The Reality, I am Nobody

This is my world. Full of darkness. Full of sadness. Full of pains. All people looking down at me. No one treasured me. I always find them but no one appeared. I am in pain. Too much pain. A world with full of struggles. This is the reality and I can't escape it!

"Hello, can I sit there?". someone voice asked.

I looked at the girl and she has a beautiful face. I was shocked. I afraid facing people especially if they are strangers. If I don't know who they are. I was stilled a minutes before I answered to her then I ran after.

"Yes...." I answered then after I ran fastly.

I was really scared talking with other people. I was really afraid. I afraid they were thrown at me again with painful words. I ran as fast as I could. I didn't expect that I met a person on that day. I was full of curiosity. I am the only one who visited on that place always. I never encountered people there. I sit back again to the place where I stayed and overthinking happened.

Two days passed, I went back to the place but only in my mind that I wouldn't encountered a person there. I sit back at the bench where I stayed always. I was looking the surroundings and no one was there then I started thinking a lot of things again. Everyday was a sadness for me. I never felt happy. No one needs me. No one love me in this world.

A few minutes passed, someone approached me again. I was deeply shocked that time.

"Hello, I meet you again." an angelic voice approached me.

But why I felt afraid. It was because she appeared all of a sudden and I didn't know where she came from. I was about to ran again but she said again a words.

"Please don't leave. Please don't be afraid. I just want to be friend to you". she said.

I was really shocked about what I've heard from her. I was stood like a statue. I couldn't believe that there was someone who wanted me to be a friend. I didn't know what I'm going to do after hearing those words. It was like an unreal but I was really confused and it pushed me to stop.

I turned back to her then I decided to sit back at the bench where she at. She started asking me a lot of things. It was the time I started I felt comfortable with her. We met there again on that place many times.

I was really happy because it was my first time that I have a friend in this world. She is so kind. She cared at me. I was really lucky that I met her. She was like an angel to me that save me in this world that full of darkness. She was a hope and strength.

Until one day, I went to the place but I didn't see her. She wasn't there. She didn't appeared. I was really worried where she was. I was really sad and nervous then I left and on the next day I went there but still she didn't appeared again. I lose my hope. I was really in pain. So painful!

After 4 months passed I realized that she wasn't real. All those things happened because of my hallucinations only. It was because of the sadness, painfulness I felt. I started hallucinating a thing. I wake up and I face the reality again. I am nobody!

This is only a fictional story.

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God bless everyone. Stay safe always. 🙏

-JRamona20 💜