I'm Sorry, I'm Weak

It was a tiring day. I get up. I didn't know what I'm going to do. I sit on the table. I washed my face. I didn't know. I was like a crazy. I couldn't stay longer in a place. I'm just gonna sit there then a few minutes I will transfer to the other seat. Can you feel it also? Did you experience with this kind of scenario?

Can you feel it? Sometimes we felt tired. We felt demotivated. We felt empty. A stressful days. There are a lot of thoughts in our minds. A lot of worries even you will push yourself to be positive but it's still nothing. It's still the same. A random thoughts is in your head. There is something in your heart and mind that you want to know what is it. You didn't understand. You will be still and thinking when will it stop.

Yourself

You're always looking yourself at the mirror. You ask a lot of questions. It bothers you a lot. You smile while facing at the mirror. The whole truth you want a happiness. A real happiness. You want an enjoyment. Lying at bed always. You are always not in the mood.

Pick up your phone and listen the music but still the worries exist in your mind. Help me! I'm tired with this. I want to get out with this situation I have right now.

You didn't notice there will be a tears already from yours. Dropping is a sign of tiredness. The pain you've felt. The sadness you have. It's a heavy burdens. You want to stand up but you're body didn't cooperate due of emotions.

I'm really tired. I'm not happy at all.

You will try to watch your favorite movies to divert your mind into positivity but what happened. After 20 minutes you will stop it because you cannot focus with it even you are reading the subtitle but your mind still thinking the stressful things that makes you worry all the time.

This is not normal! I need somebody to talk. I am really weak. I'm learning to fight the challenges and made my promise to fight it. I got a mistake because everytime a problem exist, I was gotten my fears. It's really make my day full of darkness that you hardly get out. I just want to be happy. I just want to enjoy but why. It's me has a problem. I don't know to deal this.

I want to run to the place where I commit the life I've praying for. I want to skip this place where I stand. It gives me a headache. It gives me sweats due of frightfulness. Sitting in the corner or cover a blanket. I don't want to look around. It makes me cried.

I wish I have a wings so that I can fly where I want. I'm really tired. This situation makes me cried everyday. I want to go back my past or I just want to move forward. I felt like I'm living in a dark place. I felt like I am prison now with this exhausted scenes. I want to shout out loud and asking some help to anybody. I need someone that I can talk to. I need badly need help. I hope there's someone who will understand me.

Even I'm eating, the worries I have still alarming in my mind. Why? I did my best to forget it even in just one day but every hour it's always lingering in my mind. I eat again and again but nothing happens. I'll do an exercise but it's still the same. The worries I have I want to throw it away so that I will not hold it anymore.

Why I am so weak when it comes to this? Why all of the problems I've face always bring me a lot of impacts? Why it affects me a lot? I just want to be somebody. The one who are really strong. The one who don't have fears while facing difficulties in life. I envy them a lot. I wish I want to be like them. I hope I'm brave enough to face the life during down times.

LIFE THOUGHTS:

Life is full of challenges. All of us experience it. Heavy worries today, tomorrow it will be gone but on the next day it will be back. You couldn't predict what will happen. It's part in our life but you should fight it. Don't let it to make you in prison of fears.

No one will help you but it's only yourself even you receive a lot of advices, hopes, and motivations if you didn't use it and apply it to yourself nothing's gonna happen. Help yourself, lift it up! Stand up and fight back those challenges you have in this world!

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Thank you so much. I hope I give you some thoughts with this article of mine.

God bless everyone. Stay safe always.🙏

-JRamona20 💜