Reached my 21st birthday filled with lessons.

I can't explain my feelings the other day because I just celebrated my 21st birthday yiee cheers to that one but at the same time the pressure on my shoulder became heavier again due to my age. I know I'm not the only one who feels like their being left by their batch mates who continued their study. I will tackle it some other time and for now let me share to you how we celebrated my debut hehe.

Did I have 21 shots and 21 roses also just like the girls when they have their debut? We didn't execute those things in my debut because I don't need that one hehe. All I need is to be with my family, friends and true people who can I call to when I'm not in a good state. I bet that's what you want too.

Simple celebration is indeed the best thing to have in this times because you can see who truly cares and loves you. Since the cases here in our place increased in a rapid state again, my aunties and uncle didn't have the chance to come. They just called me and greeted me. That's still okay because I don't want to risk their health just to attend my simple celebration.

Being able to reach this chapter of my life is a big thing to me especially to my family because when we are praying after the preparation and before we eat, my mother did the praying and in the middle of her prayer I noticed that her voice was trembling, an indication that she's crying. I'm beside her together with my lola. After she prayed, she went to the bathroom to wipe her tears. I'm affected by that one and tears began to fall also but I'm trying to hold it since I don't want them to see it huhu.

Since my mother came home from abroad, I see her determination to take care of me and make up the times when she's at the other side. We had a fight back then but we are good now so I will never have a fight with my mom again because she's too precious to cry. So guys if ever you have a fight with your mom, don't make it too long before you make up with her because always remember that our mother is only one.

For the past 20 years of my life I've done so many unnecessary things that led me to lose focus to my own goals in life. A lot happened in the past that made me to who I am today. Sometimes before I sleep, I remember those mistakes I did and I'm still regretting about those.

I'm a crybaby when I'm alone. I'm a man but I cry because that's who I am. I'm a human after all with a soft heart. Now that I'm one year older I will still cry if life hit me hard again. Crying will be my medium in bringing out my feelings inside of me.

I've learned a lot of lessons and I will still continue to learn a lot more in the future and I will gladly absorb those lessons. I already applied a lot of them and my life became better again. Sometimes life will teach us a lesson through a painful experiences and you must get a grip of the lesson no matter what. Carve it in your soul and use it as an inspiration to carve your own path again.

In our journey in this life we might get stuck permanently and unable to grow if we let things go in a wrong way. It's not cool so we need to not get stuck and keep moving forward no matter how stiff it is. It doesn't have to be fast, all you need is to keep moving forward with single steps. Later on those single steps will combine and you'll not realize that you are running at full speed especially when you're with God.

The biggest lesson I learned through my past is that always keep those people who truly cares for you because at the end of the day no one will be concern about you but them. Someone may put his or her concern to you but you're not sure if the intention is pure. I failed to do that once in the past that's why I'm not losing them again. I don't want to be separated from them again. I will do everything to keep them no matter what.

Also don't lose trust to our almighty God. He may put a test on your way but at the end of the test you will find the light that will lead you to a better life again. He gave me a pathway again so I will walk on it carefully to avoid any unnecessary mistakes again.

To sum it up, my 21st celebration gone well and let me just share you the foods we prepared hehe. It's all just simple foods but we Ilokanos love these foods because they said that it can prolong your life when you eat those especially pansit. I didn't expect that I have a cake because I have a cough but my parents bought it when they went to town to buy ingredients.

This is my second cake for my entire existence hehe. The last time I had a cake was on my 15th birthday so having one on my 21st is especial. I will still eat even if I have a cough, maybe it will be the medecine for it hahaha. But kidding aside since I ate the cake I got a lot better even my cough. I'm still lucky to have a cake because I know someone out there is longing for it for so long but he or she can't have it.

We ate, talked and laugh the memories we remembered. I wanted to drink atleast the san mig one but it's liquor ban here so yeah haha posponed.

In celebrations I don't want it to be fancy, all I need is to be with those people who truly cares for me and willing to bring out the best out of me. I'm thankful to all of you guys here because being here inspires me even more to reach the stars I've lost.

That's all for this blog and I thank you once again for being with me, reading upto this far. See yah in my next articles friends.

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