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I encountered a lot of people, in my school and workplace. The behaviour and attitude of them that I'm used and tired of. I was raised to be kind and obedient and always respect each and every one of us, even nature and all the living things in the world. I am a bubbly person that when I smiled, you will surely smile back at me and that's my special power.
The moment when the door of opportunity is open, I grabbed the chance and let myself experience the real world.
I worked at a very young age, I was fifteen years old back then when my parents said to me that they cannot support me financially and I need to stop studying. I cried a lot on the same day but I ignore what they said and pursue what I wanted to do. I remember when one of my relatives was hiring me for a job, the thought that I was too young and innocent facing the world of the economy since I was just in our house in my entire life and never experienced socializing with strangers was fade away and took the offer as if I have no choice anyway.
It was a busy day that we have a lot of customers to assist but I wanted to make my job in a smooth way, I wanted to be recognized for how good I am and I can do what they can do too. I wanted to make them realize that my age is not a hindrance in making my job better.
I encountered an engineer who degraded me as a saleslady at the hardware store, he keeps on shouting and telling me how ignorant I was but in the first place, bragging what his status and not being a professional in that situation is kinda off for me. I mean Woah, you call yourself an engineer and should pay respect to you even though you are looking like a dog who barks for nothing? I abstain myself as calm as I can and fortunately, my co-worker saved me - a woman who is a veteran of this kind of toxic customers. In the end, of course, I won and I don't want to tolerate his accusations to me, I know what I am doing and I know that what I am telling is right and it is worth fighting for.
After that encounter, I can't stop myself from crying, showing how young and weak I am in front of everyone. I can't hide my emotions at that time. I was hurt by his word and that remains in my mind until now. Obviously, a nightmare.
I was good. I was able to get a client who wants us to be their supplier for their construction project, I met a lot of amazing professionals and also corrupt government officials who wanted to fabricate all the receipts. It was against my principles so I avoid that kind of people and let the others handle them.
They compliment how good I was and how fast a learner I am. I can even be the best seller if I am not studying. Yes, I did not give up to pursue my willingness to have a degree (it's not for them, it's for me to prove that I chose the right way for me) and if you do not know I was a very hard working person before. I am devoted to my work and my studies. I work hard as a saleslady when I don't have a class to attend. I am an achiever silently and every failure I got is because time is not enough for me.
After five years of working there, I know I deserve better, I can't live for a $2.5 salary for a day and make the $5 allowance for one week of studying. I am not a minor anymore, I know the law, I know the rules and regulations and how businesses works, I studied human resource and labor act, you can't manipulate my mind about those minimum wages and taxes you are putting in every worker's mind you have.
I CHOSE TO QUIT
(I guess I made the right decision, I am enjoying myself here, I don't take it as a job, but I took it as an opportunity for me to discover and try to decipher the codes of my adventures)
I was once part of the top notcher, I never failed to be on top Five every academic year in my high school life. But I got tired for the reason that I was just doing it for nothing. Every recognition ceremony, my parents aren't there with me to put the medal. It was always my teacher who is being with me on the stage. I even graduated in my junior high wearing the sash saying that I am one of the honorable students without anyone to cheer me up.
I got tired and stop proving what I can do. I know myself better than anyone else.
I kept it lowkey, I kept it as it is now.
This is what I chose, inner peace is what I wish the most.
I CHOSE MY ATARAXIA
There is a certain moment in our life when we need to decide whether we'll go for it or take a step back.
In my two decades of breathing and surviving in this world, there are times that I questioned my existence and tried to end this life. Moments are being vague and thought that ending my existence is the only way to escape everything that has been tough for me to conquer.
In the end, I chose to find my peace of mind and enjoy the life that I have.
June 27, 2021
This article is written for the prompt made by @meitanteikudo
The prompt :
You are standing in front of two doors and the choice is yours whether which one to open. Write a story about what happens after you have chosen one path.
It was my assignment to be submitted to him and I hope I made it just fine 🙈
This is just a cute sentiment of mine. I don't bark at anyone because obviously typing here I am not a dog but I can write for my thoughts, for my inner peace, to improve my writing skills, and of course to earn bitcoin cash.
I am not obliged to satisfy you, I have this freedom of what should I do. I am me, You are YOU. I am cute, how about you?
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