The Awkwardness Between Us
Hello, everyone! I am here again with another blog. Thanks for the unending support.
I apologize for the inactivity last Saturday and Sunday. I am already following my new schedule in which I will be more focused on my holistic health during the weekend, and be more active in writing articles and interacting with other users during weekdays.
I want to publish every day but I find it too exhausting and draining for me. Di keri ng utak ko hahaha. I hope you understand. Thank you.
Last week, my parents told us that they will have a motorcycle ride with cousins for the following week to visit a tourist destination in Laguna. I found it great because they're already enjoying life after getting locked during the quarantine. Tsaka isa pa, they are getting older kaya let them do what's on their bucket list.
As far as I can remember, the name of their planned destination is Hulugan Falls. Hello to my co-writers who live in Laguna. Just correct me if I am wrong.
Since we only have one motorcycle, it's obvious that my brother and I will not be able to join them and we will be left alone at the house.
There's no problem with that. Actually, I found it more peaceful if they were not here 😂. We can do anything we want without getting scolded. It's basically temporary freedom for us! We can wash the dishes later; I can sit on the computer and write articles without getting interrupted; I can lay on the sofa and watch Netflix all day without worrying that my mother is already preparing his mouth to spit 50 words per second.
Don't get me wrong. I am not that lazy as you can perceive in that paragraph. I just have my own working schedule and I don't want anyone to repeatedly tell me that I should do this or that.
I don't know if some of you can relate, but do you experience na sinisipag kang gawin yung mga bagay bagay pero bigla kang bubulyawan ng mama mo na gawin mo na agad. Parang tinatamad ako pag ganun hahaha
Anyways, days after my parents told us that they are planning to go to Laguna, my uncle from my father's side called asking that he will stay here in Manila to pass his job requirements in the agency he applied to. Since it will be too costly for him if he will rent a boarding house, my father let him stay here for a while.
When I heard that my uncle will stay here, I immediately became anxious hahaha. I am not comfortable living with someone I am not close with. You can't blame me for acting like that since I don't see and talk to him often.
Since that day, I have always asked my mother if their decision is final. I am still hoping that my uncle will still change his mind. My mother is just laughing at me but I think she understands what I feel.
Kulang nalang siguro ay tawagin ko lahat ng santo ng simbahang katolika para di matuloy pagpunta ni tito dito sa bahay.
However, I think my prayers were not heard because my uncle arrived the next day.
Even though I was so nervous at that time, I had no choice but to open the gate, let him in, and greet him with an awkward smile and gesture. I feel so stupid for smiling and just waiting him to enter the house HAHAHA.
After that, I gave him a glass of water and went upstairs, straight to my room. I can't stand faking my confidence and composure in front of him. I think he also noticed that I felt uncomfy with his presence, which is true.
I just let my mother talk to him downstairs while I am in my room with my brother.
Siguro naging ganun yung setup namin all throughout na nandito sya. We will just stay downstairs if he's traveling to Manila to pass his requirements. By the way, we live in a city somehow at the edge of Metro Manila. That's why traveling from my place to the big cities is not that hard.
Days passed and my parents finally went for a ride. It just so happened that my uncle had no appointments at that time. I never expected that we would be left in an awkward situation.
Imagine the silence and awkwardness between us. I think we created a breakthrough in science in which for the first time the silence broke the sound barrier, lol.
Kahit mahirap, kinapalan ko nalang mukha ko para lang makakilos sa bahay. Mas nakakahiya naman kung papabayaan ko sya sa baba. Umorder nalang ako ng ulam online para di na ako magluto
My parents got home around 7 pm. At last, I can finally go upstairs and lock myself in the room.
The day after that, my uncle bid a goodbye. Finally, I can feel at home again.
Final remarks:
The awkwardness between us is not a result of any issues. I have nothing against him. Maybe the anxiety I am experiencing is a result of my awful experience during my childhood. Despite that, I am trying my best to improve and change this
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WAHAHAHA kainis minsan yung ganyan. Ako one time nong gusto ko na sana hugasan yung plato tas bigla akong inutosan na hugasan. Nakaka wala ng gana gumawa HAHAH