Random Things in our Minds!
These past few days, I have a lot of thoughts. A lot of concerns always lingering at my mind. Sometimes it irritates me a lot. I didn't know what I'm gonna do. What would be the first. I lost some focus. I couldn't concentrate. It was really annoying sometimes but it happened. I didn't have a choice but to take some actions with it.
Sometimes I was just out of my mind. I sit on the chair and thinking deeply. I didn't know where I'm going to start. I didn't know what are the best ways for it. I wanted to make it finish but how. My concentration was gone. It wasn't easy. It was really hard. It was always in my head and I wanted to run at far. The freedom we called.
The worries are always staying. So hard. It makes me worried. It makes me scared. It makes me cry. It makes me nervous. It makes me didn't stop. I have always an overthinking. Negativities spread out in a day from myself, from my mind. How long it could be?
I was like a stick. I was like stock in the same place that I don't know where would I go. It was really painful. It was so scary. It makes myself hard. The thoughts that always in my mind. Stayed at me. It was never been gone. They were all stock on me. It was really tiring. Worries down staying at the same setting. I always find ways but it was always the same.
I scared a lot. I wanted someone with me. I wanted to not be worry. I wanted to be brave. I try it but it was useless. Efforts were wasted. I wanted to get out with this kind of place. I felt the darkness was there. I felt there were a lot of burdens. A lot of big stones.
Sometimes I was staring at a one thing, a wall but my mind was in another thing. My mind was on another. Sometimes I have a task but my mind wasn't focus with it. My actions and my mind didn't connect. It wasn't connected. I don't know. I don't understand. I am really stress. A lot of things within me. I am really tired. I don't want this. It disturbed me a lot time to time.
It ruined my mood. It ruined my days. I don't know how I'm going to settle it. I wanted to relax. I wanted to calm my mind. I wanted to be free!
A lot of things flew in my mind. I wanted it, to let me go. Stay away from me. I don't want it. I need a concentration not the one that ruined me.
I know it was really tiring but there it was. In front of me. Inside of my mind. Even I wanted it to stop but it happened again and again. It was the path and I couldn't escape it. It was my life path. I didn't have a choice but to accept it. It was a big challenge on me. A big struggle that would test me.
Sometimes I divert my mind some other things but it couldn't help. Nothing's change and it was the reason that makes me demotivated. The one that makes me tired, full of loneliness. The one that make me tears. Whatever I tried it doesn't work. It was still remain the same.
The silence, the loneliness, the frightens beside at me. Eaten me. Where I could escape? All I want is the right way for this. I just wanted everything to be okay, I just wanted to put it in calmness.
Help me! Help me! I just wanted everything to be settle! No worries! Just doin' okay.
This is only a fictional one.
Thank you so much. I hope I give you some worthy time with this article of mine.
God bless everyone. Stay safe always.🙏