My Greatest Fears

Date: October 10, 2021

Hello everyone!. I am not able to publish an article yesterday because we have to attend on my nephew's Christening. My husband was one of the Godfather, hence we needed to be there and witness my nephew's moment to officially join the Christian world. He is my cousin's first born.

The ceremony is very quick and simple. Only few guests are invited due to pandemic.

I am so amazed because the Pastor who did the dedication is actually a Muslim. You heard it right! Despite the fact that he already turned himself to the Christian world and is currently sharing the word of God, he still embraces the fact that he's still a Muslim by heart.

How did I came up with my topic "My Greatest Fears"?

We arrived at home last night at around 10:30 PM. My youngest son fell asleep while we're on our way home from my cousin's house. So as soon as we have arrived, my husband immediately fixed our bedroom before he let us alight the car.

I don't have plans to sleep yet cause I actually planned to clean the house and fix our things first before going to sleep but unexpectedly, while I am waiting my son to fall asleep again after I lay him down in bed, I also fell asleep :)..It's already 12 midnight when I woke up.

I went downstairs to execute my initial plan and I am surprised cause I saw my daughter still watching television in our living room while his father (my husband) is sound asleep already in the sofa. I asked my daughter to go to sleep and start cleaning the kitchen.

As soon as I am done with the cleaning, I felt like I wanted to sip a cup of coffee. I felt a bit hungry but I don't wanna eat really cause I am planning to go to bed after finishing my cup of coffee.

I went upstairs at around 2AM, to supposedly sleep but I felt discomfort with my tummy. So I went to the washroom but then my youngest son suddenly woke up. So I woke up my husband and asked him to accompany our youngest son in our bedroom as he's really afraid of being alone in a room.

And that's how I came up with my topic "My Greatest Fears"

I strongly believe that every person has their greatest fear in life regardless of the age. Children and even grown-ups have their greatest fears in life.

Even the strongest person on earth have fears in his/her life.

Even the braver person has still some fear deep within their heart.

There are lots of fear a single person could have. Fear of failing, fear of being betrayed, fear of dogs, fear of cats, fear of snakes, fear of water, and so on. But amongst these different fears an individual can have, there's always one or two that's predominant of them all.

Let me site share of my greatest fear with you.

Afraid of travelling over the Sea

Some of you might already aware that I am from the province of Oriental Mindoro.

The only way to go from and to there is via sea.

We have to ride sea vessels. There are actually different types of sea vessels available at the port of Batangas and port of Calapan (the capital of Oriental Mindoro). There's what we call as RORO. In my knowledge, RORO stands for "Roll on", "Roll off" .

Here is how RORO is being defined in https://www.merriam-webster.com

It takes around 2.5 hrs for a RORO to travel afrom Batangas port to Calapan port and vice versa.

We also have a what we are so called as Fast Crafts. These are significantly small as compared to the RORO. It's sea travel time is 45 minutes from Batangas port to Calapan port and vice versa.

Every time we ride a ferry, my fear is always there. Not for myself but mostly for my kids actually.

I am not a swimmer, I mean I do not know how to swim at all. And that fear I mentioned is actually coming from the fact that anything can happen while we're in the middle of the BIG BLUE sea.

So how do I overcome that fear of travelling over the sea?

Upon entering any sea vessel, I do always make sure to have a presence of mind. I will look on where the life jacket's cabinets are and will do a silent plan in my head on what shall I do in case an emergency has happened.

For Fast crafts, life jackets are usually located below each seats while for a big sea vessels like a RORO, there's a cabinet usually positioned at the middle part of the ship that contains the life jackets.

Fear of travelling over the air

My husband once asked me. "Do you want to travel to other countries someday? "

Guess what my answer is?

"As long as I won't ride an airplane, why not!."

Then he asked me why. My answer is simple:

"I would rather travel over the sea than over the air cause when an accident happens and the airplane went down, there a very little to no possibility that you will survive in that crash. Unlike if over the sea and an accident happened, there is a higher possibility of survival as long as you have life jackets or life boats in there."

Fear of the dark

I've been mentioning about this in my previous interactions with other friends in here that I am really afraid of the dark. Yes, I am a loner person but I don't want to be alone in a dark, and I think it has connection with my next fear.

Fear of death

I am afraid of death. Specially now that my kids are still small, this one is actually my greatest fear of all. I don't want to elaborate more on this one because I just don't want the idea of mentioning about death.

I can't even look at the person inside a coffin.

Fear of being the Center of Attention

You heard it right. While others like to be the center of attention always, in my case, it's the opposite. I am afraid to talk in front of the crowd. Maybe I can only do this while my eyes are close. I mean I can only do this if I don't see everyone looking at me.

But I think this fear actually is coming from my fear of being judged and criticized based on how I talk or move or walk hence I don't want anyone to focus on me.

How about you guys?

What's your greatest fear?

Are you like me who are also afraid to travel over the air or sea? Or are you also afraid of the dark?

I'd be happy to read what's your greatest fear list is.

It's already 5:23 AM as of this writing. And I guess it's time for me to end this one now.

Thank you so much for dropping by and spending 5 minutes of your time reading this article of mine.