Mental Health Webinar | Challenge Accepted

My October so far is smooth sailing, bonus is I got to have a free mental health webinar with my friends in Discord. It was an initiative from the leads of the group to have a webinars like these, which is highly appreciated because prolly most of us ar struggling inside. We just want to keep it to ourselves and just cover a smile daily.

It is a nice gesture of @tpkidkai to invite Ms. Ish, the Wounded Healer to be hosting a webinar. The webinar is all about how can writing help you with your mental state.

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Ms. Ish showed us some of her writings for herself years back. I noticed that the writings were about her sufferings and dark times. She was very nice lady to able to share us those stuff. She also had a padlet for us to write the things we were feeling at the moment. Too bad though that half way the webinar was my dinner time.

My Reflection

People know me to throw jokes here and there, being silly on the server every thime. Little did they know that I have some burdens carrying on my back. I sometimes get sad at night when the silence dropped. These times are when I became vulnerable and think of negatives ideas. One negative idea was that I am not enough for a certain thing. I am giving my best but is not suffice enough.

This is when emptiness crept in too. I do not know how and what to feel. I sometimes force myself to cry or am I just used to the feeling. Parang cycle lang lagi yung araw ko. Hmm, I do not like to go bad in dark times, kasi it was really hard.

One thing that I hate to myself is I always kept the problems to myself. I do not like to share my real problems as I do not like to others to think of it as well. Parang binibigyan ko lang sila ng problema rin.

I do not write emotional stuff on papers but they are just in my mind. Ang masama pa dun is pwede mong balik balikan. I am totally different sa real world that is why probably nalalabas ko yung quirky side ko as anon here in the virtual world.

Yeah, it is still me but I am showing just what I want to share. Probably just a 5th of me. Being an anon din is a freedom for me. I am known kasi as strict and very shy as in shy like I will not make kibo unless you do the first move. Kahit hirap na ako, di pa rin ako mamamansin haha! Ganun ka extreme, besh. But when it comes to professional setting, walang hiya ako HAHA!

I find few with the same place like mine. They are shy too but when it comes in virtual world, they somehow show their true selves. Maybe because people are judgy sa totoong buhay?

Anyways, those are just my two cents reflection. I do wish the topic emptiness was discussed because I was really looking forward to it.

Before the month started, @Eunoia had this one blod per day challenge. I was like, why not? I used to do this everyday. Now I try to blog every other day or two. Okay, so challenge accepted na lang for motivation, HAHA!

So far I am doing good in this challenge. Instead of goofing around discord server, eto na lang magkakapera pa ako haha char.

I am also trying to be healthy now by sleeping early so, no procrastinating for me. I have to put my focus on what should be done for me to sleep soon as I am done.

Lately, I was not feeling good, not that I am sick. I just feel drained physically and mentally. Probably because I stayed up late with my Discord friends talking about what nots. It was really hard to take that away from my system because Marites is life, haha!

But I now see a little bit of improvement since I started sleeping early. By the time 10 PM, I should have finished all the side gigs that I am doing. I should be out of the discord server at this time too. I also encouraged some of my friends to sleep early because it is for their health too.

I honestly have trouble sleeping before so what I do is I take melatonin and put the AC in a little bit lower temperature. Melatonin helps me to sleep faster and longer. It is always effective to me. I recommend this to my friends too!

I will keep this challenge as I am seeing improvements already. Yes to a healthy life!

📸 All photos from Unsplash

Date Published: Oct 3, 2022

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