May 17, 2022

1000hours later, hello read dot cash family how's everyone? I am here again to say hi and hello wishing everyone to have good health and always be happy regardless of the situation.

I was inactive for a couple of days again and again for some reason probably I can say that procrastination hits me badly and I feel bad in a way that I can not control over it.

I overthink a lot I have so many negative thoughts on my mind that I have always been trying to ignore them as what I've always said and written in my previous article as much as possible I must not think any negative but then I was wrong maybe some of you have thought that I always have this kind of problem and it's right in the field of my work it's hard to explain how we feel, how we react with the situation being far from family was not easy.

These are some things that I overthink.

• I wanted to go home but so many things that I must consider before I could come up with a decision number one problem is that money. Perhaps you could ask me where is my salary? I can say if only I didn't build a house for sure I can travel anytime but then since last 2018 I start to build it up until now still not finished. Building a house needed more money although I am proud of what I've achieved I can not deny the fact that there comes a time that I felt tired of everything.

• If I could go home there is this in my mind if I come back here or find another country? This case needs me to think many times for I don't want to regret it in the end. At first, I thought that I tell my employer to come back again but the truth is I have a second thoughts about if I come back or find another employer but as much as possible, I want to be honest with them that in my mind I need to tell them that still, I don't have any decision if I can come again or not coming back anymore here.

• This kind of my job right now I wouldn't recommend it to anyone that as much as still there is another way or another job then accepting this kind of work is not favorable this kind of job needs more courage for you to be able to succeed.

Upon seeing some videos of our kababayan who suffer from their employer it feels me hurt inside for somehow I can relate to their situation although my employer was okay then again I still feel the indifference I still think that of course, they are showing me their good behavior as they need me to work for them.

Closing words

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