" I'll Never Be with You "

[#40] 8th of July 2021

Good day folks!😊👋

Actually, I don't intend to write and publish this article today. As a matter of fact, I was a bit busy preparing another documents needed for our Teacher's Rankings. But because the submission was being postponed, I thought of writing a new article, and I came up with two topics, yet I decided to wrote another story about cheating. This was the third time I wrote a story about the topic, and I do hoped that you'll never get bored on reading it.😌

Yesterday, I came across to read an article by Ms. @Ruffa , I commented it and she replied. I was then so "lutang" , my mind just thinking anything else yet without purpose and just a mere nonsense. Basically, I thought about what she said and I'm able to remember the past experiences I had with my ex-boyfriend. I don't know, its not because I wasn't still get over him, I just thought of sharing it anyways.😅

So here's the story...

I was a second year high school student, when I and my ex-boyfriend were together as lovers. Let's just say, his name was Nick. So Nick, was in his fourth year at that time. He had the looks and everything might a girl wanted to have for a boy. I was happy with him. We went to canteen together, eat our snacks, and lunch together. Other girls at school envied me for that.

Few months later, we celebrated our Barangay Fiesta, Nick was a bit busy because he was an active member of the Youth Organization at that time. He helped organizing the "Paliga sa Barangay" and "Pa-bingo sa Barangay." I understand why he's busy because of that reasons. It never came to cross my mind that Nick would do something that will destroy our relationship.

On the evening, there's a Disco. I thought Nick will pick me to be his partner, but OMG!🙄, he chose to dance with the other girl. So, as a revenge, I danced with another man. (It's not what you think, my partner was our friend🙈) I felt so jealous, that's why I went home early. I thought Nick would followed but he keep on dancing with the other girl. (S*cks!)

The next day, I texted him. He replied,

"Sorry, Let's just finished it." I said,

"Finished what?" He answered,

"This one, our relationship. I want us to split up!" After that words, I don't replied him anymore. Few hours later he texted again,

"Please, just let me go."

"I really don't love you."

"It was just a bet"

"I courted you because of a bet!"

I really don't know what to say. I felt so numb. And then, I decide to talk to him in person. He agrees then. When he was right in front of me, I slapped his face while crying. (telenovela😅)

Yes, I slapped him.

"What have you done?"

"Why you chose to hurt me this way? Why?

"Where did I go wrong, for you to hurt me like this, huh?😭

He just bowed down his head, saying, "I'm sorry!"

"If we still keep this relationship, I'll just hurt you over and over again." "Let's just end this, I know you can find someone better than me"...

I slapped him again,

"You assh*le!"

"You're a coward!"

"I'd loved you but all along, you just with me because of a bet!

"I felt so betrayed!"

"Just go! I don't want to see your face again!"

I went home, my mama did noticed that I cried but thankfully, she never ask why. I cried in my room alone.

{"You'll never understand until it happens to you"}

Fast Forward...

On his graduation day, I saw him at the stage receiving his diploma and after that he went down the stage. I was about to approached him, when suddenly, a girl hugged him. She looks familiar to me. Yes! She's the girl whom Nick chose to be his partner during the Disco. That girl was his real time girlfriend. I was about to cry, Nick just looked at me and the girl also. I walked out. I really control myself not to cry tho, but it was just hurtful for me.

A couple of months later, I was in my third year in high school, Nick went to Manila together with his girl. And I started to begin my life all over again. Its not easy but I am so thankful that I little by little get over him. One day, I went to library and read our school publication. I was one of the contributors of that paper. Turning and reading page by page, I came across to one of its contents. I read a poem written by L. V. J..

"You made me cry,

You tore me apart

You left me in tears

You've shattered my heart.

It wasn't your fault

I guess it was mine

for love can't be forced

Perhaps we weren't meant to be.

It still doesn't help now that I know

Cause for some reasons my heart won't let go.

I've tried more than once to get over you

But you make it so hard

With cute things you do.

I've thought love was joy

I've got nothing to gain

Just sorrows, tears and a little pain.

The day the pain started

Reality comes to,

It was the day I realized

" I'll never be with you. " -L. V. J.

Probably, it suits him well. I might say, he's my greatest heartbreak, but what else would I do? Its already done. Nothing more, nothing less. All I want was just to totally get over him.

end...

This days onward...

I'm now happy that I am with my MGD..😍😍😍 Who knows? He might become my husband. Let's just hope for that.😁😌

As for Nick, the last news I heard about him, he and his girl broke up. The girl cheated on him. (Karma works🙊hihi)

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Thanks for reading fellas!📖😊

To God be all the Glory!😇