Actually, there's a lot

When I got pregnant, I thought my life will never be the same as it was before. I thought I will be forever crazy, mad, tired, and unhappy momma because I never considered having a child in my 20's. I even planned of having my own family at the age of 30. But God works differently from us. He will give us what we think we don't need but the truth is, He gave us what we actually need. One proof of it is my daughter. If God didn't give Clea to me, I don't think I will be able to appreciate my grandparents' sacrifices.

Because of Clea, I already understood what it takes to be a parent and how hard it is raising a child especially I am not fond of kids before. I did not even took care of my younger siblings when they were still babies. But now, my love for kids has sprouted like a mushroom. I love seeing babies and I found each one of them so cute and adorable like I am so excited for Clea to be able to walk and we would have our first family outing at a beach for her dad likes the three of us to go to the nearest island beach here in our place.

Because of Clea, I learned how to appreciate the value of money. Back then when I was still working, all of my salary goes to nothing for I spent a lot especially in drinks but I also managed to give to my grandparents. I also did not think of saving something for future use that's why when I got pregnant, one of my problem is where can I get fund for the hospital bills and all. Thank God I met read.cash who really helped a lot especially in financial aspect. This goes to show that there's really a solution to everything. All we have to do is ask help from God, take action, work smart and always trust the process for we will make through it. As what they said, problems can't be called problems if they don't have solution.

Because of Clea, my life has been redirected into the right path. Honestly, I did not really cared too much of my future. It's like "come what may" to me. It is what is. Go with the flow. I have no problem what comes tomorrow. In short, I don't have plans or shall I say I am not sure of my life would be. My grandma would always say that I was changed because after my shift from work at 10 P.M., I would go out with friends until morning. During family functions, I would also rather choose to be with my friends than my family. I would come home drunk too. It's like I want fun all the time and just fun. Because of my carelessness, I did not knew I was 2 months pregnant and what scared me knowing it is I drank and partied hard during that two months. I was in the cold streets enjoying and did not care of my health. That's why when I knew I was pregnant, I was guilty, I was overwhelmed, I was afraid but abortion never came into my mind.

Now that Clea is here already, my life has changed a lot. She's also a blessing to me. Though I am not working for almost a year, my pocket never ran out of money and I am still able to buy what I want and what Clea needs. Sometimes, I can also give something to my sisters. Clea never ran out of diapers as well and we are able to buy her milk that she prefers just in case we will go and do some errands.

Actually, there are a lot of things to be grateful for, to be considered as blessing only if we know how to appreciate and to be contented because if we don't, no matter how great and enormous the blessing is, we will never be happy.

Happy Saturday!