Forcing laughter, faking smiles.

03/05/22

Yesterday morning before logging in to my work, I opened my YouTube and played random music. As I was a little bit sad at that time, I felt like some lyrics are relatable to me haha especially my title. HAHA. But when I'm just sad, okay? I'm okay now. XD

So, from those music, these are the lines I remembered:

Forcing laughter, faking smiles. This is me whenever I'm sad but I don't want to show it to others and I do not want to feel that way. The pretendah. XD That is why I'm forcing my laughter and faking smiles but if you know me, you'll know that I'm faking it. I just want to be happy in front of them, you know, me being sad can make the atmosphere the same. Kaya happy lang dapat. Haha.

The more you say, the less I know. Sometimes when people are talking too much, my little brain can't handle it haha. Chariizz. I relate to this one in terms of, when someone is saying a lot about the things I can't visualize and it leads to different dimensions XD. Like "what is she talking about?" But in relation to particular lessons or information from professors and mentors, the more they discuss, I can't absorb all of it, it's overwhelming. Haha. "Less is more." ;)

I feel okay when I see your smile. There are times that we feel down and lonely but when we see someone's smile who is close to us or babies and innocent children, it makes us feel better or it's only me? Kidding. Haha. Seeing your smile makes me feel okay, love. Yiiieee haha. Seeing someone smile can attract others to smile too, you know that? It's like a contagious disease. 'Wag lang yung ngiti na parang may balak, depende din pala kung gusto mo yung balak. HAHAHA

Everybody's laughing in my mind. Before, when I'm thinking about the future or possible outcome of what I will do and make mistakes, I tend to think that everybody will laugh. Now, I don't care anymore. HAHAHA chaaar

Lonely place. For me, it's not literally a lonely place. But it's the situation, feelings, memories and so on. The place became lonely when we expected something or someone to see but it was nowhere to be found. It can be a beautiful place that turns into a lonely place because the person you used to come there is not with you anymore, it all became in memories.

Playful conversation. Tamang utuan lang, ganon. XD. There is always one person in your squad (if wala sa inyo edi wala lang haha) that will break the serious conversation into a playful one. He/She will talk about something funny or give scenarios that make everyone laugh and there you go, it becomes a playful conversation.

That's all for today!

Thank you so much for reading! :)

Today is Saturday so it's my rest day! Haha. I planned to jog this morning but it was canceled so I decided to do my laundry but my mother is doing hers so maybe tomorrow. I've shared this on my noise but want to share this here too. Haha.

Happy weekend! Keep safe.