I paint this letter out of love for myself, no rose-colored glasses just the truth..we are designed to work our path into the main objectives forgetting what it's like constantly changing the patterns from the break ends..so I gotta paint you just the way I see you, it's going to hurt but you deserve to know this.
You don't always have a mission and a plan, you always give way to the fright. I have studied you for quite sometime now, you seem to be at war with yourself all the time....
You lay on the bed half dressed completely clueless with tears and shame complaining of how you always want to give up, trapped in the realms of negativity but you dont look back and realize the grip. I try to rescue you but you choose not to grab my hands so crazy.
I don't know if you understand it because I can't speak for you though but you derive pain in everything instead of joy, it breaks my heart to see you so confused...you say it's only by God's grace but I look into your past you deny him a lot, you don't fight for your freedom nor for your yourself.
Known you for 23 years I can still see cracks in you, you don't believe in your dreams, you lie about been productive but I ask you questions you'd always look like you're still floating at the surface. From one place of trouble to another, you never listen, why? Why does it feel so hard to change you? Why does it feel so hard for you to just listen?".
This is the time to be in charge, and face the strive laying right there behind you pulling you forth.... whatsoever force it has on you, it's time to break it. If you don't break it I'll still be there with you cuz I can't do anything without you doing something.
I don't know if you understand me you have to search underneath the darkest places, do not let the devil direct you instead of your maker.. you can be that outspoken person, you can be different, you can be your best but if the Lord finds you always in your mess then he will realize that you don't need him.
Why do you allow worrying stay rent free in your heart? Right now you always don't see reasons to be grateful, you just stay right there without doing anything is that the right thing to do?...Yes Gozie I'm out for you today, you don't build your knowledge, you don't learn new things, you don't follow the trend. How will you be free in this mess?.
I notice you keep grudges this days, "don't you think it's time to come off it?"...of what good is it to you that you'd not love the people closest to you?"...indeed you deserve to be flogged. I know you always try to be at peace but equally do that to everyone around you.
Let me come to the sweet part, who do you love sef? Who is this girl you refuse to show me all these year's...you can't even trust me to tell me secrets. That's by the way, all I could see when I stormed your apartment was you crying over a break up, how many girls will break your heart before the year runs out this boy? My advice to you is protect yourself oo, but this should be a lesson to you draw nearer to God. Make him your best friend and leave these life you're living don't say I did not warn you.
I will also commend you on being amongst the top 50.tippers on ReadCash congratulations, if that is the word.
It is the best thing you've done so far that I can say a big weldone to. Helping a community develop and grow is what you should do always, show love by giving there is a great reward that awaits you...i want you to show your friends this letter too so they can know this secret.
Come to think of it do you always lye in these your articles? Are you always writing this yourself....cuz secretly behind you I use to learn one or two things from them...been your number 1 subscriber since you joined, my only advice to you is to never give up...you complained when you didn't get visited from rusty now you complain of receiving lower tips, why? Be contented with what you get and very soon you'll get there.
To round this up I want you to stop being a coward, be ready to fight and March forward because Christ is here and and has found you in your mess, you've got to find a reason to be thankful.
This letter is for two sets of people for the ones who knows Christ cares and for the ones still not realising he does. Don't wallow in thinking but cast your burden on him and he will be there to see you through. God bless you.
So this is where this ends.
I never knew i got this badge behind my name, completely shocked and stoned.
Thank you for your time
The clock is a snitch my friend
Bye for now.
|02 August 2021|
I felt like you were talking to me in some parts of that letter. I believe we can all relate to that :)