Indirect pain

Another day has passed that I was not able to publish an article. I feel so bad about it and I feel like I have been missing a lot already. I feel unworthy of Rusty's upvotes whenever I am inactive and not doing any interaction among other writers. Although I have my goals to publish everyday, I still can't leave other important matters behind especially when it comes to my well-being (health). I need to rest and cope with the days that I have been sleeping so late. As what they said, I need to recharge and replenish everything I loss. We may be okay to lose everything but not the best state of our health. So to everyone here, I wish you are feeling okay and enjoying the best of life and goodness of health. If you feel like you need a rest, then have it. Remember we cannot have another body that can replace the body we use today. I understand we need to work to sustain our family but we need rest too. We deserve that. Money can be found again but the gift of good health is hard to restore.

This morning, I woke up same as usual. My alarm clock woke me up telling me it's time for me to have my walking exercise which I successfully did. On my way, I saw again the puppy who looks like Tiger.

He was just there at the center of the road making him almost got hit by a motorcycle. Luckily, the puppy saw the motorcycle coming that's why it ran and went to side of the road. I called the puppy but he did not came close to me. I can say that he really wanted to come close but he doesn't recognize me yet which made him to not trust. Well, I can't blame animals for there are people who tried to get their trust then hurt them after because they have another motive. You know what I mean. I don't want to mention pitiful situations that dogs or any animal that are slaughtered.

Anyway, so the puppy didn't come close but he's following me along the way. I wanted to pet him but I just let him follow me and realize that I am his friend. Who knows after many times of encounter he will be able to develop trust and eventually play with. Still hopeful though! This is the life of a furmom. Lol.

After that 25-minute walk, I headed back home and rest for a bit. My boyfriend prepared our breakfast so I was just there sitting ugly while scrolling on Facebook. Minutes later, he called me and we ate our breakfast. He finished his meal quicker than me for my eyes were still glued on my phone. He just let me do my thing and went to where his mom and dad are.

I was about to finish my breakfast when I heard my boyfriend's mom yelling. Well, that did not disturb me since I am so used to it. I know moms talk a lot but my boyfriend's mom is just... never mind. I just continued eating until I heard my boyfriend talked back. I don't want to interfere so I just listened. So they were again having a commotion because her mom would always side his brother. My boyfriend used to let her know about how she favors the second son but then she would just talk about something else and would go one issue over the other. It's fine if she talks normally with a calm tone, but no she didn't and I bet she never will for she likes to talk loud that even neighbors can hear.

I have witnessed many times how my boyfriend and her mom argue and I can really say that her mom doesn't know how to consider my boyfriend's feelings. I just stayed silent pretending like I was not affected but I am.

The last thing I heard from her was that she told my boyfriend to move out of their home. And I was like, my goodness! This is not the kind of atmosphere I want to have soon. I don't want to hear anything so I went inside the room and got myself busy with Facebook.

After a minute, my boyfriend went inside the room too and watched videos from his phone. I was not able to see his face as he went inside so I got no idea why he suddenly grabbed the blanket and covered his face. I thought he's about to sleep but he did not. He cried. His shoulders were going up and down and it's the evidence that he's crying hard. Men seldom cry right? And they don't want to show it to anyone if they do. I feel hurt too as I tried to comfort him. I did not asked what's the reason because I already know. He's been keeping all the hurt inside from the numerous argument with his mom. I just let him be and tried to console him by tapping his back.

I almost cried too lol. I felt the pain indirectly as I hold his hand. From that moment, I realized that I truly love him because I don't want see him again crying. I seldom saw men crying and it's very unusual feeling seeing your man hurt because of his family, of his mom.

This just means that my boyfriend is really open about his feelings to me. He let me see his vulnerable side and I love him more because of that.

This is my first time being overly dramatic over someone. Lol. I don't want to publish this but I can't miss another day again so I'm sorry for being too girly.

Actually, I shared this with you guys to let you know that men get hurt too but they choose not to show it because of the standards we set for them. However, if they are too hurt to bear the emotion, then that's the time they cry. Of course they have feelings, therefore don't call them being gay if you see them at their weakest.

Thank you so much guys for reading! You've been so kind to me since day one.

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