A Decade of Happiness(a letter for my youngest child)

Dear Athan,

On November 5, 2011 around 10 in the evening I started to felt cramps on my stomach. I never thought it was time to give birth to you, because I still have a week base on my expected due date information. But the cramps and the pain continued to strike me. I didn’t waste anymore minute calling the attention of Tatay your grandfather. Anyway Daddy was working abroad that’s why he isn’t with us. I told him to bring me to the clinic where I planned to give birth to you, because you’re too eager to come out of my tummy. Without any questions, he started the engine of his car and we went to the clinic right away. I was holding on your Tito Renz arms that I think I’ve hurt him because I was squishing it too tight. While we were on the car, I was already in labor, this wasn’t new to me because this was the same feeling I’ve experienced while giving birth to your older brother. And I know exactly well what to expect in the next few minutes. The pain of labor will only goes away once you are taken out in my womb. Luckily it only takes 30 minutes of pain and you were out. You were so excited to come out and see the real world outside my womb.

And then just like that, we’ve celebrated your first month until you’ve turned up a year old. So many milestones, I’ve witnessed it all. From the day you started calling me mommy, I was the happiest mom ever, until you started crawling to get to me. You started slowly but then many days has passed you began standing on your own and finally walked on your own, without any help from us. I cried, when you were not feeling well, hoping I could take all the pain. I laughed out loud whenever you were laughing with a simple peek a boo. You like watching Maroon 5 “ moves like jagger” video, and whenever you heard it, you can’t stop yourself from moving your arms from left to right. Everybody in the house loves you, but you love me the most, because I am the source of your energy. Without me, there’s no milk for you. Most of the time you want to sleep by my side, that even your Daddy can’t do anything about it.

When it’s time for you to go to school for the first time, I was worried that you might end up crying on your first day, but you were brave enough and showed me the first star you got from your teacher. You made friends with everyone, and you’re so excited to go to school everyday. Until one day, you can’t do the things that your teacher is telling you to do that’s why you cried. I told you it’s okay, you just need to be patience and don’t force yourself to learn like everybody else, learning is a process and you’ll get to it in time. With those words, you stopped whining and it feels like nothing happened.

Remember the day, when I was encouraging you to ride your bike without its training wheels. You were a little stubborn at first but then I didn’t give up for days. You were a little afraid because you might fall and get wounded, but after a while you were so happy because you can finally use it without it’s training wheels.

Right now, you’re still too young to experience any hardships. I want you to enjoy life to the fullest. Make friends and have fun being a kid. Not everyone are lucky to experience what you have right now. We may not have all the riches in the world, but I know the love I have for you is more than enough.

Now that you’ve turned a year older, I want you to know that mommy will always be here. I will get angry and might be a monster mommy to you and kuya, but like I would always say it’ll only last for a while because my love for you both will always prevail. I love you baby boy. You and your Kuya will always be a baby for me no matter how older you get.

Happiest birthday my forever little ball of sunshine. Thank you for a decade of happiness you brought into our lives. I love you so much.

Sincerely Yours,

Mommy

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Yesterday was my youngest son’s 10th birthday and we are going to have a little celebration today. I was supposed to post this earlier, but since I was out preparing for the things needed for the party later, I posted it late. Please forgive me too, if I can’t interact with you today. I’ll make sure to catch up after our celebration. Have a good day everyone.

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