What am I Afraid of? Facing My Fears!

I believe that even the strongest, bravest person in the world has his own fears so I will be lying if I claim that there is no such thing in this world that frightens the whole being inside of me.

Are you courageous in life? Are you brave enough to withstand all of the trials, challenges, and battles life throws at you? Do you think there is no such thing that will scare the strong person you are? Do you believe you will never bend down on your knees and will continue to stand tall because you have no fears at all?

I believe I am a strong person who can and will always overcome all of the hardships that this journey called life will throw in my face. I have been molding myself, with the help of my family and friends, to become the brave and independent woman I want to be. I want to be courageous in life who never backs down in the midst of adversities.

But just like I have said above, I will be lying if I say that there is no such thing in this world that frightens the whole being inside of me, that I am not afraid of anything at all.

I easily get frightened but these are the things I am afraid of the most.

I am afraid of losing my parents.

I have experienced having some relatives that passed away, but losing my parents and see them die is my greatest fear of all. Their death would be the death of me too. I can't imagine the unbearable pain if the time will come where I will be waking up and I won't be hearing their voices anymore first thing in the morning because they're already gone.

I have a lot of goals and dreams that I want to achieve which are specifically for my parents, and I don't know if I will be able to continue my life and accomplish all of these things if they won't be beside me anymore. I want to give them a more comfortable life, make them experience the things I want for them, make them proud of the person I've become, and bring them to different places, and I hope they will still be alive once the time comes that I can already fulfill my dreams for them.

I am afraid of my own death.

Every time I think about death, especially mine, I get frightened because like I have said, I have a lot of things that I want to do and dreams that I want to come true, so I won't be able to attain them anymore if I will die. I don't want to die knowing that I have not lived my life to its fullest yet, that there are some things I failed to do, and that I didn't serve my purpose.

I am afraid of being a disappointment.

I am not afraid of disappointing other people especially if they did not even contribute anything to my life, but what I am afraid of is the fact that I become a disappointment to my parents. I have been working so hard to make them proud and I don't want that the day will come where I will hear them and say, "You are such a disappointment."

I am also afraid of disappointing myself. You see, I have been setting so high and aiming big for myself, and I'm afraid I will only end up disappointing myself because I will lack off. I am putting high expectations of myself because I believe in my abilities but I'm also afraid if one day, I will just give up and be disappointed by myself.

I am afraid of my own future.

Just like I have said, I have a lot of big goals and huge dreams that I want to achieve. But sometimes, I also get frightened about just thinking about the future, my own future.

I have a lot of what-ifs. What if I don't get to achieve any of my dreams and goals in life? What if I don't get to travel the world like how I aim to do or I'll just stay in the Philippines forever? What if after I graduate from college, I'd end up just another nobody in this society? What if I become incompetent and not become the woman I aspire to be?

I am afraid of the uncertain but what I know and am certain of is that whatever I do today with my life will determine how my future will be. So I will keep working hard to not disappoint myself and my parents, and to have the best future I have always been dreaming of.

I was also afraid of heights before but I have learned to conquer that fear already, or maybe that's just what I thought. I am also afraid of snakes- the animal, and the human-like snake. Lols 🤣

Well, those are the top things I am most afraid of at the moment. The first two involves death which is something that is inevitable in life.

How about you? What are you afraid of?