The night had passed but my mind was wide awake through all the night. I can't help but to worry so much about the things that out of my reach. I am the so called over thinkers most of the time. I worried the things that bothers me, jobs, due bills, health issues, neighbor gossips, unstable financials status, unblessed relationships etcetera.
Though, I'm a hundred and more miles away from my original family, I still keep on worrying and thinking about them, especially to our father who is now on his old age. There are more things that cause me to worry, though it is not necessary anymore. I just can't help it.
When I was in my twenties, life was so easy for me. I am free. There are times when we want to hop into the nearby village but mother won't permit me, I just went out though with out any necessary permission from them. While having our walk through the mountain trail, I can't hide my worries for becoming an disobedient child just to pursue what was planned between me and my friends.
Worrying is sometimes constant to me, how couldn't I? Father was almost killed by a politicians goons. My family was a victim of harassment way back then. The trauma was instigated already in my brain and that made me to worry more. Untill then, everything and everybody was slowly coping up to that dilemma of the past. Only I am wishing and praying for now was the safety of all my family.
Being away to your loved ones was truly worrisome scene. I did experienced to worry about something that I don't know, just the thought that something was not right. Immediately my father came to mind. There's something wrong happened to them, it's a guts feeling though. This was happened to me during the day that my family was assaulted inside our home early in the morning.
Did you know the feels of worrying an unknown event? You sense there is something wrong gonna happen, your heart beat was beyond normal in spite of the good weather to where you are in. Though you want to enjoy but you can't because your worried mind occupied your whole being. Foods are tasteless despite the flavours and aroma. I don't know how to react to that event before. My friends tried to comfort me but to no avail. Untill I requested them to come with me and check my family's situation in the nearby village. And then there we found out the devastating events. But my great consolation is my father was able to escaped those devilish people who harassed them. I really thank God to his safety for the meantime.
That's how cruel people are, if they can't get what they want from you, it cause your life. And you know what hurt me the most? Some of our nearest relatives conspired to the devil to take down my father. I mentioned this in one of my previews article #Forgiveness. That is why I said you can forgive but really can't forget.
There are different factors or cause for us to worry too much. It's either because of everyday life problems as I already stated above or some personal and spiritual concerns.
If we are experiencing this state of worried mind, we should always consult everything to God. Leaved our worries to Him and fully trust His judgement. Everything will fall to its right places through the Almighty's help.
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Article # 21
Published: October 21,2021
Time: 12:58 AM Philippines
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Worrying about something always temper wit our health.