Frustrated since yesterday
23rd of February 2022
I'm one frustrated person. I've got frustration written all over me and it has resulted in transfer of aggression since yesterday. Small talks don't interest me, funny videos are no longer funny and life altogether have become tiring. I went through a lot in the past few days, yesterday especially was frustrating. I was basically being thrown around from one office to another while trying to sort out certain issues which I'd rather not talk about.
Altogether I'm frustrated, angry and beginning to get depressed. I didn't feel like talking to anyone and had to contact my best friend WhatsApp since that was the only person I felt like talking to at that point. She had to give me reassuring words while asking me to calm down and try to sleep since I've gone through a lot of stress. I didn't feel like sleeping as I was angry at everything but I had to force that afternoon naps to come through.
I wish she were here, perhaps things would have been easier.
I eventually slept and woke up two hours later with several missed calls on my phone. I normally would have called back but I still wasn't in the mood to talk to anyone.. I forced myself to go back to sleep once more- signs that depression is beginning to set in.
I'm sincerely tired of everything, I wanna run away from everything and wanna be free from all this stress, unfortunately the system is a corrupt one full of incompetent people that wouldn't be willing to take responsibility for their mistskes.
I'm simply forcing myself to write this, after which I'd have to force myself to another round of sleep. I know best friend's call would come in somewhere between forcing myself to sleep and actually sleeping. If she calls I'd have to wake up as that's the only person that is capable of making me calm.
I'd take today off, will try to clear my head, after which I'd see what I can do to make things work tomorrow. I need these things sorted out and these peeps are frustrating me.
It may seem like I'm hiding a lit of things but what I'm working on is very complicated and I hope it works out. I'd be glad and confident to tall about it openly as soon as it works out. I've got faith that everything will be okay. But for now I'm one frustrated person.
At this point I guess I'd have to call someone superior to put them to order so they can do what I want. Sometimes examples need to be at and this example is what I will show them. Not everyone can be messed with, especially not Kristoffer. I'm frustrated but I'm willing to fight back until everything works well. After which I may have to sue!
It's totally normal and okay to feel this way. I just really hope you're able to sort everything out soon. Unfortunately, no matter how we try to ignore certain things.. at the end of the day, we still come back to face them. Sad reality. But hey, all of us here hope you feel better soon. I'm glad you have someone who can at least make you feel better.. we all need that one reliable person in our lives.
Take care of yourself Kristoff. Sending you hugs. 🫂