"When I was doing the Laundries"

Draft Written: 01|19|2022

12:19 PM|01.19.2022#169|

Are you fond of doing the laundries? What comes in your mind while doing it? Do you have certain thoughts or those of which all of sudden comes out, while you are doing it?

Hi read.cashers!😊👋 How's your Wednesday? If you have wonder why I was not active yesterday, I was busy doing the laundries and I have some matters that I attended to. Actually, I must say, it's not that productive day but still, I ended up thinking that it was. Lol. During the day, I payed time to visit my account in here for few hours, maybe. The signal was not stable and I was kind of irritated because of that, so I ended up lying in my bed, took some nap, then few minutes after, I decided to help my mama on doing the house chores. Well, you know, the usual things. Washing the dishes, cleaning the house, especially the kitchen. I also made time to organized things in my room. I ate my lunch together with my mama and papa, then after that, I went to my cousin's house because I charged my phone. (They have a generator.) I just left my phone in there and I went home and prepared my laundries. I separated the colored ones from whites. I still didn't wash those white shirts because it was around 2:00 pm when I started it. (Matagal kasi ako matapos pag naglalaba, baka gabihin pa ako.Hehe.) I also included my pillow cases which I bought when I got the cash assistance, with the other pillow cases which I replaced when I cleaning my room.

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What comes in my mind?

-Pregnancy-

Don't be so shock about it because I think I really want to have a baby. I was just kind of disappointed because I had my period right now. Huhu. (Nag-expect kasi talaga ako na meron na.-_-) Actually, MGD wanted it too. And I felt sad when I found out that I've got a period today. ("My apologies for those who are underage/mga medyo bata pa, in here.")

-Work-

I felt like I was really a failure. Habang nagkukusot ako, I've been thinking, "what if I just tried to become a housemaid instead?" Its been a while then, since the last time I tried to apply for a job, not related to my field or profession. But, I was also thinking, "what if I will be rejected, AGAIN?" I think, I can't handle it anymore. I think that I was useless daughter. Sometimes, when I heard some kind of conversations regarding jobs or work related matters, I distanced myself, because I felt ashamed, thinking that I was the only one on our batch in elementary who didn't have a stable source of income. And that, I still depend on my parents for living. Well, I have this job, I mean, I am proud, grateful, and really felt blessed to joined in this community, but, sad to say, there are those times that I felt like I was devasted because I am under the pressure which my parents shouldered on me, my mama, specifically. Whenever I got to this "comparing thing", I really felt that I am useless, hopeless, worthless.

-Future-

Its not about being an advanced-thinker, while doing the laundries, its just came out, suddenly. I think about renovating our house. That, if I can have a stable job, I will really provide for it. I will also pay all our debts. I think about getting married. Its should be the first, before the baby, right? Whatever it is, I must say, I am prepared, but when we talk about financial, nahh...another problem, I say. (Laughing!)

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All in all, I probably just kept myself embraced negative vibes around. I don't know why I was thinking all of those stuffs. And right now, as I was about to finish writing this one, I was thinking about "WORK" again. "Oh, God! Please send me your instruments!"

I finished the laundries at almost 4 pm yesterday. It was really tiring. I've got a back pain right now. I just put some patches on it to feel better. How about you my read.cash fam? What comes in your mind while you are doing the laundries?

That's all for this article. Thank you for spending your time my read.cash fam!

MAY THE GRACE OF THE LORD BE WITH YOU!😇

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