The Inner Peace I Needed

I would be lying if I apply all the articles I have published here. As you all know, I mostly publish life lessons and tips on how to handle life in general. However, these tips I give don't apply to me all the time for some reason.

You know in yourself that you want to be happy but something is missing deep inside. It doesn't feel right. You may wanna consider weighing things for a while and find their balance. That way, we'll get the answer that we deserve.

Having said that, I've had difficulties in expressing myself on what I really want in my life. I have to consider a lot of factors and not be too selfish of just thinking about myself too much.

Just recently when I opened up to mom how things are going here. It's a little bit of a struggle but my mind says that it's just a test of character and patience. There are times when I doubt myself and tell maybe I will just stop what I'm doing because everything seems so uncertain.

But these are the notable responses mom gave me:

We are here to support you.

In our family, we are not really vocal about what we feel about each other. We just let each other feel that we care for each other. Growing up, I have noticed that when I realized how I went through in childhood.

This isn't about how strict they were but it came to me how protective and responsible they were as parents. Just when I earned these healthy realizations, I'm thankful for having them.

I told mom that I get discouraged every time something goes out of my way. However, she told me that not everything happens the way you want them to. There are things not meant for you but one thing is for sure, we are here to support you.

Mood swings happen, it's only a state of mind.

There are moments when we wake up on the wrong side of the bed. We feel lazy, we don't feel like doing anything.

Mama told me that these things lurking in your mind, not being in the mood, laziness, procrastination, temptations are all states of mind. These factors are there to distract you and test your decision-making skills.

True enough, we make decisions out of being impulsive, and yet after that incident happens, we regret and we realized we shouldn't have done that. Those actions were irrevocable. Damage has been done.

That is why we need to be cautious and be mindful of the things we say to ourselves or other people as well.

Pray, God listens.

We pray because we want something to happen. We want everything to be in order and should be in a comfortable situation.

However, mama told me that prayer is not just about asking what you want to happen. It is also about asking God to help you teach yourself to adjust to every situation you will go through.

It's unrealistic to feel happy all the time. Sometimes we feel sad and desperate but through prayer, you ask God to help you maintain a positive mindset and have creative solutions.

After the conversation, it got me thinking that I should take a leap of faith or live my life filled with regret.

I can't imagine myself looking back in my life and realizing I should have done this and that. We cannot always say it's never too late, it's a case-to-case basis.

What if someone wanted to become a ballerina but got her feet amputated because of an accident when she got older? It's a matter of taking your chances.

It's my first time having this conversation with mom. Not in person because I still can't manage to open up and be dramatic while talking so I chose to just express my thoughts through chat.

This is definitely the inner peace I needed. For as long as I have their support, it reminds me to keep going. I can't stop myself from crying for happiness and gratefulness. I feel validated and valued.

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Keep safe everyone!