"Fri-date cancelled"

Blog#161 February 25,2022 no.25

Last Monday I texted my partner if we can have a road trip this Sunday, as it was move today Friday. As I really felt so stressed being stock at home. Oh noh! Not just actually stressed but bored also,in honestly😅.

When he read my message, he immediately call me in my number. He was surprised with my message because he knew how lazy I am with road trips. He can't believe that I want to go with him😅 as he knows that I hate being away from home. I told him that this time I want to unwind, I want to release some stress, as it's been two years that I'm being stock inside our house.

Honestly I wasn't a person who loves to go outside, but this time I want to go out. Before whenever my partner ask me to go with him for a day trip, I always decline. But sometimes I forcefully go with him as I feel guilty, because if I don't go, he won't also go😅. Actually I never stop him to go with his friends, but he sometimes feel jealous with his friends as every time that they have a day trip, all of his friends has a back rides as their wife/gf is with them. Sometimes he called me KJ(kill joy), as he thought that I let him to feel alone, and because of that sometimes we ended up with argument 😅.

But this past two years, I suddenly felt bored and tired. So I thought to have a day trip and our plan is to leave our son to his mom. Since we we're just riding his motorbike, we cannot bring our son with us. It would be so dangerous to him.

I remember that last week, my mother-in-law told me that today (Friday) she has no work as today is a special holiday, so she'll be staying at home. I told my partner that we can have our day trip today as on Sunday my mother-in-law has something to do, so we cannot leave our son to her.

So yesterday my partner went home early, he was so excited for today as we both thought that we really can have a day trip. He prepared everything and he even checked the gas of his motorbike and he also prepare some money for today's expenses.

But last night when my mother-in-law went home, she suddenly told us that they have worked today. Their boss just informed them yesterday before they went home, so she also didn't inform us earlier. Both of us ( my partner and I) becomes speechless , but of course we understand🤣. Better luck next time 😅.

Before we go to sleep my partner told me that he was sad, as he really miss to have a day trip. I told him that he can go if he want, but he refused. He says that he already contacted his friend to come with him to our house. He's friend was the one who will work with him in fixing our house. They will go to our house today to estimate all the materials that he needed to buy so they can start working on Monday.

It's been a while since the last time that we have a road trip. Since the pandemic started, he seems no time to do his favourite hubby anymore. And the last time that we had a day trip was last February 2020.

Look at us, we are still stress free that time, but today we look like we aged too much 🤣. Sometimes we really need to have some time to unwind to ease some boredom and to skip from stress. How I wish there's no more pandemic, so it would be easy for us to bring our son outside. Actually I miss being free, I miss going inside the mall and roam around. I miss those times that I used to do window shopping 😅 and I miss eating in my favourite fast food (McDonald's).

Sometimes I miss my old life. I don't regret that I become a mom, I just missed my old life. I suddenly realised that when you become a mom, things would change. Lot's and big changes will happen and if you weren't ready, things won't be so easy.

But the exciting thing that I am imagining right now was, this time I won't be alone anymore. I won't be alone roaming around the Mall, as I am imagining myself running and chasing my little son😂. This time I won't be so silent, as I am imagining myself being worried and shouting as my son might broke something that I must need to pay lol. This time I won't be alone eating in my favourite fast food as I am with my son and partner and this time I won't go home spend less as for sure I will go home moneyless 🤣.

This is all for today, and thank you for reading.

All photos from this blog including the lead image are originally from my gallery.