From one moment to the next the spirit left me.
The good one, together with the good vibes. It's the moment I ask myself how to go on. Is this what I want for me? Hanging around, wasting my time by doing what I don't like. Who do I benefit if it isn't me if it is no longer me who feels enthusiastic about the things I do? I quit jobs because of the same feeling, the feeling of losing myself. It's clear, it should be clear I can't always do what I like. Not because of a lack of time or the responsibilities I have but because of my lack of everything. Energy to start with. I wish I could recharge myself as easily as the old cell phone but I can't. Even after a night rest, I am not charged for 15%. I guess my battery is nearly dead and there's nothing for sale I can replace it with.
I gave up on cooking weeks ago to save energy and while the clock ticks I continue posting stuff (cps) for the children to leave a bit behind of me. The person they might easily forget together with all the other memories I tried to create during the past years we had.
While laying on my bed I hear them laughing out loud, the joy scatters around. It's not with me but what counts is they are happy.
Device: mobile phone
Egg timer: set at 10 minutes
Prompts: written in bold
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