't talk back because I can still control my mouth at that moment but I can feel that my horn is about to come out.
She didn't stop talking after that. She included my friends on the issue saying that they are at fault why I become pregnant. They are the ones who influence me everything and if I didn't meet them, I wouldn't be able to meet my daughter's father too.
My partner heard everything because he was there. I can't stay silent anymore. It doesn't mean that she's my grandma, she's always right. I have respect to her but she crossed the line. Her, talking about my pregnancy like she doesn't want me getting pregnant made me furious that I talked back to her.
I told her that if she's against it, she should not come close to my daughter. I told her that she want me to have a job that quick because all she wants is money and that's one of the factors why she's mad because she thought that I can't help them anymore for I have my own family. I wasn't able to control my mouth during that time. I lost my respect to her. I made it sure that she'll got hurt from everything I said. I even told her that we will be moving out from here so she won't see me and my daughter.
I was not sorry and I won't say sorry. She's my grandma and she's supposed to be at my side. Come on! Clea is turning 6 months and why she complained just yesterday? Lol.
I never stopped talking and she's the one who became silent. I seldom talk back to her but that time, I did that so she can also realized that I am not a perfect granddaughter and so she is not a perfect grandma as well. Moreover, she shouldn't think that she's the one who's always right.
I pray that we can save enough money so I and my family can move to another place which we already planned because I know living together at the same roof with your family when you have your own family will be a conflict.
I am not encouraging anyone to talk back but when you feel like you are the one who's right, then you must speak up but still in a respectful way which I didn't do. Lol.
Now I feel sorry about it.
Still, a happy Wednesday to all of us!
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