Do I like who I am right now?

May 16, 2022

It's Monday again and another day to grind, I am not really into making an article for the day as I want to cool down my mind over personal matters but I guess my fingers just keep on moving the cursor and open read and then write. I can't actually think of anything to write may it be nonsensical again or what so I was looking at my drafts and found this and I remember I saved it just Wednesday last week if I'm not mistaken. It's from@ARTicLEE 's answers to such deep questions, you can check it here. I want to answer some but I want to challenge myself and answer everything that's on the board.

• Do I like who I am right now?

Honestly no, if you have read my previous article you'll know that I am now doubting my decisions and I am also not like these negativities in my mind right now.

• When was the last time I laughed so hard?

Just last week, after my shift ended I watched Tiktok videos and there are a lot of videos there that you get to laugh so hard that you'll get tears in your eyes after. It's really hilarious.

• What would I truly regret not doing if I died tonight?

None so far I guess, I did live my life just as it is right now.

• What advice has someone in my family given, and that I have taken just in time?

Made a truce with the father of my child and I did it during a pandemic.

• What were the top three lessons I learned the hard way?

Accept changes for I am always in denial before and I don't want my plans go wary.
Never give up. After I gave birth I almost give up and take my life and I am thankful it didn't happen.

• What would I do if my biggest fear came true?

I've been playing scenarios in my mind on what will I do but I know that I will be really blank when that time happens.

• What would I do with my remaining days if I had only a year left to live?

Spend more time with my son, plan for his future while I'm at it, and give him the best educational plan. Also, spend time with my family and friends. I want to really travel by sea for I never tried once.

• Am I a servant of money, or does money serve me?

As much as I don't want to be a servant of money, it so happens that most things are doing well with the money involved. The clothes I wear, and the rice I need to cook for everyone in the household made me lack the sense that money works for me.

• Why am I afraid of being true to myself when others are around?

I just don't want them to see how vulnerable I am and don't want to outshine my sisters for we are all equal in the eyes of more people.

• What are the three things that I am most grateful for?

Family, because I am not like these, doing my best in everything if not because of them.
Work, I need a stable job to sustain my needs not just following my dreams.
Noise/Read. these have been my constant companion and I put some journals with them.

• Have I done something recently that I could be proud of?

  Voting for my chosen political candidate without my vote being bought. I chose them from my heart.

• When was the last time I extended kindness to somebody?

I don't remember such events but I do extend it. Like when they need someone and I am giving it to them, something like that.

• What do I really want from life?

Peace Hope and Love.

• What aspect of my personality still needs improvement?

My actions for I'm a slow learner.

• Must I take other people's advice?

Yes if they are useful to you.

• What annoys me the most?

A lot but the worst would be procrastinating.

• Do others find me likable?

I don't know for I didn't ask people if I am likable or not but I bet you are.

I answered the first part of the question because I am sleepy now and can't find some interesting things to write. I hope you get a chance to answer these all queries like I am

Gonna sleep now as I also need to get up early for work.

Goodnight guys, God Bless

@mommykim