What am I so afraid of?

July 31, 2021

We people faced a lot of fears in our life. Right? Its normal, we're also normal to experience that for we are mere humans who have the weakness in our body.

I saw most of my friends talk about their fears in life, and as a mere curious citizen in the country, also try to share some of my fears in life then until now.

Some might say I'm a coward if I list down the things that I fear. I don't give a little care. It's my article after all. So read at your own risk🤓🤓

I'm afraid of heights

I have wrote in one of my articles that I once fall from a mango tree way back grade school and my cousin cried even though I was the one that fell over. Ever since that incident, I never dare go to high places. I would go but with a companion whom I can trust my life to.

But I did hop on an airplane many times eventhough I'm afraid of heights, because it is cumpolsory . Whenever we have conferences, we travel in airplane because it is much faster than boats.

I am afraid of snakes

Snakes really can kill in just a matter of seconds and most of the time if I see snakes I feel chills all over my body.

I wrote also in one of my articles when a snake crawled in the window of me and my son's room but luckily Papz killed it before it even enter our room.

And as in the present while I'm writing, me and my son still sleeps in my parents room until my room will be renovated in order for it to be secured that no snakes will enter anymore.

Papz also told me that because we live near the rocky mountain and our backyard have many trees so it's normal that forest animals will come visit our house.

I'm afraid being unwanted

I'm mostly friend to the people I'm comfortable to talk with. I easily become chatty if I sense they like talking. I sometimes become witty or naughty and all deoending on the conversations. Outside Noise and Read I have some friends here whom I can chat with.

The fear of being unwanted sometimes arouse when I can't cope up with the topic specially in the group chats, when I can't guess what they're talking about so I feel like I need to get out and let them talk and don't interrupt.

Even when I'm a kid whenever my Older sister received a lot of awards than me I feel like they only adore my older sister than me.

I'm afraid that my son will walk away from me😔

I know it's impossible but whenever I think about my son beong taken away from me I can't helo but felt fear all over me. This is one of the reason I am having anxiety sometimes. Whenever I'm at work and I kept thinking about my son at home with his grannies and I am not there, I kept thinking if his father will come by and took him.

Living away from my son is the hardest part of my life right now, only seeing him less than 2 days a week and can be able to cuddle him in a short period of time pains me all the time. I am all smiley and jolly but I feel weak everytime I think about my son at home. When I'm alone after work I always sense negative thoughts inside my head and I can't sleep until 2 to 3am most of the time.

My family didn't know this for I don't want them to worry .

That feeling that you have to live while your son was still sleeping and travel early morning on mondays and came home saturday evenings. I always turn my attention on other things like making noise in noise or sometimes chatting with the squad in TG but I still cry every night thinking about my son being away from me.

Aigooooooooo

Now every one will no tbis weakling is a fool...😂😂😂😂

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Fin👐