What causes you so much pain right now? Aside from a broken relationship, is it your family? Your friends? The people around you? Their expectations? The pressure? Or yourself?
Have you done your best in everything? If so, how will you prove that when people only sees the failures you went through?...
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I admit I have failed many times. And its hurting me to the bone each time I see the faces of the people who expected me to be successful as what they wanted me to be at this rate of my life, showing that they were disappointed or dismayed. What can I do? The results were there and I can't change that. Though I force myself to divert my attention from thinking about it, but when I'm all alone, I can't help myself but cry and feeling the guilt for being such a failure and a loser.
I want to express myself through uttering words in front of them but I ended up hiding it inside and force myself to show a fake smile. It may look bad at the other side, but that way, it gives me a little relief.
I can't just let it go. I mean, I am letting it eat me, little by little and I have noticed that I am losing hope now. I even forget how to pray. I even forget to ask Him for help. I questioned His ways. "Why me?" "What now?" Will I ever be successful? When? How? What tomorrow could bring?
(Deep Sighs!)
This is not a drama, this is really what I felt inside. It took me a while to express this one through sharing it with you my beloved brothers and sisters, because I don't want to be a burden to you. I chose to hide it for a while because I thought I can handle it by myself. That I can still keep up and solve it by my own. But, I was wrong. I can't. (Sad faced)
Better days, will you come?...
That would be all for this blog fellas. Thank you for spending your time my read.cash family. Take good care of yourselves, especially your heart!❣️
MAY THE GRACE OF THE LORD BE WITH ALL GOD'S PEOPLE!😇
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My warmest thanks to all my avid supporters; readers, upvoters, sponsors (old, new, and renewed ones). It is my pleasure to have you and become my inspiration and motivation as I go on to this journey as an online writer and a blogger. Thank you for your undying love and support, and for showing how kind and generous you are. Thank you for making my read.cash journey a wonderful one. May this platform last for a long period of time and our friendship, may on virtual or not goes the same. May the Lord our God bless us more days, weeks, months, and years to come!
Two Hearts, One Love💕
@renren16
See you in my next blog!😊
xoxo(｡♡‿♡｡)
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