It's rare for us to see be happy with a good reason

Living in such a good life is not very easy task. I know that everyone-including you is aware when we are just kids, you also wanted to grow up like other people back then. Because you envy them, you are also excited to try the things that they are doing. Because you think it's cool at the same time, you found them doing that things not knowing the reason why they are doing those.

Happiness for me is a hard thing to do to show it in front of many people. A happiness with a legit tears, joy, and other emotions because of something. Right! It's hard for someone to smile and become happy with a natural reason.

The funny thing is, Everyone lies. When I observe someone being happy and smiling, i don't believed that they are really happy. Because, when I was a Kid, my Mama and Papa always smiling to us but one night, they are have a argument and that changed my perspective in life. They show that they don't have any problems in front of us.

And I was right because not all people who are smiling in front of you are showing the real happiness because behind those masks that they are wearing, they have the real emotions that they don't wanna show it to everyone.

Can you relate?

Because I was there. I know that i am not the only one who are suffering from these pain. And you know what? Being a Happy Person for real is kind of a dream for me.

I always ask if, when i will be able to show the real happiness that I feel to everyone? Because, everytime that i show my happiness all of those smile, laugh, joy are all fake.

It's looks like when the person I am talking with in a social media account joke to something, I type "HAHAHA"

as a replied without knowing that i didn't really laughed instead, i am crying in pain because of many problems. I don't...even remember when was the last time I show that i am happy- the real happiness with a good reason. All of the happy memories that i think right now, i know it was all...lies.

Showing the happiness with the people around me who are the reason why I am suffering it's a very hard drama for me. And I do know that they also feel the same. They hates me and I know that. They do want to show that they feel interested to me, But the reality is, they don't want to involved with me. I can tell it to their emotions.

But you know what?

Behind of those random things that I told you about Happiness,

It doesn't matter if i don't show to other people the real happiness that i always feel.

Because being in my own world is the best. I can make my own self being happy by doing the things that i like without minding the other people's feelings and opinions.

• Buying my own a Foods or snacks the last time that i convert. Because eating delicious foods can make us happy.

• Going outside makes me feel Happy too because i feel like a bird lost in cage.

• Doing the things that i am comfortable.

I realized that we can't just feel the real happiness with other people that we wanted because, the real happiness is letting yourself Free- free to do the things that you know that makes yourself Happy.

Why I am saying this? I don't know how to put words and examples. I am not good at explainations but there is this one thing that i wanted to tell you and that is...

"We only lived once so, don't be mean to yourself to be happy."

Thanks for reading! This is my entry for the 30 days challenge and I choose the

Day 9: Write about Happiness.

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