Hello everybody!

How are you guys? Are you feeling right now? HEHE welcome to my blog..

Anyways just want to make myself happy so I do express my happiness here.

So last day, I attended a virtual class since I am the leader in our group. As a chosen leader I think I needed to work even though I don't deserve to be a leader, but what can I do if my groupmates choose me? Anyways we are helping hand and so I found it okay and said it Yes!

While attending, our instructor ask me about how was our final project going. And then I received a chat.

Sis? If sir will ask you just answer him that we are still on process and doing great even though we haven't started yet.

A message coming from one of my member. And so thinking of her idea made me do it. I mean it's for the sake of our group and so as a leader I don't want myself to be blame. We also promise that we will work with in this week. So I answered sir a lie. Innocent lie i guess. Ohhhh I remember I read an article recently in titled Innocent Lie. Common we cannot deny the fact that there will be a time that we need to lie to show we're innocent and I think I just did it. Hehe however after that I also feel sad. Sad for myself for not doing the task and then sad that I responded our instructor in a wrong information.

Web-based class is never so easy at all.

From the very beginning of my Journey being a college student, and that is because of this pandemic die to COVID 19. I just noticed that I am now in a second level, it's getting hard. I mean so hard that I don't have friends to share with this activity to ask for help or information or guidance. Do you feel that? You want help but to whom will we ask?

I am now even at my second year but I do still have lacking outputs on !y first year which I really need to submit it before this month end.

My issues

One is that I don't have this good type of phone. When I installed a community app, for online class and for editing my phone will be out of battery very fast and that cause logging and heating the phone.

Second is that I don't have enough money to buy a new one. While scrolling at !y Facebook page, I saw this someone who worked at the cellphone shop and she offer Oppo A94 phone. I ask her to send me information and I found this phone good. Its has 8gb RAM and +128gb ROM. After that wow, I am amazed and I want that foe myself. I want to buy a new phone which can help with my online class and that I could lessen my problem.

So I am now planning to buy that phone. It is said that I can have it in a way that is borrowed and I will pay 1k plus in a 9 months. No interest said the lady.

What I want?

This is what I actually want. A new phone.

It is said for the first payment I need to have 4200 and that is my problem here.

How can I get that money? I mean I have 40$ in my wallet but its not enough i need another 44$ so I could have my first payment.

But how can I get that? I really nee that phone with in this month I have so many lacking outputs. I am now in a stage pf NAHH I WILL JUST STOP MY STUDY but I don't want to waste this year.

But my true spirit won't stop. I will work for it so I could have that amount. I'll tell having no good quality of cellphone is hard, I also badly need a laptop for my research but I don't even have.

All O want for now is to buy a new phone.

I am thinking of, What If I had my parents? Would my personal needs granted? So hard to live with this life. Grandma is too old and she can't work to get some money, she received money from her daughter but that is not even enough for her maintenance. You know living in this life kinda surrender but I know I have God. And I know he will help me in my problem.

How I wish I could have you 😔 I badly needed you and I will work for that. I just hope I can do it and so I could provide myself my own needs.

That will be all guys. How about you what do you want for yourself?

Good evening above here are my beautiful and handsome sponsors!

Rainy night, I wish you all stay safe...

SALAMAT ❤️