I can't but I did. Or did I?

Hey there folks! I know this isn't new to you at all. This challenge has been dominating this platform for days now. From my home page, to my subscriptions and even to our group chat, this challenge is everywhere.

I am so thrilled to share my own version of it so without further ado, let's begin.

Contrary to what everyone believes, I am a really shy person. Well, I can be very outgoing but I also have this introvert side. Since I was a kid and even until today, I can still be very shy. There are things that are really uncomfortable for me to do, things that I think I can't do even in my wildest dreams. But for some reason which I also didn't know, I manage to step out of my shell and go out of my comfort zone.

So here, I present to you some of the things that I can't do but I did. Or did I? Here's my very own version of never have I ever challenge, going out of my comfort zone edition.

• Never have I ever join in a pageant

I have. This is something that I have never imagined that I will be doing. This happened when I was still on elementary. If you know those "petty" (sorry for the term, I just find it like that) money contest during those days, this was one of it. Maybe it's just part of the competition at school, but this really happened out of my own volition. I'm not the girly type and I don't like gowns and make ups. I look at some of my old photos during these days and I'm not even smiling. This is really something that I don't want to do but it just so happened so I guess, I'll just add it to my experience.

• Never have I ever made a tiktok video

I have. Tiktok has been dominating our whole world but not me. Even before that it was still musical.ly, I never installed it on my phone and never was I tempted to make my own video. But me, applying to a student organization happened and I was tasked to make a tiktok video. Me, being just a mere applicant can't argue about it so yeah, I have one tiktok video and what's worst is that I was also asked to share it on our group chat. Lol. That was so embarrassing but thrilling at the same time. I literally look dumb in there for I can't even dance but the thought of being successful on doing something out of your comfort zone is just so good in the feeling that I didn't even mind about the humiliation that I am feeling.

• Never have I ever sang on a videoke

I have. @carisdaneym2 can testify to that. I'm also not a good singer and I'm really shy when others can hear my voice, that's why when there are other people, I don't sing at all. But Cardo's 18th birthday happened and I don't know what kind of spirit get into me that they were able to make me sing on the videoke. Or is it consider singing at all? I mean, I'm really out of tune and it was more like shouting than singing for I really did sing total eclipse of the heart with all my heart, and at the top of my lungs. Lol.

• Never have I ever film myself singing

I have. As I was saying, I don't want anyone to hear me singing but this is another thing that I have done because of that organization I am applying to. And this is not just singing normally, imagine me singing "Today My Life Begins" sadgirl version. And another all out video I made is the one with props. Like I have the tripod as my mic stand and I have our broom (walis tambo) as my guitar. Then I sang "When I Dream About You" with so much energy and hype. And no, I won't be sharing photos or videos, just use your imagination and feel free to laugh about what I did.

• Never have I ever tried public speaking

I have. I can be really noisy but delivering a speech with many audience is a different thing. But somehow, I did it. Maybe because it's just few teachers, the principal, the guest speaker, some parents and my batchmates who are listening to me as I deliver my speech. I did it, yay!

• Never have I ever perform alone in public

I have. This was something that I was able to do in the past. Since I cannot dance nor sing, declamation is the one that I performed on the talent portion of that pageant that I mentioned above.

• Never have I ever buy on the school canteen alone or go at the comfort room alone

I have. Before, I can't even go out of the classroom alone. I'd rather endure my hunger than to go to the canteen alone and I'd rather hold my pee than to go to the CR alone. College happened and I guess, I can be a little independent now. Actually, I think I now have more than courage that I'm not even aware of. I can even go to the faculty office and face our professors alone. I can now do things alone which I thought I can't because all my life, I have always been dependent to my family and friends.

• Never have I ever called on the guidance office

I have. Okay, I admit I'm kind of a naughty student but I wasn't called because I have caused some trouble, I was called because of always going late to school. On Junior High School, there's this form for late comers where we need to sign before the guard can let us in on the school. And me, being such a good student never missed a sign on that form. Yes, I'm always late and I'm not proud of it. So then one time, when there are so many late students that it became so alarming, we were all gathered by the guidance counselor and we heard a very very long lecture from her that we end up missing our first class. "Once is enough, twice is too much, three is very much." That was her exact words which I can never forget.

I think I have signed way too much late form back then that I almost wasn't able to get my clearance so that I can enroll at Senior High School.

• Never have I ever say a curse/cuss

I have. But only once. It was when I am on 3rd grade when I was able to say that PI word. I remember my cousin was teasing me and cursing me that time so I have to do the same. Just some petty fight but I don't feel good about saying it. I don't live in such a conservative environment, I always hear my relatives saying that as if that it is normal but I was never encouraged to say it. Even before that I still wasn't a Christian. That was just one time and I don't plan to say it again. I think, the closest to bad word that I have said is "what the heck?", but no, that's not even bad. I often say that as my expression.

• Never have I ever been asked by my teacher to stand during the whole class hours

I have. I'm telling you, I am not really the goodie goodie student. I belong to those group who makes a lot of noise, who have mouths that cannot be stopped. But I wasn't called to stand because of that. I was on Grade 9 back then, and the responsible me didn't do my homework so teacher asked us to stand. And yes, it's not just me who didn't make an assignment. Lol. There's also this situation when all of us in the class were asked to stand. It was on our Filipino subject and we have to recite a poem. No one in the class memorizes it so we decided to write the copy of the poem on a bond paper and we posted it at different parts of the classroom. There's one stanza per page and we posted it on the back of the canvass, below the teacher's table, on the window at the side and on the wall at the back.

And then we have this classmate who is so bad at acting that our teacher noticed that he's reading something and then we're busted. But our class was so solid that no one admits on who have written all that. It's all our fault so all of us received the punishment for our actions. Lol

Now, this made me realize to just write a separate article about my high school life. So much memories on that time of my life.

There you have it folks! 10 things that I did that never did I thought that I can. It feels nostalgic to write this one and this is just so fun. This made me think that going out of our comfort zone isn't that scary at all. Yes, it's hard, but look at the bright side, it can also be fun.

From being such a shy girl who's hiding on her shell, I can't believe that I was able to do all those things I listed above. So to all of you reading this, there is so much more that we can do, we just need to have the courage to finally step out of our comfort zone and to try new things. We are greater than we think we are.

And it's a wrap people. Thanks to @Khairro and @WanderingMedStudent for tagging me into this challenge. You guys can also read their own version of it. And you just have to scroll on the homepage of this site and you'll surely see more users who also participated in this challenge.

You might wanna make your own version too if you still haven't.

Thanks all for reading this far, and as always, take care! :)