What occupied my mind?

March 15, 2022

It was Last Saturday that I updated here about a new found friend and after that I became hiatus again. Well, as I have said at the beginning of this month that I want to take it slow this time. Not to pressure myself over everything, at work, home and in here. I rarely update on Noise too, not because I got tired but because my mind is empty.

Last month because of my greed to update and make an article everyday that I already shared everything mostly about work and my rants and frustrations. Then I came to realize that I became so naive and selfish.So I stopped and rest my mind for weeks I guess. Only few notice like those whom I was already close with and some just didn't mind I guess since I was almost ranting everyday mostly and a lot of my articles consist only of my adoration on K-pop and anime and even my addiction on books.

Brace yourselves for it since all my upcoming article will only consist of it as usual. I don't share any crypto articles for I am also a noob about it and I al learning from other writers here so I will just give it to them hehhee..

Realization also struck me last week after my birthday. I mean a lot of realizations actually.

Friends

Like, you can really tell whom your true friends are and whom are only considering you as one because you constantly are the one approaching them. Pity? You can say that but for me it's appreciating back. In here, and outside these platforms I found new friends. I can only count them by my fingertips still it makes me happy.

There's also a friend whom is older than me that I can't seem to correct her vulgar words but it made me happy that she is always there looking out for me. We sometimes share the same brain cells for we speak the same dialect. I was also touched when she sometimes share her problems about family and work, it made me feel that she values me as a true friend and I am glad thinking about it. Love you ter...nyahahahaha

There's also these penguins who always makes me bark in laughing by myself whenever we keep messing with each other. Some would come to me for she was pestered by the two and there's also this one who is hard headed and never will take a bath if it's not hot aigooo and the genius one who always have her excuses and reason on everything.

Overall, they are what I call genuine friends. I don't rely on them but I love communicating with them. It made my day to day cycle worth coming for.

Family

I also realized that my family really are a bunch of genius..lol!! Especially my parents. Like I always hide about my sickness, like when I'm not feeling well or if there's something that's been troubling me. I always make sure not to bring it home in order for them not to worry about me. Whenever they ask "how was work?" I always tell them something good.

Whenever Monday arrive, every time I bid goodbye to them, they would always say that "maminaw ra jud mi kung unsa imong mga problema, wa ka nag inusara"(we're always here to hear about your problems, you're not alone). But the foolish me would always say that " I AM FINE"

Even my sister would check on me at random days, asking me how was my day. aigooooo..

Life

I firmly believe, even before, that life is full of surprises. Like you will never know what will happen tomorrow and who will be with you until the end of the road and whom will hold your hand whenever you feel like you're about to give up. The circumstances may lead to something good or bad and it's up to you on how you define it and make use to it.

The chances of failing and succeeding is also in line as to what awaits on you. And the choices you made will surely make a great impact on your future. So make a habit of taking it one by one.

Love

When talking about relationship with other people, I know I suck and I don't want commitment as of the moment so my apologies already to the penguins who kept on insisting me to have one, no hope.

Relationship with God, this is a habit I always have even before but as I get busy I always have lesser time with Him. My spiritual conversation gets lesser each day that I don't get a chance to hear what he wants to say to me, scripture time sometimes missed out on days, I swear to myself that I will find time to make up for the days I missed but ended up forgetting it.

I'll end this here since I thought it will get boring if I make it too long. Sumimasem...

Thank you for the constant support and for staying.My gratitude goes all out to you.
@mommykim