The Difficult Decision: Need to Withdraw

Since last night, I didn't sleep at the time that I start writing this blog of mine today, It's already 4:22 am right now already. Imagine, I stay awake even if I'm very scared because of the reason that, at the time of 3 am a while ago, there's someone passing by because my door is opened. But, I think positive that maybe that is just my cat and I know that God is guiding me right now.

Deciding and making own decision is so very hard esp. when we are talking about money. I posted to my noise.cash account yesterday about I need to withdraw some money to buy something- something that can help my family and what we needed for everyday.

and yes, that's right. I need to withdraw to buy rice because we don't have rice here anymore. Our Grandpa's rice field is still can't harvest yet, so that we needed to buy some rice to our Uncle's because if we will cavans to him, it will be very cheap than to others. The $197 usd (P10,000), can bought 15 cavans to them.

I think, my Grandpa's rice grains will be sold higher when they will harvest it. I mean they plan to buy cheap rice for our food and when they will harvest our rice grains soon, they will sell it to higher price.

I don't know too because I'm also wondering why we need to buy rice instead of eat the rice that our Grandpa farmed. I don't middle to some Elder's businesses.

Please correct me if I am right let me know in to comment because I can't ask them right now.

I need to withdraw a total amount of $197 usd instead of $98 only because of I'm also planning to spend to P5,000 to our grocery because we also don't have sugars and et cetera's to our Kitchen.

Earlier, I decided to send back to my bitcoin.com wallet my remaining BCH that is on my metamask account since, I'm not planning to buy any tokens for now and I'll just wait for my tokens that I hodl to go up high and my Milk that was staked to the pool too. Since, investing is a long term process. Like what I said to my previous Article yesterday, I decided to focus to my goals here because as of now I'm still stuck at my 3BCH goal.

Thinking about if I will withdraw the money right now is so very hard to make decision. I can't decide if I will withdraw the bch that I needed.

Why I'm deciding right now, If I know that there was still a lot of days?

I started to decide right now because my sister will go to her School later because it's their Sport's fest. and since I also like to go out to unwind my self because, it's been a long time when I go out to our house. I can't also remember if what is the look to other places now. Lol

It's so very hard for me to decide because of the BCH is still low but we needed it already. You know, the feeling when you will withdraw your bch earnings at the amount that you don't want to convert it and It makes me more sad because I still don't have much earnings.

The last time that I check , the bch is at $614 and because of it, the two options are on my head thinking until right now.

• Are you going to convert your BCH even if the value is so small, or you will let your self starve?

If I can please our Uncle to let me give some time until I can able to convert it at the exact price of the bch will go up to $700 right? But I can't do that because I can't just will say promises because I don't know when will be that time will come again.

My another problem again that makes my head hurt is because of my Sister. I already told this to @Eunoia to dm because I can't handle my emotions at that time. I'm so very mad but I couldn't say it to my Sister. I want to open it to my Ate @Ruffa and @Sensaii but I decided not to because I don't like them to be mad again but yeah, I also want to express my rants right now here.

So here is the story, My Sister knew about it. That I will withdraw some money today then here is her chat to me yesterday,

It was written to our Ilocano dialect. She said, "I-convertan mo nga din ako ng pang down payment." (She wants me to withdraw some money for her down payment for her PHONE take note that her phone that she was using right now is still new and my Mom gived to her last June.) and even to personal she always telling me that words and I said to her the same exact answer to her message,

She wants me to give her allowance again and I response,

You poop. I already told to you the name of the platforms and I even teach you how to earn there. Why don't you save there for your own allowance?

I'm already tired, Like I said, I saved somd money to help our Mother and what about her? She is just thinking her own self. I envy her because she can use her money to buy things that she wants like she can even join the hype of buying new and expensive foods, girly stuffs, etc. While me, I can't even afford those things because the money that I am saving is for our house and it's not mine.

• How I wish it is easy to buy a lot of things that you want right? But you can't do it because it's not easy to earn money and if I will use my money, I really make sure to buy it to some important things than for my own self.

She did not know if how hard for me to earn everyday esp. right now that I also experienced writer's block and t's not the same as before anymore. I mean, everyday, I can published and think some topics to write about but this time, I can't think some topics and I even come to the point that I published it on different hours and even day.

Seriously? Can I just sell my Sister so that I can be rich? Joke.

Ending thoughts...

I don't know how to end my article right now. I just let my hands go with the flow to what's on my mind and right now, As of the time of 5:26 am, I still didn't send the amount that I need to my coins.ph yet because, I'm hesitating because of the bch price but I decided to talk to my Grandma later if they can talk to his brother if they can wait and if not, then I don't have a choice. Let's just see what will happen later.

Thank you for reading! I need to sleep first. Sorry for the wrong grammars and erros because I fall asleep when I write this a while ago and I'm just fighting my drowsiness. Lol

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