I may or may not leave this platform.

September 09, 2021

“How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.”

– A.A. Milne

Lately, to those who subscribed to me, you will notice that I have lapses on the schedule of publishing my articles. The reason for that is I am having a hard time thinking of a topic to write about. Sounds lame, right? But besides that, I feel burnt out from thinking and writing too much. I also neglected my health, especially when it comes to my mental aspect. If you're an avid reader of mine, I often mentioned that I am mentally unstable. This is why these past few days, leaving read.cash temporarily or permanently is bumping on my mind just to focus on loving and improving myself

“I think he is just using this topic just to gain clout.”

Actually, you’re kinda right. Maybe leaving is not the correct term? Maybe I will not completely leave the platform and I will just be inactive? However, I am thinking that being inactive here for a long time will really affect my account. I may be marked as spammed by the bot, or my subscribers may decline, or no one will continue to read my works. If that happens, why would I waste my effort and time when I have nothing to get as an exchange? I mean, let’s not be hypocritical. Some of us are writing here in the hope of getting some money from the system. Do you think you can survive here without receiving any compensation? 

I also became inactive here due to my academic responsibilities. During that time frame, I barely got 20 reads and 10 likes. I just only receive $2 dollars most of the time despite how long I created that article. I got demotivated of course. Thanks to @carisdaneym2 for giving me some chance to get to know others here and push me to continue what I am doing. 

“What are your plans if you decided to leave here permanently?”

I will focus on other things definitely, especially on working one of my biggest insecurities. I have also been neglecting my health ever since I started to grind here. 

I may also start to learn coding/programming to prepare myself next year. To those who didn’t know, I decided to temporarily halt from studying as I don’t feel like studying in a home setup; distractions are rampant and I can’t focus.  Maybe next year there’s already a limited face to face class. 

I am also comfortable with the current pace of my life; just a little bit stagnant but no stress. 

“ What would be the source of your income if you decided to stop writing?”

I may occasionally post on noise.cash about some updates with my life. Though do not expect that I will stay there for too long. I may just post there and leave? I don’t know as of the moment, really. Noise.cash has been a safe space for me; I am able to post the things I am not able to show with my personal social media. Hoping that the system will be generous enough to still compensate me. 

Aside from that, it is confirmed that my uncle chose me to be his scholar on Axie Infinity. Though we are not yet discussing my share, I overheard that it will be 50/50 which is already a good thing given that he’s the one who will spend on the gas fee. 

I am hoping that this Axie infinity thing will be the one that will help me to be financially free. I might also help my parents with our finances. I might also build my own team in the future, who knows? 

I do really have a hard time deciding on this matter. This is why I am still not sure what will be the future of this account. Only time can tell. I am already attached to the supportive and loving  community here. This platform witnessed how I battled myself during these trying times, how I changed, and grew. 

“How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.”

– A.A. Milne

I am indeed lucky to be here. Read.cash has become part of my character and journey. This platform has given me a chance to know the crypto world and meet amazing people. Thinking of leaving here is a very hard decision and that proves how I enjoy being here. 

This is Clifford also known as kli4d, signing off for a while.

Author's note:

This has been lingering on my drafts few weeks ago and I should have published this back then lol. To be honest, I feel cringe while continuing writing this because I am already fine and I am thinking of writing again. Sorry for the clout chasing HAHAHAHA. Nanghihinayang lang ako sa effort ko dito HAHAHA. Sorry na agad!

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