" Embrace your love ones, and Say I love you every time, till you have plenty of time, because we did not know what happen next"

I remember the days that we are together, living in a same house, we lived happy, I am strong that time, I can do any job , I can date you where ever you want, we can do many things together, we love each other.

Because of our love , God gave us two little boys, I am very happy, I really love my two sons, 2 two year old, and a 5 months olds premature baby, how cute of my little angels, and most of all I love you much as my wife and a mother of my children,

Time goes by, days and nights , months and years passed,

I thought I'm strong, But unfortunately I diagnosed for having acute kedney failure , I was shocked , I don't know how to deal with it, but I'm lucky I have my family , they are ready and full support to me,

I got admitted to the hospital, for almost two months ,

For the first month of being admitted your there with me, you fully supported me,

Having acute kedney failure can make a person change, there is a time that I almost forgot anything,

My family, my children, you my wife everything I almost forgot, and my behavior was changed, I became more irratable , I was on undenial stage , My self esteem got down, I can't accept to my self that I have this kind of desease,

My doctor said, I need changes, changes for everything , my food, my habbits, everything, I need to avoid of being stressed, and most of all I need more support from my love ones, so I can survive.

After a month we finally getting home, were happy , I'm happy because I'm finally got out from the hospital, I will finally see my children.

After few days of staying at home, I got admitted again in the hospital, this time it's really hards because this is the time that our country have a COVID-19 Crisis,

No transportation, So only Me and You in the hospital, You stayed with me for almost a month for the second time, Im feel ashamed because you might feel tired for taking care of me, Even your family that time stopped you to take care of me, but you have no choice , You can't go home alone,

Day by day are passed, doctor said I need 3-4 pack of Blood , It's not easy to find blood that time, but with God grace , The hospital gave me blood that I need,

My nurse's said to you , that I'm a survivor, because even I have kedney failure and a dialisis patient, I'm still Covid free, Yes I thought I'm a survivor.

Yes , I'm happy for the second time , because The doctor said I can go home.

I'm so happy Because I survived to the hospital even in my surroundings have facing covid patient every where,

Tonight we're going home, we talked like usual, I talked to you with smile, but You just looked at me and just nod , I felt sad a bit, but I don't mind it, because in my mind I finally see my children That I really missed.

When we are home, you just stayed outside, but me I'll come inside, Feeling excited, I saw the smile come from my child,

He called me " DADA, DADA, " I laughed that time because my child is now starting talking.

But your still outside the house., and said Out of the now where,

You said to my family that Your going to Give up on me_________my happiness that time fade away, that your going back to your family, I got shocked!

You take my children away from me, and still asking my self ..............

Why? Why this time? I knew it at first that this moment will happen someday, but why now?

The happiness I felt turns out Sad. I cried a lot, and begging you , I asked you to stay, I asked you to stay with me even for tonight, because I want to be with my children, But your feelings for me was Cold like an Ice, You never turning back...You seems you finally make a decision.

Not more than an hour and everything was end.

Today I'm free now, I'm free for this pain, I'm free to be with you now for ever, I'm free to watch my childrens till they grow old, I am contented now,

Thank you for all the memories , the memories of happiness and pain that we have together.

" Love your partner in sickness and in health, for richer and poorer , till death do you part "

" If you love someone it means you are ready for the responsibility, Life is full hardship not only wealth and happiness, You must be ready "

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-I actually don't know if my title is match for this article. I hope you understand.

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