Slowly Accepting The Fact

Good day everyone. Until now, I am still in the phase of acceptance that I might not be able to study again. I know that I still have hope that I'll be able to learn. It might be I would be on the waiting list, or I would stop for over a year. The resentment I felt in that university made my heart scratched. When you want to study for the job you want, they don't qualify you. It seems like your grade probably depends on your future; not to sugarcoat.

That's why thinking of my upcoming graduation doesn't excite me anymore. Instead, that upcoming ceremony will only give me quick realizations. A realization still haunts me, which made a big scar on my heart. I just watched a K-Drama about a school romantic love story where the first chapter introduces their first day of passing admission. God, I wish I'll also feel the same way.

Maybe this instance taught me to give up on my dream as I might not handle it in the future. Even if you are eager to get this job, it won't be beneficial. This dream is not worth it to chase. I should accept it and find the same way, which will grow me mentally and emotionally.

A year ago, I published an article about why I'm being pessimistic about continuing my college path. Despite those reasons to discontinue, I still give it a try since why not? I'm glad the authors I mentioned are already happy about their college years. One of them is a graduating student who takes care of her cheerful family. The other one is a third-year student, if I were not mistaken. On the other hand, one of them is currently busy in college despite multiple failures. And lastly, the other author will be studying in a private school this academic year.

This rejection also indicates that I should not rely on the present anymore. To be honest, I studied and prepared terribly for the things I might use in the upcoming year. I was so excited back then. Aside from that, I practiced managing my laziness despite my grinds in the crypto world. Who wouldn't believe I got a good grade while playing P2E games and writing here? As I said, this academic year proved that my efforts to prepare for my upcoming academic year are senseless.

Instead of being sad, I shifted this rejection into investing knowledge in the freelancing world. I might be the unluckiest guy in the world, but I might be one of the luckiest teenagers in the internet world. I'm unique compared to my classmates, and I shall be proud of it.

If I just get qualified for the college courses I selected, maybe I'm already preparing some reviewers for my desired path. I think I'm already advanced reading and investing more time in myself as I need to enjoy before the real world. Likewise, I guess I have already sought some advice and tips about unknown preparations. They said that you must be ready for the upcoming consequences if you fit their standards.

So far, I'm almost to the finish line with creating my gig on Fiverr. I'm not yet done because I am still practicing my typing capacity. I'm also aiming to practice more digital skills, which might help me generate more money. Did you know that I don't have an idea what to write here on read.cash, but I am now one of the leading content creators just like you? I also don't have a talent in strategy gaming, but I got to know it when I became an Axie player. I'm just a goal digger, not a gold digger.

In terms of studies, I still believe in miracles. Even if my dreams are unrelated to my course, I'll still grab them if I have a chance. Better than to stop, though. I hope I can still study even if it seems like I don't have hopes. Thank you for reading.